A/n: Story will contain mild use of language, major agony and violence, suggested rape and adult-theme. The story is not for those who are easily offended, fainted hearts and young children.

Let there be no surprises

Prologue

It was not suppose to be like this…

"Ryan?! Don't close your eyes! Focus on my voice, think about the first thing you are going to do when we get out of this place."

Ryan chuckled at Horatio's proposal as more blood dripped down the corner of his mouth.

All Ryan wanted to do right now was to cry. Maybe if he cried enough, the pain would go away. For the past few days, he had held back tears and screams, but he was at a threshold now. He didn't want to disappoint Horatio or give them the satisfaction that he has been broken. But it's near impossible not to shear any tears now. The torture and the mind-games that they have been playing with him were too painful to withstand. There was no stopping the tears. Ryan buried his head in Horatio's lap as his fragile body shook with sobs. He didn't want Horatio to see him like this. He knew that the next time they come, Horatio would not hesitate to tell them the girl's location. If that happened, everything they have worked for would be for nothing.

Horatio tightened his hold on Ryan as his young agent let out a soft whimper. The embrace was the only comfort that he could provide for Ryan. Even his body heat could no longer keep him warm. He had watch Ryan's life and sprit slowly broke down. The physical contact he gave was a lifeline for Ryan and perhaps the only thing that was keeping Ryan sane.

Ryan lifted his head up from Horatio's lap, looked at him with pleading eyes and begged, "Kill me…please…"

We have been through so many battles, but you never let me look at your scars

How many tears have you shed under the stars?

While I hold you tonight in this abandoned battlefield

You have let go anything that will heal.