it´s been a very long time since I last wrote something, specially a puzzleshipping, let´s see how it turns out.

Oh yeah this is rated M for language, some sexual themes, violence and well…you´ll see

This is YAOI boyXboy relationships so if you don´t like don´t read, I don´t want to be responsible for tainting your minds, what else… oh, of course I don´t own Yu-Gi-Oh! or anything related, just the plot, if I did …woaa just imagine if I owned yugioh!

Warning: it has drama for a reason, if you want a non sad story with fluff stuff and bunnies and hearts and candies, I´m sorry to inform you that this story isn´t for you… =(

Summary: "If you love something let it go, if it returns it´s yours forever, if it doesn´t it never meant to be" He puts their bond to the test, breaking the heart of his aibou, will their love survive the trial? YYxY SxJ and more to come

Well let´s start this mess of a story

A way to you

Prologue

Drops of water touched him gently on the face, caressing lips and watering eyes, he was already tired of crying that much for the first time in life, it was a new feeling that he couldn´t describe. Things had happened impressively quickly, one night he was building up his definitive deck of cards, trying to accept the fact that he wouldn´t see his darker half ever again and the next one he was crying on the shower, remembering the painful words his Yami had told him.

"I need to discover who really I am…but, by myself"

After finishing the ceremonial duel the gods spoke to the former pharaoh explaining the reason why he was going to be given a human body and a new life; apparently the entity known as Atem had already fulfill his goal, however the one known as Yami had not…

The gang was thrilled to hear that their friend could stay, specially Yugi who could keep his partner, his darker half, his secret love!

But Yami had other thoughts in mind, as soon as they left the Valley of the Kings, the former pharaoh got immerse in his own world, showing a depressed face and walking carelessly. Yugi thought that he could be feeling weird in his new physical body and, hoping that everything would be terrific from that day on, the duelist teen slept all the way, he deserved some rest.

His little bubble of dreams shattered as soon as they arrived in Domino and the Game Shop, his Yami had made up his mind

"I…I don´t get it, I thought we were partners" sighed Yugi trying to fight his own tears

"You´re my aibou and you´ll always be, but you need to understand this, I was given another chance…another life!!" said the taller half.

" So it´s all about you isn´t it?!" cried Yugi not being able to keep his tears

"How can you say that?! You really don´t get it… you´ve got your life with your friends, your school, your grandfather…!"

"OUR friends" interrupted he

"Yugi listen to me for a second would you? I always believed that my fate was to save this world from the shadows and I know you remember how I felt not remembering who I was in the past… don´t you understand?!"

"I don´t…see…why you have to leave" whispered he

"I already told you!!!" screamed Yami messing up his hair "I need to find my new reason to be in this world…by MYSELF!"

"I could help you…like always!" snapped Yugi, still not understanding his Yami´s reasons to leave.

"Aibou" started Yami calming and lowering his tone a bit "I really need to overcome this alone, I don´t want to hurt you if I do something wrong…I wouldn´t be able to resist it…I can´t lose you again…" His forehead shadowed, he was about to cry.

"Other me, please you´re too exhausted to think about it, why don´t we rest this night and talk tomorrow?" Said the smaller teen putting a hand on his other half´s shoulder.

That touch felt so relieving and conformable, the darker one remembered how that single touch could make him feel safe and strong, the touch that had helped him so many times before a duel that seemed impossible to win, during a fight when everything was apparently lost or in times of eternal doubt, not knowing who he actually was. Yami started to hesitate about his decision.

"Please other me, you can´t imagine how I felt when I thought I had lost you forever…but now…you´re here…with me, we have another chance…please….don´t leave me"

Yami tried to avoid eye contact but his aibou´s gaze was too hypnotic, in that moment, seeing his tears, his hurt and apologetic expression and hearing those supplicating words he knew he had to be strong.

Yugi tried to caress his other self´s cheek but was rejected as Yami moved away abruptly.

" After spending years of telling you to be strong and to have confidence you do this?" blamed Yami looking at him with disbelief "You didn´t learn anything Yugi" He made a negative gesture as he started to pack a few things

Yugi´s heart ached after hearing those accusations.

"I…I…I´m strong…because of you" his voice shook as well as his hands "At…least, tell me if you will…return"

The former pharaoh hesitated again, leaving his hands on the air when he was about to close his package, not knowing what to say or do, there was a sepulchral silence that seemed to last an eternity, both spending the worst time of their lives.

A series of images started to dance across the ancient spirit´s mind, haunting it; the first time the puzzle was solved, the tough duels and times in the Duelist´s Kingdom, the restless nights during Battle City, the nightmare after being separated because of the seal of Orichalcos and their reunion…their first kiss; the blushed face of Yugi with his innocent eyes looking at him with endless love, his sweet and soft lips and a promise "we will always be together"

"…will you?" asked Yugi, tears threatening to come down again.

As if coming back from a deep dream, those single two words awoken him bringing him back to the real world, the darker one closed his backpack abruptly and headed to the door.

"You can´t force our fates Yugi, and I cannot promise you anything" Sighed he, hiding his true motives.

"Our fate…was to be togeth.."

"THAT´S YOUR PROBLEM!" Interrupted he rudely "You just can´t get over things easily, always crying and blaming yourself for everything!"

That hurt both of them, the heart of Yugi was already broken and Yami was trying to keep his actuation believable… his true motives still hidden.

"…after that many years…is over" said Yugi emotionless and tired of crying

"That´s right" said the other coldly, in front of the door not facing his aibou.

"…just like that"

"Just like that Yugi"

"Why…aren´t you calling me aibou anymore…you promised that we would be partners forever, no matter what!" blamed Yugi

Yami turned back to face him with a cold glare.

"Enough Mutou, I tried to make you understand, I gave you reasons and I even put up with your endless crying"

"Why are you hurting me?! I´ve never lied or cheated…I´ve always supported and forgiven you!...I…have …loved y…"

"C´mon" interrupted again "Don´t make it more difficult"

Feeling like there was nothing to lose Yugi stood up and walked towards his other self

"Tell me you don´t love me!!!" spat he, still tears in his eyes, a broken heart and looking defeated

Yami wasn´t ready for that, not ready to face what he´d done, having to say those words to his partner was the most difficult and painful task he had gone through, but he couldn´t say the truth…not yet.

"Tell me that all those nights were a lie!...that every time we made love you were lying!"

He couldn't take it anymore, it was bringing him back many memories of them giving themselves to each other, swearing eternal love, passionate kisses, sincere hugs and their breathless sweating bodies, all inside their soul rooms, each touch was different and magic, every single word was spoken from the heart and the world didn´t exist for them, all that mattered was their deep bond and no more…

"I was lying" answered he coldly

Yugi wanted to cry but it all seemed so unreal, that couldn´t be happening, not between them, they were darkness and light, life partners, the perfect combination, they had lived and died together for four years…how could he be saying that?

"You were…using me" accused Yugi in defeat

"Yes I was, I wanted to recover my memories and fulfill my duty as a savior, I´ve already done that thanks to you, so I leave now" Yugi wasn´t expecting such an answer, not from his Yami who swore not to hurt him ever and to protect him as a guardian, was the whole situation a dream?

Yugi fell down on his knees as Yami exited their room without saying another word.

Well that was the prologue, I hope you liked it… I know you hate Yami for what he´s done but apparently he has a good reason, please leave reviews to let me know if you want me to continue this fic ´cause it´s been a really long time since I wrote anything and I think this story sucks : (