Chapter 32

(Kagome)

I walked away from all of it. I felt so bad and guilty for what has happened tonight.

Because of me Sesshomaru and Arisen got into a bloodthirsty death match.

Arisen had it coming to him, since he kissed me knowing I was still with Sesshomaru.

That obviously showed he had no honor or morals and strangely I no longer like him anymore.

It seemed as if that fight brought me back to my senses.

I feel so stupid and I knew what I had to do.

I couldn't bear seeing him anymore after what I did.

I loved Sesshomaru and this would be for the best.

He would no longer have to worry about me.

I refuse to be a pain to him and besides he deserved someone better than me.

Someone who can proudly stand by him with no insecurities and who won't cause him any problems.

I don't want a war to start between them, so I had to leave not only for his sake but for mine also.

I made it to my room and looked in my drawers.

I found a plain black shirt and some black pants.

I quickly placed those on and looked around, until I found a piece of paper and a pen.

Knowing what I was about to do brought tears to my eyes, but I wiped them away.

There could be no weakness or else I wouldn't be able to go through with it.

Thinking of happy times brought a smile to my face as I began to write.

Dear Sesshomaru,

If you're reading this then that means I'm already gone. Don't bother trying to find me because I'll be hard to find and plus I'll be masking my scent and spiritual energy. Please forgive me for all the pain I put you through. I'm leaving because you'll be better off without me. I refuse to be a pain to you and I don't want a war to break out between you and Arisen over me. I know I'm being selfish to ask you this, but please do it for me. I love you so much and that's why I'm doing this. Find a woman who can treat, honor, respect, and love you dearly my love. No matter what I'll always love you and don't let anyone tell you differently okay.

Forever yours, Kagome aka your little miko

There that should be it as I tip toed to his room and left it on his bed.

I took my time walking out because everyone was still entranced on what happened between Sesshomaru and Arisen for them to fight.

I made it outside with no distractions and as I walked away I glanced back at my former home.

So many memories that were mostly, but some were bad.

Remembering how I met Selena made me laugh.

I will never forget her.

Remembering how I stuck up to those maids made me smirk because I held my ground.

Remembering Sesshomaru and the things we did brought tears to my eyes once again.

This time I didn't wipe them away, I just let them fall freely down my face.

I'll never forget any of them and I'll hold these memories close to my heart as I walked away from my home forever with the crescent moon hovering in the sky tonight.