Breaking Down Walls
Chapter 1
'There's someone out there for everyone, I wouldn't even sweat it..'
His smile. His awkwardly, heartfelt, warm smile, so captivating. The way he tries to comfort me.
'You're the most impartial and honest person I know...'
The way the lightening plays, how it falls, the way it darkens his green eyes. Those dark pools of honesty, of lust, of innocence.
'You're a slut, Will, you're a slut, you're a slut...'
Played innocence...
'Hi….'
But ever yet so endearing as ever - as a small infant smiling back at you, locking gazes. He attracts you, keeps you focused, keep you.. mesmerized, unable to look away.
'I'll admit, I've had some control issues in the past, but Carl's been helping me with all that.' - 'Really? Wow…'
The way his disappointment results into sarcasm, into bitterness, the disappointment of not having me, being unable to help me, someone else taking that place.
'So, why would you want to be someone else when someone you're already are is so amazing?' - 'Because the boring someone I already am, wasn't good enough for you..…'
The way he's willing to change himself for me, how he still wants to mesmerize me, help me, have me, after all…
"The reality is, I only did all of this to get close to you." - "I guess love can make you do some crazy things, you know.." - " I'm sorry, Emma. I promise to never abuse our feelings for each other again. And let's face it, Carl's actually making you better, and if I really love you, I need to back off, and accept the fact that, at least for now, being with him is the best thing for you..….."
The way he's persistent, persistent enough to continuously catch my attention, reminding me that I haven't been able to get over him yet, and he, he knows. The way he's been honest with me all along, the way he makes promises and never seems to break them - even when his heart seems to disagree with his mind.
The way he reluctantly gives up, knowing this is the best for me….
… but is it really the best?
Not sure how this is going to go - but I have to write this, just have to. I hope you like it. Let me know what you think so far?