A/N: Okay so as you see I decided to do Love Or Desire as the sequel to Do You Think Of Me? But I will do the other choice as a completely different story so it will be a stand alone. Hope you like this as the choice for the sequel. This is just the Preface, First chapter should be up soon. Hope you like the little insight to a future Chapter.

Disclaimer: As always SM owns her characters I own mines, my story line. BLAH! BLAH! ENJOY!!

Summary-

After five long years Renesmee Cullen goes by the name Vanessa Swan the famous super model. After an encounter that leaves her with a new deal, her boss is someone from her past. What is Nessie going to have do to get her new bosses approval? having a fiance' and with that person from her past leaves her in a bit of a problem as she has to choose between the two.

PREFACE:

When you feel all hopes are lost and your life can't be repaired, the one person you loved is the only person on your mind. When you feel that your heart is broken and it is impossible for you to love again. When you actually date and you keep on comparing everyone to that person you loved. What do you do?

In my life I have only fell in love once. When I fell in love I fell in love real hard. In that all the time that has passed I still think of him at times. So when the question do you think of me presents itself I have not an answer, sometimes I think he just moved on. I know it is very possible because when I loved him and I had him I moved on. So why shouldn't he have a moment to move on?

I guess part of me hopes he still thinks of me. Part of me hopes he is happy and forgot about me, but that is only a small portion. 95 percent of me am in hope he still loves me, because I still love him.

Love,

VANESSA (NESSIE) SWAN AKA RENESMEE CARLIE CULLEN

Excerpt: Nessie Pov (Future Chapter)

Today it was finally happening, I was in the most beautiful white dress adorned with beautiful sequins and pearls. Today I was actually getting married. I was highly emotional. Aunt Alice was putting the last touches, sticking the white star orchid in my hair. She smiled at me, aunt Rose was tearing up. Mom was sitting down with the baby in her arms crying. Today was an amazing day for me. I put my hands to the bump on my stomach and smiled. I was happy, I had it all. The most amazing career, the most amazing man was waiting for me at the altar his amazing eyes, knowing that he loved me so much and was willing to do anything for me.

Why do I feel so nervous and guilty? The guilt was eating me alive. I had to go through with this; I cared about him a lot. He had been the most amazing, romantic, caring person ever. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Rose who hugged me tight.

"It is time Ness, he is waiting for you. You look amazing. Remember this is your day." she hugged me once more. I took a deep breath as my brides maids got themselves ready to walk out.

My maid of honor of course had to be my beautiful half sister. I gave her a hug before she walked out.

"Nessie I love you." she said as she hugged me once more. She looked beautiful in the silky lilac dress. She handed me my bouquet of flowers and her eyes were watery. She started taking her position to go walk out.

I knew everybody was proud of me. My dad was super ecstatic about this day. I had my best friend as my groom's best man. Everything fit ever so perfectly. So why was I still having the guilt eat at me? I brushed one of the curls that was laying on the front and pushed it back behind my shoulder.

I started to walk out and saw my father staring at me with his green eyes. He looked so proud of me. I was his oldest daughter and I was finally getting married. He had to be proud of me, he always said that I changed my life around and was finally doing things the right way. I sighed even deeper as the nerves were killing me. My stomach has major butterflies. My unborn child was moving around I guess it sensed my nervous jitters as well. I knew I loved my child there was no doubt in my mind that this child would be the most spoiled.

"Are you ready?" my father asked me and looped his arm around mines. He snapped me out of my thoughts and I started taking deeper breaths. "Honey I am proud of you, you have made me change my thoughts about you. You truly grew up and I love that. Now let's walk you down the aisle so you can be with your future husband." he smiled once more.

We started walking down the aisle. I saw all the familiar faces from my childhood, my adolescence, my profession as a model. I saw all my family, friends from La Push, my friends from high school, my manager Reni, and my model friends. All the familiar faces except for one, I knew he wouldn't come; it hurt me so much to know he wouldn't come. Just thinking about him made the guilt hit me even stronger.

The music was playing the melodious harmony. As I walked down the aisle and saw my beautiful groom and his sparkling green eyes. I could see all his attention was on me, as my feet started feeling heavy and the blood pounding through my ears. This all felt wrong and right at the same time. Every step was calling my doom. I think I was starting to get cold feet. I think I always had cold feet just I didn't want to admit it to myself.

Finally I was at the altar with the eyes all on me. I was trying to swallow the huge lump that was formed in my throat. I felt so nervous but still that guilt was pushing against my heart. The pastor was starting to say the words to get us married. My groom looked at me in my eyes with a huge smile on his face. Finally the pastor got to the part where if someone opposes.

The door of the church slammed open and there he stood looking amazing wearing a black leather coat. My heart started pounding even faster. I couldn't believe he actually came.

"I oppose." his deep voice said I felt the tears forming in my eyes, but the tears didn't push out just yet. I was terrified and satisfied at the same time. "Who loves you more than me, if you get married you'll take my life." he sighed and walked forward more.

Hope you liked my choice due to the fact it was choosen because of you lovely readers thanks for the support and for following through with the first story I love you guys for that. Well like I said in my Beginning A/N I will still post the other story it will just be a stand alone and have it's own different backround story and other stuff. The other story will be changed to be used as a complete different story. That would be posted not so soon, but I will let you guys know here when I am going to post that. Well The first chapter should be up soon Maybe even tomorrow lol ^_^