Hi! Since I saw the last episode I started thinking how the season will go on. I've got some time... We have got some time... This is how I imagine what remains of the season, this is what I want, what I fear, what I'd like.
It's the first time I write a fic in English. Hope you'll enjoy and review.
See you soon
When Dr. Kepner arrived home it was 10 p.m. .
She was exhausted. She leant against the door she had just closed after her. She closed her eyes breathing heavily. It was an exhausting day. Since Derek Sheperd had hired her back her days were so hard. Working… But above all working for him, working with him. She knew she was special to him. He had hired her back, erasing the choice Dr. Webber had made. She closed her hands in fists going back to that day. Everybody had indicated her as a studip, her friends… What friends? The only person who had spent nice words to her had been Dr. Sheperd. She had overheard the conversation he had with Chief Webber after all doctors had gone. And he was so true: the chaos was Webber's fault, not hers.
She went in the kitchen and opened the water spraying cold drops on her face. She gritted her teeth.
She had never earned to be fired, in that way. It was not her fault that woman had died. People die every day. Sometimes doctors have just to fulfill their wishes and help them achieve their goal. Even Dr. Altman did that and nobody punished her for this. April did what she was asked for. Sometimes she did what patients were even afraid to ask. Just as today. She took another deep breath. She had to stay calm, no panic. Things were going to be okay. Her sacrifices were soon to be over: in a few days Derek would finally notice her, notice how good she was, how pretty she was.
She sat on the couch with a coke and remembered the first day they met: it was her first day at Seattle Grace, she was so nervous… The first case was with him and that slut of Grey, Lexie. She had tried to impress Dr. Sheperd with some stupid stuff about photographic memory. But then April had suggested a new way to treat the patient and that was it: the way he had smirked at her, looked at her had revealed her everything. He liked her. She could read it in his eyes, so blue, so warm to her, so deep.
It was a matter of time. Sure, Meredith Grey complicated everything. Their bound was heavy and difficult to cut. He felt guilty to her. April had to be patient and pretend she did not exist. She woke up and entered her bathroom. She started washing her teeth. On the mirror Sheperd's photo, a photo she had found on a newspaper. He was handsome. And hers.
A bright ray of light welcomes the new day. Derek is having breakfast in Meredith's kitchen. He is reading a newspaper. Alex enters the room.
Alex: morning
Derek: morning… (he looks up and sees Alex has dark circles around his eyes. Karev opens the fridge and take some milk. He never looks at him). You fine?
Alex: yep
Derek: your brother?
Alex: good
Derek: I did not know you had one
Alex: I did not know you had a wife either (Derek stops reading as he has been slapped. Alex realizes he has been really rude). Sorry…. (he stops drinking) I'm sorry. I said that without thinking.
Derek: never mind. I was just trying to make some kind of conversation, you know, the guy who steals your cereals thing but… (he goes back reading)
Alex: it's just.. First Izzie asks me the divorce
Derek: she did? (Alex nods). I'm sorry. I did not know it.
Alex: I thought Mer had told you.
Derek: no. It's the two of you who spent time chatting in the shower.
Alex: not in the shower
Derek: I hope for you not (he smiles at Alex). Anyway I'm happy the two of you are friends. She needs good friends. And you need it too. Anything I can do?
Alex: no. I just have to start my life new. I thought I could do it with Izzie but now she is gone and I can do anything about it. She has decided and I have to make a reason of it.
Derek: did you try to talk to her?
Alex: she never answers my phone calls. She left me with two hundred thousand bucks to pay for her treatments and nothing else.
Derek: I think maybe you should give her some space.
Alex: some space? She left me dude. It's been two months. How more space does she need?
Derek: you're right. But she nearly died. She went through a lot of surgeries, she lost her job and one of her best friends all in the same time. Maybe she just needs to take some time and let things settle down.
Alex: But I can't wait forever.
Derek: you can. If you want.
Alex: would you? (there is a sound of footsteps coming down the stairs. Meredith enters the room and Derek smiles at her. She kisses him on the lips and takes the carton from Alex's hands. Derek is still smiling at her).
Derek: yes (Meredith looks at Derek, a frown on her face. Then at Alex)
Meredith: what?
Alex and Derek: nothing
Meredith: you're bad liars. What's up Alex?
Alex: why do you ask me? He is your hubby, not me!
Meredith: 'cause you are my friend and I told you secrets in the shower so you've got to tell me the truth (she smirks).
Alex: we were talking about my divorce.
Meredith: did you sign the papers?
Alex: not yet (he looks at the clock on the wall and stands up). I gotta go if I do not want to be late for rounds. You come?
Meredith: I've to be in in an hour.
Alex: chief's wife…
Meredith: take it back! (Alex is leaving the room, he takes his coat and opens the door. Meredith is still shouting after him). Take it back!
Derek: Mer… he is gone. Stop shouting.
Meredith: you like my shouting (Derek gets up and takes Meredith in his arms, he kisses the top of her head).
Derek: I so do (they are sharing a passionate kiss but they're interrupted by Lexie entering the kitchen).
Lexie: oh… sorry. I can come back later.
Meredith: it's ok Lexie. We are not going to have another sex marathon on the table (Derek is still kissing her neck and ears)
Derek: we are not? (Meredith pushes him away)
Meredith: No. I'm going upstairs. You stay here reading your chiefly paper (she gives him a pat on the ass and leaves. Derek sits on his chair and goes back reading. Lexie is waiting for her coffee and stares at him, unsure of what to do, if telling him about April or not. Derek feels her glare and looks up).
Derek: what? (Lexie is caught unprepared)
Lexie: nothing… I was…. Maybe I could tell you… but not! It's not important. It's just a thing, nothing important, a stupid thing. Never mind. It's not worth.
Derek: ok (his pager beeps. He looks at the screen). It's Doctor Kepner. Something is going on. I have to go (while Derek leaves the room Lexie looks up and takes a sip of her coffee).
Lexie: bitch
Mark enters the ER carrying Little Sloan in his arms. Teddy follows him.
Mark: I need a doctor here (Bailey is at the nurses station, her back to the entrance)
Bailey: feel like you're in the right place Sloan. What… (she turns on her heels to see Mark and his daughter).
Mark: I think she is in labour
Little Sloan: ahhhhhhh
Bailey: she is in labour. Take her in that visit room (she takes a look to the ER and notices April standing next the entrance) Dr. Kepner! (she does not answer). Dr Kepner?!
April: yes Doctor Bailey
Bailey: come here, I need help.
April: but I'm waiting for Chief Sheperd
Bailey: don't worry. The man can find the door without you. Move (April is not happy but she does what required. They enter the visit room together). Ok guys. Seems you're in labour. You need to stay calm, you need to take deep breaths (Sloan seems paler than her). You too Sloan. Sit down if you don't want to faint.
Mark: I think I should…
Little Sloan: get the hell out of here! You're not staying here while I… Oh God, it hurts!
Bailey: I know but I need you to stay calm and listen to me. If you want you can go, grandpa. I'll keep you posted. (April seems distracted. She keeps looking through the blinds to the entrance). Kepner will keep you posted. She seems she has nothing better to do than waiting for her Chief. Relax, he lived 35 years of his life without you breathing on his neck. Stop doing whatever you are doing and be a doctor here.
Little Sloan: can you send here someone? I do not know…. Your girlfriend or the lesbo…
Mark: Callie. Her name is Callie.
Little Sloan: whatever. Ahhh
Bailey: ok, Sloan get out. GYM is coming. You can wait outside (Mark leaves the room).
Owen is sitting in Dr. Wyatt's office. He is alone and he is reading a newspaper. The door opens and the psychologist enters. She notices Hunt and seems surprised to see him.
Wyatt: good morning
Owen: hi
Wyatt: it's a pleasure to have you here. Again. I thought you were fine (she sits behind her desk and puts her glasses on).
Owen: I thought I was but… I don't know. It's difficult and I don't know what to do. I have these memories and they seem to aggress me whenever they want. And then Teddy…
Wyatt: Teddy?
Owen: she is… she is a friend, sort of. She was with me in Iraq. We were always together.
Wyatt: what do you mean by together?
Owen: that we spent time together. I was in love with her but she never seemed to care. Then it comes up she has always been in love with me but … and now I'm with Cristina and it's…
Wyatt: complicated? (Owen shakes his head burying it in his hands). I think sentimental issues are the last of your problems. You should come up with war memories before going on (Hunt looks up but Dr. Wyatt stops him before he can talk). I know what you are going to say but do not do it. You are here. So you know there is something wrong with you. It's a good step, but it's the first one.
Owen: I know that
Wyatt: why are you here in the first place?
Owen: what? You've just said that…
Wyatt: I know what I've said. I meant… did something happen to take you here?
Owen: Cristina is scared of me and I can't stand it anymore. I want her to trust me, not to fear me.
Wyatt: is that all?
Owen: is it not enough?
Wyatt: I think you should come here for yourself, not other people. You hurt, it's clear. You should put pieces altogether before giving them away to someone else. Anyway… let's talk about this woman, Teddy.
(Owen nods).
Derek enters the ER and notices Mark sitting in the waiting area
Derek: hey, you ok?
Mark: Little Sloan is having her baby.
Derek: is she back?
Mark: she knocked yesterday evening while I was…
Derek: stop! I guess I don't want to know what you were doing (he takes a sit near Mark).
Mark: I'm serious this time. Teddy is good for me. And she is… passionate and clever. And in bed…
Derek: Mark, please. You are going to be a grandpa in less than an hour. Can you stop talking about sex?
Mark: I can try… Why are you here? I thought the Chief started working later than 8.30 …
Derek: I was paged. Kepner paged me.
Mark: she is in there with Bailey.
Derek: did she page me for Little Sloan?
Mark: you kidding! You are not going in there to look between my daughter's legs.
Derek: sure I am not. I must go to see what I was paged for (he pats Mark's shoulder and goes to the elevator. When the doors open he sees Richard inside). Hi
Richard: Derek.. You are early.
Derek: I was paged
Richard: since I see you… I saw Mr. Greene here this morning with a man who looks a lot like a lawyer.
Derek: another lwasuit? (he passes a hand on his eyes) Do you think it is for the DNR form or the surgery?
Richard: it is for anything Derek. That man is upset and he is coping with his loss in this way. Anyway… I brought Mrs. Greene's chart in your office as soon as I met him. If you need anything…
Derek: I will read it and then I'll call you (the doors open and Richard steps out). Richard?
Richard: yes?
Derek: is there something I need to know?
Richard: you'll find everything in there.
Alex is looking for Torres. Her scans are ready but he can't find her anywhere. He heard a noise coming from the OC Room and opens the door. Callie is lying on the bed, her head under the pillow, it looks like she is crying.
Alex: Dr. Torres?
Callie: yeah?
Alex: Nick's scan are ready.
Callie: and?
Alex: it looks like he has some broken bone.
Callie: what do you suggest?
Alex: surgery. And you should come out from there.
Callie: give me a minute (Alex is standing waiting for her). Alone (Karev closes the door leaving her alone. In the corridor she notices Arizona).
Alex: Dr. Robbins…
Arizona: Karev...
Alex: your girlfriend is in there and she does not stop crying. Maybe you should…
Arizona: go or I will be late in my OR. See you Karev.
Cristina has entered the cafeteria. She notices Meredith sitting in a corner alone, a cup of coffee on the table, a medical magazine open in front of her. Cristina sits on a free chair.
Cristina: hi
Meredith: ehi (she smiles brightly and Cristina stares at her carefully).
Cristina: what did you do to my friend?
Meredith: I'm sorry?
Cristina: what did you do to my dark and twisty friend? You look like a freak.
Meredith: I am a freak. A happy and smiling freak.
Cristina: did you and McDreamy start creating new little, chatty lives?
Meredith: we… practiced. All night. And you?
Cristina: I don't do kids. I did not practice. Owen…
Meredith: what? Did he have another outburst?
Cristina: yes… kind of. We were talking about kids and…
Meredith: were you?
Cristina: he was. But that's not the point. The point is that he hit me with a pan. Then he decided to go in analyses. Teddy was right… I can't understand him. I can't get what's going on in his head. Sometimes I trust him. Sometimes I think I don't know who he is. And he is talking about children…
Meredith: he loves you.
Cristina: are you going to give me the dovey dovey crap?
Meredith: Cristina… Why can you just not say "not at all" once in your life? You don't have to make kids tomorrow. But talk about them.
Cristina: I don't even know if I could still have them.
Meredith: does he know?
Cristina: what? That I aborted a child?
Meredith: you did not abort. You lost him.
Cristina: two days before going to abort. You were my person, don't you remember? (Meredith takes a cracker and starts chewing it). Oh god…
Meredith: what?
Cristina: you are serious
Meredith: about what?
Cristina: about the Mc Baby… You want it… You want a chatty, hair mussed, blue eyed toddler?
Meredith: Cristina…
Cristina: oh… don't tell me… You want a princess with dolls and spoiled by her daddy… This sucks Meredith.
Meredith: it does not. It's life. I am scared, but I also want this. I thought I would have been an awful wife. But it's not that bad. I'm not that bad. And Alex told me I would not be like my mother.
Cristina: did you tell Karev too? This really sucks…
Lexie is looking at Mark. She is 15 meters away, hidden by a curtain. She is suturing a patient. The girl seems to notice her mind is away. She is suturing her sleeve instead of her skin.
Girl: doctor Grey?
Lexie: yeah
Girl: could you… (Lexie looks down and notices her mistake)
Lexie: crap… I'm sorry
Girl: who's that? You know, the guy there.
Lexie: it's Dr. Sloan (the girl stares at her, not sure about the answer). It's my ex boyfriend. His daughter is having a baby.
Girl: you want to go to him? I can wait…
Lexie: no, I'm staying right here with you. We are almost done (The door of the visit room opens and April goes out. She looks disappointed and hurries upstairs).
Girl: you are lucky to work here. Doctors are really cute. Sexy I would say. Your Dr. Sloan, his friend…
Lexie: what friend?
Girl: dark hair, blue eyes, well dressed…
Lexie: that's Sheperd. It's our Chief. And my sister's husband.
Girl: is your sister the girl who just left that room?
Lexie: no, she is not. Why do you ask me?
Girl: nothing… I got the impression… you know what? I am just curious…
Derek is in his office, Mrs. Greene's chart open on the table. He wrote some notes and now he is looking out the window. The door opens without anyone knocked. April comes in.
April: Dr. Sheperd, good morning.
Derek: hi. Did you page me?
April: yes. Doctor Bailey told me too. I don't know why. I'm sorry I bothered you so early.
Derek: it's not your fault. You need anything?
April: no… I was told to come here, you wanted to see me.
Derek: yeah. I paged Doctor Webber and Grey too. It looks like we have another lawsuit coming. I wanted to ask you all something about the patient. Mrs. Greene.
April: the woman who had a stroke and signed the DNR?
Derek: yes… I think you are a bit early. The others will be here in half an hour. You can go and come back later.
April: I can wait if you want… Or do you want me to grab you a coffee or something to drink?
Derek: no thanks… I'm waiting for… (before he can finish the sentence Meredith runs in his office) here she is (he stands up and takes the lab coat off his shoulders. He leaves it on the chair. He takes Meredith's hands). See you later Doctor Kepner (April is frozen on the spot. Through the window she sees Meredith kissing Derek. She fights to control tears. She approaches the desk and put her hands on Sheperd's coat. She can feel his smell, his musky scent. She can not help taking it and leaving the room).