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Afraid to Let You Go

Chapter 1: Sorrowful Girl.

I won't live past eighteen years old. I smiled ruefully. How pathetic. I can't even get married and that was my dream since childhood, to have a loving husband by my side and joyful kids in my life. But, I guess that won't happen. Well, I'm going to die after turning eighteen anyway. My terminal illness shattered all my dreams, ambitions and all my hopes in life. I'm so pitiable...so useless. Big teardrops suddenly cascaded down my cheeks. What? Why am I crying? I should accept my fate and carry on my life. As I wiped away my tears with my hands, I felt so miserable. Why? Why did this illness choose me? I am just a girl who wanted to have a life with no worries and pain. And I would like to experience falling in love. But this illness will just brought pain to me and the ones I love. And I really don't want them to experience that. More tears fell on my cheeks. I could remember vividly the conversation between my parents and the physician. They wanted to hide my illness from me but I overheard them.

"She couldn't live past eighteen years old...Surgery could prolonged her life but it would be too risky..."

Those were the words that cut deep into my heart. The woes of my parents and the agonizing face of my physician were the painful moments that will forever be carve in my mind and the unbearable truth that I was going to die. And here I was, crying to myself in the stone bench of the fountain, where no one can hear nor see me. Or so I thought.

"What are you doing here, beautiful lady?" A playful voice asked. I looked up and saw a boy who had light brown hair and enticing golden orbs, in which I got entranced for a moment. His voice brought me back to the reality.

"Are you crying?" his voice full of concern. I shook my head and replied, "Dust just get on my eyes."

"Are you sure?" he questioned me. I nodded and stood up, dusting my uniform.

"I better get going. And thank you for your concern," I muttered and walked away.

Afraid to Let You Go

"Tsukino-chan!" Akemi Yoshida, my only best friend in the whole wide world shouted at me. She smiled brightly and took my hand. Her eyes were sparkling and I gulped, I could sense the danger already. That's my instinct whenever she felt excited. She would drag me into another mess again.

"Let's go to the third music room," she hollered, feeling thrilled. Well, the third music room was like a paradise to ladies like us. There, resides a group of six males who were filthy rich, charming and powerful. But I didn't get a chance to go there when I entered this exclusive school called Ouran. I was always absent. You know, it was because of my illness. So it was my first time. And it was Akemi's first time too. She swore to me that we would go there together but because I am frequent absent, this is our first chance to go.

"Oh, I can't wait to see the twins!" She screamed. "I always admired them. They looked so cool."

"Then I guess we will request for them," I smiled at her and she was really ecstatic. We exited our classroom and trudged the stairs towards the third music room. We stopped at an elegant, big door which says third music room. I grabbed the knob and opened it. Roses flew everywhere and six males grinned at us and said, "Welcome!"

"So my ladies," a blonde boy flipped his hair. "Which type do you want?"

Akemi blushed and almost fainted on the spot. She held her reddened cheeks, closed her eyes and exclaimed, "We like the Hitachiin twins please!"

The blonde boy pouted and said, "Very well. Hikaru and Kaoru please entertain our two guests here!"

"Roger," the identical twins shouted harmoniously. We were lead to an empty table and they helped us sit down. This is my first time looking at them closely and I was shocked. Light brown hair and golden orbs, one of them approached me a while ago in the fountain. I opened my mouth to speak but what would I say. He probably forgot it already and would think of me as a deranged fan girl who wanted his attention so much. I sighed and kept my mouth shut. Leave all the talking to my best friend.

"My name is Akemi Yoshida! I'm a first year student. I'm in class 1-B!" she shouted and pointed at me, "This is my best friend. Her name is Tsukino Watanabe! We are in the same class."

The twins smiled, "Nice to meet you Akemi-chan, Tsukino-chan!"

"And you know, we want to play a game with the both of you!" one of the twins said. Akemi nodded her head vigorously and said, "Yes, we want to play. What game is it?"

"Which one is Hikaru game?" the twins hollered at the same time. Akemi looked troubled and pouted cutely. She looked between the twins.

"The right side was Hikaru and the left side was Kaoru!" Akemi said. The twins smirked.

"Bu-Buu! You're wrong!" The twins made an "X" with their arms and shook their heads.

"No, you're not wrong Akemi-chan," A brown haired guy with kind features smiled at us. And Akemi almost fainted again. The twins pouted and stared at the brown haired guy, "Not fair Haruhi-chan! Don't tell them!"

The guy called Haruhi grinned at them and looked away to attend to his own clients. The twins were still moping.

"It's alright," I gave them a reassuring smile.

"No, it's not alright!" they shouted. I sighed and sipped a tea.

"They looked so cute," Akemi blushed. The guy on the right side smirked. I think he was the one called Hikaru.

"But Kaoru was cuter! He got nightmare last night and clung to me like a kid!" Hikaru smiled. Kaoru pouted, "Hikaru that was mean!"

Hikaru's eyes softened and held his twin chin, "But I can't help it. You were so cute."

Akemi wiggled and turned redder, "This must be the brotherly love~!"

I forced a smile. This act was getting ridiculous but I can't help to look at my best friend's face. She was very happy. And suddenly, my heart clenched. My hands shot up and hold my chest. It was so painful. Sweat trickled down my neck. One of the twins noticed me. I think the guy in the left called Kaoru.

"Are you alright? You looked really pale," he asked. The same concerned face I saw a while ago in the fountain.

"I'm alright," the pain got worst and I clenched my fist. I stood up and said, "I-I need to go to the restroom!"

I ran out of the third music room and went to the nearest restroom. I clasped my necklace. The pendant was a little bottle, containing pills for my illness. I swallowed one pill and drank water. The pain subsided and I slumped down, panting. Tears were falling down my cheeks. I was afraid. I thought I would die. I stood up, washed my face and wiped it with my handkerchief. Then I exited the bathroom.

"You cried again. You were always crying," a deep voice uttered. I turned around to my right side and saw one of the twins, leaning on the wall.

"I'm not crying," I was walking away when he grabbed my arm and made me face him.

"Your eyes were lonely and sad," he commented. I pulled my arm away from him and shouted, "You don't know me so please keep your comments to yourself, Hitachiin-san."

"My name is Kaoru," he mumbled. I looked at him and hollered, "How should I know that you're not joking? You might be Hikaru-kun."

"I'm serious. I am really Kaoru," he uttered.

"Fine," I said and walked away, giving a dismissive wave, "Nice to meet you, Kaoru-kun."

I sighed. I would never go back to the third music room again if it means I have to see him again. But, I left Akemi there. Oh no! What should I do?

Afraid to Let You Go

anime16: thanks for reading the story. Please review. I need to know if you want me to continue. This is my first story under this category.