This is a two-shot. Sad, I almost cried making this but, whateves!
Hope you enjoy it!
Dear Diary,
Today Was Pretty Messed Up! Freddie got hit by a Taco truck trying to save Carly. Why did he save Carly I mean I know she's our best friend but you can't just do something like that! When Carly told me she kissed Freddie my heart stopped. Carly Kissed Freddie? I thought she didn't like him! Why all of a sudden he saves her life so she likes Freddie. She Never Liked Him Before So why start now?! I like Freddie! I even Love Freddie! But you don't see me walking around kissing him all day! Every time I see him and Carly together I die a little more inside. Why don't I just die instead of suffering? Why do I Love Freddie? I didn't choose to love him. Love can be so cruel! We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us. I guess I'll just have to learn to live with it coz Freddie's not gonna love me back no matter what I do....
~Sam Wuz Here
~Next Diary Entry~
Dear Diary,
It's me again I really wanna tell Freddie I Love him but I know I can't.... He's In a relationship with Carly Perfect Shay, Besides he hates me anyway. It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. He hurt Me so much and all I ever did was love him. I wished I saved all those tears I cried for him so I could drown him in them! They say when a boy sweeps you off your feet it's supossed to be the best thing ever when in reality When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass. You don't choose to love someone, But the person you love didn't choose you. He Loves Carly and Carly, she doesn't really love him back, she loves what he did....But I'll Always Love Him no matter what...
~Sam Wuz Here
~The Next Diary Entry~
Dear Diary,
It's Me yea you guessed it. The school dance is coming up and I don't have a Date. There's only one person at ridgeway that doesn't make me sick and that's the Carly-Crazzed phsyco-path, The boy whose eye's match his Hair. Fredward Benson. He doesn't deserve someone like Carly he deserves better. Carly's my friend but, Freddie doesn't deserve someone who doesn't love him for who he is. Ever since Carly and Freddie started dating everyone didn't notice me anymore. I was invisible. Sometimes I just wanna scream, I'm Here! Carly and Freddie don't hang out with me anymore either. Ever since they found each other I found my way out of being their friend. It's Like your my only friend diary..... Maybe, Maybe The world doesn't need me around anymore. I'm sick of hurting like this I just want peace. Somewhere where I won't have to suffer like this no more.....ugh!...Well when Life gives you lemons make lemonade.... When Life gives you a broken heart learn to deal with it...
~Sam Wuz Here
~The Next Diary Entry~
Dear Diary,
It's Me...Again... No one understands me. To them I'm just the blonde-headed bully that everyone hates nobody likes me.... Well you understand me and you like me, I guess that's good enough. But sometimes I wonder what it's like to have it all, to never be afraid that I would fall. Lets face it I'm a loser as I am blonde! I wish I could start all over again, to make things right. I wonder if i change my identity and move to north carolina maybe i can get a new start...But I'll still love Freddie so why does it make a difference?
~Sam Wuz Here
Sam Picked Up her Ipod touch and scrolled through she found a song she layed down on her bed.
I was five and he was six
We rode on horses made of sticks
He wore black and I wore white
He would always win the fight
Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my baby shot me down.
Seasons came and changed the time
When I grew up, I called him mine
He would always laugh and say
"Remember when we used to play?"
Bang bang, I shot you down
Bang bang, you hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, I used to shoot you down.
Music played, and people sang
Just for me, the church bells rang.
Now he's gone, I don't know why
And till this day, sometimes I cry
He didn't even say goodbye
He didn't take the time to lie.
Bang bang, he shot me down
Bang bang, I hit the ground
Bang bang, that awful sound
Bang bang, my baby shot me down...
Sam couldn't take it any more., the pain of not being loved. She walked slowly to the kitchen and took a Santoku knife and cut herself."Only just for a little longer" she thought. She realized that she had lost too much blood and fell to the floor. Her whole life flashed before her eyes. She saw Freddie,Carly,Spencer,Her mom, Her dad, Melanie,. In a few seconds Samantha Marie Taylor Puckett was dead.
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