A/N: Once again, I must beg for forgiveness regarding the lateness of this chapter! Life has been hectic. It's been so long that I actually had to go back and remind myself of the story. If I get a few details wrong, then I am truly sorry. Please don't kill me.

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I know I'm not a man of many words. Tifa and Barret often rebuke me for my quiet nature and detest of small talk. But, I didn't need very many words as I pulled the little form closer to me that morning. Just two simple yet effective words were necessary- able to wrap everything up into a neat little package:

Oh, shit!

I had re-clothed us already, refusing to have either of us remain nude.

Staring down at the content-looking, sleeping figure of the boy, I felt sickened. It all felt like a dream, the way I had touched him…the way he had…had….

Oh, shit!

I never thought this would happen. All the absent-minded touches, all the playful jokes and hints, all the dreams and fantasies…I never thought they would lead to this.

Yes, I was in to men. And yes, I hadn't had sex or intimacy with another for quite a few years- I was sexually starved. But, that was no excuse for my behaviour.

This wasn't like back in SOLDIER, where an intimate relationship with someone older could be kept behind the cold, metallic walls. This wasn't like with Zack.

I would have to face this, face him, every single day- watching his innocence, knowing that I had taken part of it away. Was this what it was like to be the eldest in the relationship? If so, I wanted no part of it.

Denzel couldn't be my dirty little secret. I couldn't just coax him into bed with me every time I was in need of release. He was a child, a child I looked after. A child Tifa and I had practically adopted.

Oh, Gaia! Tifa!

How could I do this to Tifa! After all she had done for us, she had kept us together- had never left my side, even when I left hers.

I'm sick! Disgusting!

Why couldn't I have just kept these sick feelings inside! Why did I have to go ahead and ruin everything!

That was it. I would have to leave. I had no choice now. How could I continue living like this after what I'd done?

Denzel had put his mouth…he'd…he'd given me a blowjob! And, Gaia-forbid, I had enjoyed it so damn much!

And now, here he was, softly sleep against my chest- one arm flung across my torso so darn casually it made my stomach churn. What sort of man was I?

I could just hear him, in the back of my head!

"Well, Cloud. Isn't this amusing? You've truly fallen, losing your light completely. Hero, indeed." Sephiroth, taunting me after seeing what I'd done.

"Shut up."

"It seems like I am no longer the worst thing you'll have to face. I must be losing my touch."

"Don't be embarrassed, brother." Not Kadaj too! That was the last thing I needed. "Everyone needs release once in a while- even you!" I could hear the youth's chuckle ringing in my head, over and over and over.

My eyes danced down to the boy's face, my stomach churning at the sight.

His eyes were closed, his mouth slightly parted to let out his gentle breaths so they could tickle the skin of my chest. His mess of brown hair was even more wild in the early morning, but it only added to his overall cute exterior. His skin looked so pure…so untouched. No one would think that not long ago, those sweet lips had been all over my….

"Don't you just wanna truly claim him, brother? He looks so delicious, wouldn't you agree?"

Denzel did look 'delicious'.

"Imagine what he'd look like with you pounding into him. Imagine him writhing and screaming beneath you as you thrust into that nice ass. Don't you just wanna take him now?" It wouldn't stop. Whether Kadaj was speaking for my conscious, I did not know- but the words were so true.

"You've always been a sadist, Cloud." There was Sephiroth again. "He'll gladly accept the pain. You have so much anger, buried within. Just…let it go."

"Take him!" The youth hissed.

"NO!" I moved away, preparing to run as fast as I could. I had to get away from Denzel…before…before….

"C-Cloud?"

My body froze, hardly having moved an inch. That small, feeble voice calmed me down- helping me relax. Denzel always had that effect on me. Just thinking of him was enough to soothe me.

"Or get you hard!" Kadaj added.

Looking down, I saw the boy- his eyes creeping open with unfocused vision. So sweet….

"What's wrong?" That face, that voice. Everything about the boy brought me back to atrocious arousal, stirring my manhood back to life.

He noticed.

And that's what sickened me most.

He laid there, his head on my thumping chest, staring down my body at the noticeable bulge in my boxers. And, I knew there was no running.

"So big…." I heard him whisper; only stabbing my heart even more.

I could tell my silence unnerved him as he shuffled around- his hair tickling me teasingly.

Soon, he was looking up at me again, a pout on his face. And, oh boy did it turn me on.

"I love you, Cloud." He said. "I'd do anything for you!" The horror struck me as his voice morphed into that of Kadaj halfway through- in my head alone of course. But, it stung. "C-can I see?" Snapping out of my brief trance, I noticed the faint blush on his cheeks and knew at once what he meant.

As much as it disgusted and repulsed me, as much as I wanted to say no- nothing stopped me from nodding slightly.

And, he was up.

I missed his warmth as soon as he moved, but soon felt it again on my thigh as he sat himself upon my leg. With not a moment to spare, I felt the cool breeze hit my tip- causing me to shiver in delight as I was freed from the material cage.

He stared at my arousal with the most luscious expression I had ever seen. His face was full of wonder and curiosity, a deep pout crossing his lips as he tilted his head to the side. Kadaj mumbled something in the back of my head, but he went ignored as I observed the boy.

He was fascinated.

I watched his curious little fingers reach out and grasp my length, almost extracting a moan from my lips. His hand was warm on my throbbing shaft, and it felt so good. I secretly yearned for his mouth to return to my cock once again- having only blessed memories of the feeling.

The feel of my manhood seemed to only make him more curious, as he gave it a few experimental strokes- each one causing my hips to shift slightly and my breath to hitch.

He looked so curious and fascinated by it.

Not to mention, the tent that had formed in his pyjama pants. You would have thought such a young boy would be satisfied by one orgasm per morning, but not Denzel!

Darn it all! I growled to myself, pushing him onto his back. Ignoring the guilt and angst within, I quickly stripped him- wanting nothing more than to gaze upon his young body.

He was beautiful.

His skin pale and smooth, not a cut or bruise in sight. He was lean and slim, having done some work around the house and constantly exercising to be like me, even some muscle was developing upon his small frame. His boyhood seemed the right size for a kid his age, but looked so delicious to me.

It was disgusting and sick, as I have mentioned before. But, I wasn't thinking about that then. I just wanted him.

"Take him, brother! Pound him into the bed!"

"Make him scream, Cloud. You crave satisfaction."

I wouldn't stoop so low as to listen to the two silver-haired men. I wouldn't take Denzel, not yet anyway. There were other ways to be with a person.

I lowered my body upon his, moaning at the feel of his bare skin against mine.

Both of us let out a pleasure-filled gasp as our members made contact, rubbing against each other hotly.

He was way smaller than I. I could have crushed him, but that just made it so much better! His shaft was less than half the size of my own, but still throbbed hard and proud against me as I bucked against him.

"Cloud!" He moaned, his hips arching- rubbing our arousals together so smoothly.

I fell onto my forearms, one either side of the boy's form. Our lower bodies were completely connected as I began moving my hips- thrusting against his body again and again.

I could hear him moan, could hear him gasp. It urged me on, causing me to move faster and faster.

The bed creaked slightly as we thrust against one another, not that I cared. Marlene was asleep and Denzel was beneath me, what else was there to think about!

"Denzel," I moaned, slamming against his hips forcefully- causing the boy to yelp in what I assumed to be pleasure. "I love you…so, so much!" And, at that moment, I made the promise to remind him of that every day. I rarely told Denzel I loved him, but that was going to change.

I stared down into his eyes, which shimmered as they gazed up into mine. He so perfect, my little angel.

I crashed our lips together, plunging my tongue into his mouth as I began humping him quickly. I did want to be inside him, so badly. But, I knew I couldn't. Pulling away from his sweet-tasting mouth, I planted a gentle, tender kiss on his cheek- quickening my pace.

"If there's anything you want, Denzel, then tell me." I said, knowing I would do anything for him.

"Ngh!" He moaned, bucking into me. "I…I want to see…I want to see you…touch yourself again!" He wheezed, arching beneath me.

His request was strange and unusual and sounded like poison coming from a mouth so young and innocent. But, the idea turned me on so much that I didn't care.

Despite how much I hated to do so, I moved away from his hips, raising into a seated position- my buttocks coming to rest upon my bent legs. My manhood bobbed just above his small chest as I began eagerly pumping myself- staring down into his lust-filled eyes. I pumped myself hard and fast as he watched me with those curious eyes, his shaft rubbing against my thigh.

I wanted him!

I wanted to fuck him!

But, I couldn't.

But, there was one thing I could do.

My tongue crept my mouth to moisten my lips as the idea sprung to me.

"Are you insane! You're the man here, it makes no sense!" Kadaj hissed.

"Are you willing to endure the humiliation?" Sephiroth coaxed.

But, I ignored them. For me, it wouldn't be humiliating at all.

And so, my free hand darted down to grasp the base of the boy's erection, aiming it upwards. Denzel moaned and stared and I could tell he had realized what I was planning. He looked horrified, shocked….

And so, I lowered myself onto the kid's small lap- engulfing his shaft into my hole in one swift movement. He cried out, bucking into me uncontrollably, before falling into a heap below my body.

His penetration brought no pain, only discomfort. I had had much bigger before and my fingers often came into play during my solo sessions, so even without lube Denzel was no problem for me.

He writhed beneath me, panting and moaning and gasping and yelping- the sweat clearly visible on his skin.

I could hear Kadaj and Sephiroth jeer and mock me for allowing a kid inside me. But, I didn't care. Denzel hadn't topped me, he wasn't seme. I was merely bringing the boy more pleasure; it didn't make me the woman of the relationship. Besides, this was the only time it would happen- afterward I would be pounding the boy into the bed.

Denzel wasn't long enough to reach my prostate, but he did stimulate the ring of muscles at my opening, causing my cock to jolt in pleasure.

The poor boy looked absolutely mortified as he stared at his little pole as it disappeared up inside me. It was cute.

So, I moved, bouncing on top of him madly as I jerked myself off- my hand moving at such speed that it became a blur.

Denzel was young, so he was already close.

My excuse? I had a deliciously hot kid beneath me, willing to complete any sexual favour I asked of him.

"Cloud!" He yelped, his fists gathering the sheets up into balls as he bit his lip. I knew he was very close and I wasn't prepared to let him cum inside me- that was that.

The kid had had his cock in my ass for about a minute, and that was all he was ever getting as far as I was concerned. Lifting myself off him, I descended back to our previous position, lying on top of him again. I resumed our earlier movements, grinding myself against his arousal hard and fast. He cried and yelped and gasped and moaned as he moved his tiny hips with mine, his body so petit and insignificant beneath my own.

And then, it happened.

He reached his peak.

"Cloud!" He cried out, his head jolting back as he let out the loudest moan of his life, his hips bucking against mine- almost with enough strength to lift me a bit….almost!

As his sweat rubbed off onto my skin as his arousal pumped against my own, I felt the warm liquid shoot out everywhere.

His cum covered both of our cocks, as wells as our stomachs.

I would have let him bask in the afterglow if I weren't so close myself.

I returned to my sitting position, gathering his cum up in my hand and applying it to my manhood.

I felt my erection throb as it was lathered in Denzel's juice, only adding to my immense horniness. I quickly began jerking myself again, bucking it my own hands as I gazed down upon the blissful boy- who was eagerly awaiting.

With a final jerk of my hips and a cry of his name, I came. My own cum shot out with incredible force, splattering across my hand and Denzel. It landed upon his abdomen, chest, arms, face and even shot off above his head onto the sheets. Droplets of white rained down upon the kid as the pleasure reached an all-time high, even if my release was brought by my own hand.

Watching him lick up the cum which landed on his face was enough to coerce another rope of the essence from my tip, splattering upon him again.

Fuck! I inwardly shouted, panting loudly as I came down from my orgasm.

Now, that sweet and innocent boy was on my bed, naked and covered in cum.

And I found it so hot…until my senses took hold.

Instead of running away, I decided to gulp down my fear and face things head on. Ignoring my guilt, I picked up Denzel and carried him to the bathroom. I ran a nice, warm bath for us both- quickly checking in on Marlene as it took its time. Sure enough, the girl was fast asleep and my secret was safe.

How am I gonna keep this from Tifa? I wondered. The woman had always been able to see through me in the past. Denzel and I would have to be extra careful.

And so, I placed the boy in the water gently, climbing in opposite him. We both sighed in unison at the pleasing warmth of the water. We took a moment to bask in the tranquil calm, before finally speaking to one another.

"Cloud. What we did…was that wrong?" The boy murmured, staring at me with, what I believed to be, admiration. My answer took little consideration, as lying was against the question.

"Some people would think so."

"And you?"

"No." He smiled at my answer and I couldn't help smiling back.

It wasn't just about sex; (though sex was nice) I truly cared for Denzel. We would never be one of those lovey-dovey couples, hell no! But we shared something, a bond.

I remembered something Zack once told me, all those years ago:

'If it's in your heart it can't be wrong. A bond is special, there's nothing like it. You may not always understand what's going on inside your heart, but you'll always know if you care for someone! It's not something you need to think about, Spikey!'

Zack had been right.

Denzel was special and no thought was needed. I was going to look after the brunette for years and I'd always love him.

I want to attend parents' evenings at his school; I want to go and cheer him on at sports events; I want to brag about him to other people, even if they were sick of listening. We were a family- Tifa, Denzel, Marlene and I. Although Denzel and I were intimate, it made no difference. I cared for all of my family and friends, especially Tifa. I'm sorry I can't be attracted to her the same way she is to me, but she'll always be my 'partner' and I wouldn't have it any other way.

The kid may be my sexy little boy now, but he's still a kid. I would have to continue to fill the role of father throughout Denzel's life, even if we do mess around behind closed doors.

I love that boy.

"Cloud? What are you thinking about?"

I snapped out of it, my gaze turning from the water to the brunette peering at me curiously.

"Breakfast." I said, a mischievous smile creeping onto my face. So, I wasn't made of stone! Big deal! It still didn't mean I was going to poor my heart out to anyone.

"Me too!" He said, laughing childishly. "When's Tifa getting back?"

"Hopefully soon, as long as she doesn't bring Yuffie back with her."

"You big baby! Can't you handle a little teasing?" I narrowed my eyes at the boy as his words struck me. Did he think he was getting away with that!

"Baby, huh?" I flicked my hand in the water, splashing him without a care in the world.

"Hey!"

"What are you gonna do about it?"

He was on me in a second. He jumped into my chest, laughing and giggling as he nuzzled my shoulder tenderly. We didn't give our nudity a second thought and neither one of us became aroused. Contrary to popular belief, men and boys aren't machines who operate for the soul purpose of screwing everything that does or doesn't move.

"You're a dork, Cloud!"

"You're a dork!"

A/N:

The Kadaj and Sephiroth thing was inspired by the scene in Advent Children Complete where Cloud falls to his knees as a result of his geostigma and Sephiorth's voice can be hear taunting him.

I added Kadaj because I couldn't imagine Sephiroth saying half the lines I wanted to add.

Please review and tell me what you think and suggestions are more than welcome!