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MAIN CHARACTERS: RACHEL/SHELBY

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1ST GLEE FIC :) BE NICE PPL :d XX

It was the last day before the schools broke up for summer holiday. Everyone in Glee was planning a trip, all of them except for Rachel that is, who wasn't in a very sociable mood. Ever since Rachel found out Shelby adopted Quinn's baby, Rachel hasn't spoken to Quinn at all and very few of the other glee clubbers could get a word out of her either, which if you knew Rachel was very un-Rachel like. Not that they spoke often before, but it came to the point when Rachel wouldn't even be in the same room as any of them, nobody had heard her sing for over a week, even her MySpace page hadn't been updated. Nobody knew what to do. What was done was done they all just hoped they could be friends again, somehow they hoped they could get through to her.

Rachel had made her way over to Carmel High where she found Shelby alone shutting down the stage. Rachel paused for a moment just watching Shelby. Did she look any different now that she was a new mother to a baby?

Rachel moved closer towards the stage and called out to Shelby.

"Shelby?"

Shelby stopped what she was doing and turned to see Rachel stood in the aisle, she was surprised to see her there, she'd tried contacting her numerous times but she never picked up. She had wanted to head over to McKinley but something told her Rachel needed her space, she'd figured she knew she'd adopted Beth and needed time to adjust to the news. She couldn't help the smile that appeared on her face when she looked at Rachel. It was so fascinating to see yourself in another person; it really was like looking in a mirror.

"Hey, I'm glad you came, I've been trying to get in touch with you." Shelby makes her way off the stage and starts walking towards Rachel who is still standing in the aisle. Rachel waited to speak until Shelby was closer.

"I know. I wasn't ready to speak with you." Shelby was shocked at how much it hurt to hear that Rachel was avoiding her.

"I'm just going to just cut to the chase here.

Rachel looks down at her hands momentarily.

"Shelby. I've tried to be understanding and see your point of view throughout this whole thing. I have; and I've realised it isn't fair for me to not want you to have your second chance at being a mother. I won't deny you that. So, I won't bother you or Beth after today.

A daughter stares at her mother, a mother not a mom, just a woman who carried her for nine months, and she gives her an out, she's letting her off the hook. With the twitch of lips, Shelby Corcoran tries to smile; she appreciates what Rachel is doing.

"But.

A dramatic pause. It seems letting go comes with a charge.

"I can't help but feel basic human emotion. I was raised to not judge anyone before you know all the facts, having two gay dads' it teaches you a thing or two about perspective. I do see your view point, I do. I'm not your baby; not what you pictured all those years, and my very dramatic monologue proves that. I'm an adult, more or less. I know what I want. What I can do. What the whole world is about to some degree, there isn't much you could teach me that I haven't already been told. But this feeling of selfishness I can't shake it. I can't, and I've tried really hard.

Rachel stops, still trying to fight it, she holds her breath, and swallows down unwanted emotion.

"I can't stop thinking. Where's my second chance too? How come you just get the happy ending?"

Rachel stops for a moment now, allowing Shelby a chance to take everything she said in, and to allocate her time to respond. Yet, that response never comes. All Rachel sees is a stunned Shelby Corcoran, mouth hanging open, with some pain showing in her eyes. Anger. Another feeling Rachel feels stir within her.

"Wow. Shelby Corcoran is speechless. Any other day, I'd try to make light of this rarity. But not today. Not when I need you to say something back.

Rachel sadly smiles; a short sarcastic laugh escapes her.

"I should have known better. Since when have I had anything from you?"

Rachel turns and is about to leave, but she pauses as a thought comes to her. She turns her finger raised, indicating she has one more point to make.

"Just to be clear, all this.

Rachel gestures to herself and Shelby with confusion.

"All this drama doesn't stem from jealousy of Beth. And I'm not being overly dramatic; which I can sometimes fall foul of being. I'm not jealous.

Rachel says with clarity.

"I pity her.

After a beat she adds.

"If her life with you is anything like your short, disappointing cameo in mine, then her life is going to be full of one let down after the other. And you willlet her down. Because the one emotion I know you feel is greed. And being a mom just isn't enough. You need petty awards and mindless adoration just as much as I do. That's why I know, it will never be enough; because as much as you try to replace something, it's never quite as good as the real thing. Not to sound too big headed, but I'm marvellous...

Rachel pauses, thinking back to the song they sang a few weeks before, and everything didn't seem so out of reach. She continues with her dramatic monologue.

"I just hope you let her down at an age when she's still young enough to forget you. And if you give yourself a moment, and be really honest with yourself, you'll know what I'm saying is true, because you can't deny, I am you. And just like I am for you, you Shelby Corcoran; are one huge let down. "

Borrowing some none feeling from the usual emotionless Shelby, Rachel watches for a brief moment as one tear begins the descent of many, down Shelby's face. Rachel turns with just enough time spared as she allows her own tears to now fall. She hated being cruel, every fibre in her being was telling her to stop, but she just wanted to hurt Shelby like she hurt her, and she did it the only way she could, her voice. She would've sang it if she knew a song to sing, but she hasn't felt like singing in a while. That's what Shelby leaving her did. So Rachel does just that, leaves.

A crying mother is once again separated from her crying baby, although her baby isn't led away by someone else and into another person's waiting arms, her baby left her.

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