Adam sat with the rest of the students at the pep assembly, wondering why anyone could have any pep when only a few months ago a student had died. He figured it had something to do with the depressed state he fell in. He had rose in popularity since his sophomore year and now he practically knew everyone in the school. This probably was supposed to bring him out of his funk, but it only succeeded in pissing him off.

Weren't they the least bit upset about Bianca's death? He knew the answer to that; it was no. They were only worried about him and it really sickened him. Sure; Bianca never had the greatest attitude and was a downright bitch all the time, but she didn't deserve to die. None of them worried about that though, they were just worried he was upset about nearly dying, not that he had witnessed someone die. And no one, other than Owen and himself, really mourned her death. It would've been more tragic if it had been little Adam Torres, not the big, bad Bianca.

No one knew how close he really was to death that night. How he had wanted to die but, it was Bianca that had stopped him. Would they all actually start to care about the brunette that was a bitch most of her junior year? Probably, and they probably would've locked him away for trying to kill himself. Something that no one had ever found out.

They all thought him and Bianca were having an argument when the car barreled around the corner. That the fight had turned physical and one hard shove got Adam out of the way, but not Bianca. He never spoke a word against that accusation because he hardly spoke a word since he watched Bianca die. There were too many unanswered questions swimming around his mind, and the only person that would be able to answer them was six feet under.

How had she known what he was going to do when no one else did? When he asked her that question her response had been 'you wouldn't believe me if I told you'. Now he wasn't so sure. Was she psychic? Maybe she had noticed the signs when none of his family members or friends had noticed?

Why did she risk her own life to save his? She never showed any sign before that she liked the boy; in fact she had gone out of her way to show him her hatred. So if she hated him so much, why would she let herself die in his place? Did she have some unresolved feelings toward him or something? Eli had always joked that she did and tried to cover it up with her insults, but he always thought that was stupid. Maybe it wasn't really as stupid as he thought.

The last question was if she really did think she didn't deserve to live. The look she gave him when she told him that he had a life to live and she didn't made him think so, and that crushed him inside. He heard about scholarship to Yale and how she put her life back together. She hardly visited the ravine, hardly drank and stayed away from all the other illegal shit she had done in her life. Yet she threw her whole life away for his because she thought she deserved to die.

It killed him inside, knowing that she wouldn't be able to do anything with her life because of him. But, he never really did think of suicide again. No matter how hard things ever got he knew it would ruin her sacrifice if he ever killed himself.

"Come on Adam, this pep assembly is finally over." Fiona said, smiling as she took his hand and dragged me after Eli and Clare.

"That was the stupidest thing I've ever had to participate in." Eli groaned and Clare rolled her eyes.

"It wasn't that bad." Clare defended and, from the tone of her voice, Adam could tell she didn't really believe it.

"Whatever." Eli chuckled, rolling his eyes and glancing back at Adam. "Adam agrees with me, don't you buddy?" Adam smiled.

"Yeah." He said voice slightly hoarse. A slow smile slid onto Clare's face while Eli's smile widened even more. Fiona gaze his hand a tight, reassuring squeeze and he figured that, maybe, he would be fine after all.

Fin

Disclaimer:

I don't –sob- own Degrassi D: and I'd also like to thank Lauren Oliver for publishing Before I Fall and giving me the inspiration for this story(: You all should go check it out!

Author's Notes:

Aww the cliché, fluffy ending (: I originally was going to end it with the last chapter but, then I decided that it deserved a semi-happy ending(:

Sorry this update took so long :/ stupid viruses are stupid and deserve to go die. But—thank god!—my laptop is finally fixed. I'm just not that pleased with the way this chapter turned out :/ I had it written out before and it was perfect! I re-read it like a million times to make sure it was perfect, but then the virus wiped out most of my fricken stories -_- I wanted to get this out soon so I just threw something together and posted it. Sorry it's not amazing D: but, at least this little fic is finally finished! Yay!

(I'll probably come and edit it later :P)

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