woah! woah woah

why do I put myself in

these situations?

woah! woah woah

i keep pushing myself

even though I can't take it at all.

"Spencer." I heard Logan's voice as he shook me gently. I opened my eyes just enough to see that the clock said 5:46. I had no desire to get up so I rolled onto my side, turning my back to Logan.

"Spencer. Wake up." I heard him say, his voice a little louder now.

"No." I waved my hand at him, trying to get him to go away.

"Guess we'll do this the hard way." He muttered, placing my arm around his neck then picking me up. A short moment after he started walking my feet hit the door way.

"Ow. Logie stop doing that." I mumbled, still half asleep.

"Sorry lovely." He said quietly, making me smile a little.

I had almost fallen asleep again when I felt Logan sit down. I yawned a little then curled into his chest, still not sure why he woke me up in the first place.

"So, Spencer," I heard Kendall's voice not far in front of me.

"Why didn't you tell us you sang so good?" Carlos finished.

"Sang well." Logan corrected him and I hit his chest gently.

"Why are you guys talking about?" I opened my eyes a little to glare at Kendall, sure he was the reason Logan woke me up. I heard a few clicks and then a familiar voice filled the room. My voice. We listened to the simple guitar-and-vocal song for a few minutes while I looked straight ahead, still leaning on Logan.

Once it was over I sighed. "How'd you guys find that?"

"YouTube." Kendall said simply.

"And why is this a big deal?"

"Cause you're so good!" Carlos said with a little too much enthusiasm for such and early hour.

"And you woke me up because?"

"Because you're going to sing for Gustavo!"

"Oh, no no no. No I'm not." There was no way they were getting me into Gustavo's little web of torture. No way was I that dumb.

"We'll see about that." Kendall said, obviously thinking there was some way he could get me to sing. Which there wasn't.

"Kendall put on another one." Carlos said.

"No! I'm leaving." I moved immediately, but not before Logan could lock his arms around me, holding me on his lap.

"Let me go Logan." I said seriously, looking him in the eyes.

"Not a chance." He said, smiling at me when I glared at him.

Kendall clicked on another video and I was forced to listen to song after song of my amateur-ish guitar playing and averagely decent voice.. To say the least it was torture.

"Why did I make so many freaking videos?" I asked no one in particular, slapping a hand to my forehead. -

"I'm not getting out of the car." I stated firmly, crossing my arms.

We were sitting in the parking lot of Rocque Records and Kendall was still convinced they were going to get me to sing for Gustavo. Well, he was wrong. They could carry me to wherever they wanted and threaten my life as many times as possible in a single day, but they couldn't make me talk, or sing, rather, no matter how good they thought I was.

Kendall sighed heavily, starting to get annoyed by my constant lack of cooperation. "Logan," He muttered.

Logan nodded a little, reaching in and picking me up like he had this morning. He also seemed a little irritated, but I really didn't care. They shouldn't have been trying to make me do this. Spencer does what Spencer wants to do.

I was carried all the way into Gustavo's office where Logan sat me down in a chair and stepped to my left while Kendall stood at my right. Gustavo opened his mouth to yell at the boys for being late when he saw me.

"Oh, you brought her."

I smiled at him. "Nice to see you too."

While Kendall told Gustavo why they brought me I looked over my shoulder to see Prettyboy and Carlos blocking the doorway. Even if I got away from Kendall and Logan, which was unlikely, I'd still have the other two to get through. And if by some twist of fate I got by them, I'd still be caught before I got to the parking lot. I sighed heavily. I was trapped.

"So, let's hear it." Gustavo's unnecessarily loud voice brought me back to the present.

"Hear what?" All 4 guys sighed heavily.

"Spencer, come on." Kendall said, looking like he was ready to rip my head off.

"With what? I don't know what you guys are talking about.

"That's it. Somebody get me a gun."

"Calm down, Kendork. Why is this such a big deal?" I asked, laughing a little at how seriously he was taking this.

"Because!" That was all he had as rebuttal.

"Because why?"

"Um…" He paused for a moment, then shrugged.

"I'm out." I got up and moved past him, stopping in front of Carlos and Prettyboy.

I lowered my voice as I looked at Carlos, refusing to even glance at Prettyboy.

"If you two don't move right now I will kick you and you will cry." They immediately moved and I smiled a little before walking down the hallway. I was the tiniest bit surprised that Kendall didn't make an effort to catch me, but he and I both knew that wouldn't change my decision. -

I got a call at around 7 o'clock from Kendall.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?" He sounded a little ticked. What, did he expect me to sit in that parking lot by myself for 11 hours?

"McDonalds parking lot.

"What?"

"Did I stutter? No hablas ingles?"

He sighed in an annoyed fashion. Boy, he was not in a good mood today. "Can you come pick us up?"

I smiled. "Of course Kendork! Anything for you!" I turned the key in the ignition as I hung up.

I got to the parking lot about 10 minutes later and the boys were sitting on the curb like homeless people. I pulled up next to them.

"You guys look like hobos."

"Very funny." Kendall said, obviously still in a bad mood.

"Why were you at McDonalds?" Logan asked as he got into the passenger seat.

"I wanted a Happy Meal." I said, shrugging a little. "Oh, and I saved this for you, Carlos." I tossed the little plastic wrapped toy into the backseat as I pulled out of the parking lot.

"Yay!" He squealed. I laughed. He was just like a little kid. -

"Shut up you guys!" They were being so dramatic.

"You almost killed us!" Kendall yelled for the 50th time since we got back.

"I did not! Stop being such crybabies." I said as we walked into the apartment. So I drive kinda fast and I don't always 'abide by the law'. That didn't mean they had to be such drama queens.

"You almost killed us!" Fifty one.

"I did not! Right Logie?" I batted my eyelashes at him.

"Um, I'd like to stay neutral in this debate." I sighed a little.

"Fine. Kendall, shut your mouth."

"As long as you never drive again."

"Drama queen."

"Reckless driver." We glared at each other, but the argument ended there. -

I was laying in my room later that night, listening to my iPod when I heard a faint knock on the door. I sighed.

"Yes?"

"Can I come in?" He looked nervous.

"No." I expected him to leave, but when I looked over and he was still there I rolled my eyes. "Fine."

He came over and sat next to me, careful to keep his distance. Did he think I was going to hit him? I would never do such a thing(just kidding). I turned off my iPod and sat up next to him.

"Well?"

"Well, I'd like to apologize this time. I'm sorry for not believing that you actually cared and had a heart."

"Oh, great. Any other insults you'd like to give me before I kick you out?"

"No! I'm sorry! I just, that came out wrong. I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions like that. Can you forgive me?"

It was then that I noticed that I was just as guilty of jumping to conclusions as he was. But I still couldn't bring myself to trust him.

"I..I." I became so preoccupied in my thoughts that I didn't notice Prettyboy getting closer. And closer. And closer. Before I could move away he touched his lips to mine softly. Then I did the most unspeakable, most unimaginable, most inexcusable thing in the history of unspeakable, unimaginable, and inexcusable things.

I kissed him back.

No no no Spencer! This is wrong! What are you doing? My conscience was screaming at me. My eyes flew open and we practically jumped away from each other.

"You kissed me." I was dumbstruck.

"You kissed me back." He seemed pleased with himself. That made me all the more angry. At who, I still wasn't sure.

"Get out."

He seemed confused. "What?"

"Get out. Now." I got up and started pushing him towards the door.

"But Spencer," With one last shove I got him out in the hallway, quickly slamming the door. I put my back against it and slid down, still in complete shock.

"Oh my god."

Well, it really doesn't get anymore dramatic than that. What's going to happen? Guess you'll just have to stay tuned. But for now, you know what to do!