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As soon as he was out of the door, I couldn't take it. I let all the tears flow freely, like a waterfall; it couldn't be stopped, I was sobbing. I have no idea how long I was crying, but I finally stopped, my eyes red and sore and I knew I'd have a headache. My eyelids felt heavier with every second and I reluctantly closed my eyes. Everything felt wrong. I should have had strong, cold arms wrapped around me, not a thin hospital blanket and I should have been listening to a familiar hum, my lullaby, not the annoying beeping.

I could only hope I would sleep peacefully.

Bella's POV

I was running towards nothing, in the middle of a forest. I knew I had to find something, but it wasn't there, nor did I know what I had to find. I just kept running and running. My legs were burning, so did my lungs and my throat every time I breathed. I didn't want to breathe, I didn't want more pain, I wanted to stop. Stop breathing, stop chasing nothing, stop living, but I couldn't. Instead, I ran and ran, watching the thick green braches and trees surrounding me, an eerie silence penetrating the air. Suddenly, there was a light in front of me. I was getting closer and closer.

When I finally reached it, I heard a desperate scream piercing my ears. It sounded like someone was murdered. I realised the cry was mine. Someone was shaking me, telling me to wake up; I didn't understand - wasn't I awake? I opened my eyes, just to see a pale Charlie furiously shaking me and Dr Gerandy, as I would be told later, entering the room and calming us both down.

Dad paced the room, and I…was on the bed, looking at a darker spot on the wall facing me. I could hear their voices, Charlie's was worried, Dr Gerandy's was calm, professional, but I couldn't understand their words. I didn't want to understand them. I wanted to be left alone.

Once I heard a saying. I don't remember it exactly, I'm not even sure of it, but it was something like 'you are born alone and you die alone, but what really matters is that when you live, you are not alone'. Lies. You are always alone. In the end…they all leave. They say they love you, they hurt you and when they get bored, they leave. Why, oh why did I have to be that stupid? How could I be so stupid?

I hated him. I hated him for making me love him. I couldn't hate him.

What was I supposed to do? Go on, get over him, live my life? But how? How could I?

"Bella, please look at me, baby girl, talk to me…Bella, say something, anything. I can't stand seeing you like this…" Charlie was on the verge of tears, but I couldn't bring myself to answer him. Why bother? To hear 'I told you this would happen'? To see the hurt and disappointment in his eyes?

I closed my eyes, not wanting to go back to sleep, but giving dad a signal I wasn't willing to talk. Not yet. Maybe later.

A/N: I'm so sorry for the delay, I really am. If you want to know more, go read the post on my blog (link on profile). I'm working on the next chapter, which will be from Charlie's POV. I hope I can update in a matter of days.

This chapter isn't betaed, so forgive any grammar mistakes.

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