Disclaimer: All characters belong to S. Meyer.

Author's Note:

This story has been posted for a few years and I never really was able to sit down and upload all the chapters. Then they got lost. I am going to be editing the chapters that have been posted and start to rewrite the rest. Please stay with me while I get everything under control.

Ivory Ash.

Chapter 1:

How do you describe what turns out to seem like one of the worst days of your life? There are no words. It's just like white noise. It is just indistinguishable noise among the deafening silence. The undeniable proof that for every action has a consequence.

October 17th, 2010

As I am walking home from work the street lights overhead cast a soft glow across the pavement. I can't help but wear a small smile wondering if that is how people will be describing me soon.

I can't wait to tell James the news. After trying for the past 3 years it has finally happened. Thinking about the life that we created I can't help but reach down and touch the tiny swell of my lower abdomen.

Today is going to be the perfect day to tell him. It is our 6 year anniversary. There have been some rough patches but we got through them relatively unharmed.

As I walk up to our home I break out into a full blown smile. I can see candles lit and hear the soft music through the open windows.

I open the door quietly hoping to be able to take in the scene for myself before I reveal his surprise with hopefully will leave us occupied for the rest of the night.

Tears burned my eyes like lava cascading down volcano. My mouth suddenly went as dry as cotton.

Right in front of my eyes James was laid out on the living room floor with his hand wrapped in fire red hear that was attached to the head bobbing up and down in his lap.

Quickly racing to the stairs and up to our bedroom I lock the door behind me. Leaning back against the door I try my best to stop the tears that are still falling. Breathing heavily the only thought in my head now is getting the hell out of dodge before they notice I'm here.

As I pack all of my things my mind wonders to the horror that is downstairs. Six long years and this is how he repays me. Not only him but her. That red hair can only belong to one bitch. Victoria. My step sister from hell. The reason I began dating James to begin with.

As I finish throwing the last of my belongings into my backpack I grab the last thing in this house that I care about. My kitten. Rex. He is the cutest little black kitten with a sprinkling of white just on the tips of his ears. He was my birthday gift last month.

Putting him into his carrier I slowly sneak back down the stairs. Stopping only in the kitchen I stop just long enough to lay the pregnancy test down on the table next to their empty bottles of wine and leftover food and head out the back door.

Walking up to my car, a 2004 Aston Martin Vanquish, I have to let out a little sight. She is my little peace of heaven. One of the few things that Phil and my mother left me when they died two years ago.

*Flashback, 7 years ago*

My mom, Renee, and I had been out all afternoon searching for a dress that she could wear when her and my dad renewed their vows next weekend.

She was so fucking happy.

After we had found the perfect dress we headed home to Charlie, my dad. He was supposed to be at Billy's house watching a football game so we weren't really worried about him seeing the dress.

When we pulled up to the house we saw his cruiser and a silver BMW. I thought that I recognized the vehicle but at the time couldn't place it.

My mother looked at me and I could tell she was slightly confused. I was too but figured that it was probably a friend of his from the force.

We left the dress in the car and headed to the door. I unlocked it and looked in. Not seeing anyone I figured that they were in the kitchen. I softly told my mother to go distract him and I would go get the dress out of the car and put it in my room.

I went to go get the dress when I heard a small gasp from behind me. Looking back I noticed that my mother was frozen in the entryway of the kitchen. Walking over to see was had startled her I couldn't help but hear it first.

"Oh, fuck Charlie. Harder." Said a feminine voice.

"Is this what you want baby?" Charlie replied.

That is when my mother let out a sound that I never can forget. A scream of complete and utter pain. Watching it what seemed like slow motion I watched her sway and start to fall. Having fainted from the experience.

I ran quickly to catch her before she hit the ground. When I looked up all I could see was Charlie with his pants pushed down to his feet with Esme Cullen sitting on our dining room table with her dress pushed up around her waist.

So that's where I knew the car from. I had to make a few house visits to Carlisle Cullen, her husband, when I got injured as a child.

I looked down again, speaking through clenched teeth I said, "Charlie, get her the fuck out of here before I kick her fucking ass and maybe you should leave too."

"Don't talk to me like that Isabella." Was his only reply.

I could feel my anger rise. Gently moving my mother from my lap and laying her the rest of the was onto the flood I stood up.

"I will talk to you any fucking way I want to you no good, lying, cheating bastard."

The quick flash of surprise at the way I was talking to him was slowly melting into white, hot anger. He pulled his pants up and walked towards the stairs. Esme was already halfway to the door before I spoke again.

"Esme," I said quietly. She turned around and looked at me, "I'm calling Carlisle."

I heard he gasp and then slam the door in her haste to flee and probably find him first.

*End Flashback*

*Flashback. 2 years ago*

James was late home from work, again. Walking over to the stove I cut the heat and head to the table to sip on my wine until he arrived.

Hearing a soft ding I put my wine down and walk over to my laptop. Opening it up I see an email from my mom with no subject.

Knowing I had plenty of time before James would eventually come home I quickly opened the message wondering what her and Phil were up to this time.

It read:

Dear Bella,

Time is a funny thing. It can crawl by slower than sap dripping down a tree in the winter or faster than a shooting star. What do you do when time seems to stop moving at all though? Do you continue to wait even though you can't do anything or do you just stand still with it? There are some things that I will never be able to explain to you.

I can't imagine waiting for what feels like an eternity from something that only takes a second. I can't continue to stand still in the eye of forever.

Please know that there was nothing you could have done to change the time.

With all my love,

Your Mother.

*End Flashback"

She gave up that day. They both did. My mother never got over what Charlie did to her. Even after moving on with Phil. They both died that night.

Two slit wrists for her and a bottle of pills for him.

They didn't have to continue to hold still. They let go.

I understand why but that will never be me. I will never let myself be dragged down by a man.

Shaking the memories from my head I finished putting my things into the car and climbed in. With Rex beside me I knew I would be okay.

Starting the car I realized just where I was going to go.

Jacob Black was the perfect person for me. My best friend for as long as I can remember. He stood by my side when everything happened with my parents. When I found out about Phil and mom he was always there to lend me a shoulder to cry on. He is my everything.

Sliding into reverse and picking up my phone I dial a number that has long been engrained into my brain.

The dial tone gives away to his rough voice.

"Bells! Long time no talk. What are you up to?"

'Well I'm on my way to your place. You always said if I needed a place to stay that all I had to do was walk my sexy ass through the door so be watching.'

"Hell yes I did. Did you finally dump that asshole?"

Trying to keep the tears at bay I manage to choke out a reply.

'Well yes and no. I walked in to Victoria trying to see how far she could get is cock down her throat. So I guess I dumped him but it's his fault.'

"Damn Bells, want me to kick his ass for you?"

'Nah, I think he'll kick it himself. I'm too damn hot to be cheated on.'

"You're rain as rain on that babe. I'll see you soon."

Hitting the gas I head to a place I once called home.

Authors Note:

First chapter revamped. I hope you enjoy. If you are new to the story, Welcome! If you are returning after it's long hiatus, Welcome Back!

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Look forward to the next revamped chapters and the new chapters added to it.