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Summary: Sakura Kinomoto is the Perfect Angel in the School Everyone wants her, Everyone wants to be like her. However she doesn't care about beauty, popularity, grades, athletic skills. The only thing she wishes, dreams and hopes is that Syaoran Li would come back the one that she devoted her love for him. Sakura would not let any boy date her, she would not let any boy kiss her, heck she doesn't let any boy hug her. This is her life Many people find her life just perfect but really part of family left her, most of her friends moved, and most of all her love had never spoke to her again.

Two new students comes to enroll to the school. What Breaks Sakura the most is that it's Syaoran Li, with a another girl. Fiancee. And what's worst is, Syaoran Li has no memories of Sakura Kinomoto...what is there to do now?

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01 - Breaking Remain of Hope

"Shaoran....."

Many people think life is precious, but I don't think agree with that saying,. Life is nothing. Everyone left me, family, friends, love. Why did you do this to me, was I meant to be like this. Had I done anything wrong to deserve this misery, can you prove it. Can you show me.

I now stand here wrapped around a blanket of darkness, I see no light of hope. I see nothing, You said you would be there for me, you said you would hold my hand, you said you would let me cry on your shoulder. You say a lot of things. But they are just LIES, and yet I still believe in them. I believe all your lies, I believe you would come back but have you ever?!

No, I keep thinking you broke our promise, but then again yakusoku were always meant to be broken. It was childish to even start that when you know in the end it's always broken. I'm so gullible. To believe such things and I still believe them, because I have this spark of hope that they will come true. But that spark of hope is fading away from me slowly and I'm not even going to try and reach for it anymore. I reached it once and everything was the same. There's no point in catching it anymore.

" KINOMOTO-SAN!! WAKE UP THIS INSTANT!! " Umizi-sensei slap her papers at her student's desk, causing her to jump a little.

"Hoeeee..." she stirred weakly as she start to rub her eyes, " Nani? " in a sleepily tone of voice.

" Argh. I have no idea why the class chose you for representing our class." She rolled her crimson eyes, " You know your suppose to be our guide for two new students that joining us."

"Your point." Sakura yawned as he was trying to get back to sleep.

"THEY ARE COMING SOON. DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR SUPPOSE TO BE DOING?!" Umizi-sensei scream at her student, as her voice echoed around the room.

"Erm..Hai Umizi-sensei!" Sakura nod nervously.

"Good Kinomoto, don't mess up. AND PAY ATTENTION." She threw her arms in defeat, " Students..." she mumble as she return to her lectures.

Sakura Kinomoto, was an angel, many people view her as a perfect young angel. Honey brown hair that hung around her shoulder smoothly. The brightest emerald eyes that sparkle with joy, but only some people can see pass those illusion, she was really sad and didn't really want anyone to worry about her. Her skin was pure creamy peachy, and felt like petals of cherry blossoms.

She tends to fool around with some people in a playful way. Athletic girl, probably the most athletic girl in the whole school. This really catches the boys, she's beautiful and athletic. Her worst subject would be math. It was always so confusing with all the numbers, angles, integers, and especially Algebra.

She's not only good at some subjects she has earn one of the titles in school with being popular with boys. As she walks down the hallway many boyfriends who have a girlfriend would give her the ' look '. Personally many people are thinking all the boyfriends the school who have girlfriends are doing this to make Sakura Jealous so they can get a date with her. If they are, it's not working, not now, not never.

Her heart is only set on one person, only one. The only one she believe the lies that drifted from his lips. Syaoran Li. Sure he was a very cold boy, he never really show emotions to anyone, well except one. Sakura only her. She would not let anyone date her, she would not let anyone kiss her ex-including her father and brother, she would not let anyone come and hug her just like that.

Well there you have it your Perfect Angel. Almost. More like a hollow soulless perfect angel, and she still has heart to be friendly, to be selfless, to try and cheer people up when they are down.

Is this why she is named one of the most Popular, Caring, Naive girl in School. Many Girls envied her how can she be like this, it's just so natural to her.

Her eyes slowly fell down as she view a note on top of her desk. Opening it silently below her, while reading it below her.

Sakura-Chan...You were thinking about him weren't you...confess it now...Your missing him what did you tell him when he left to Hong Kong....You wouldn't be like this.

It's true, Sakura blamed herself for this, she shouldn't have said anything. This wouldn't ever happen then, but she rather gone through it then live in self-denial for the rest of her life.

Sakura glance at a hard working person scribing notes,Tomoyo Daidouji.

Having her long black purple hair that went below her waist and above her knee, she usually tied up her hair in a single ponytail. Her soft amethyst eyes shone beautifully into the light.

This was and is the only person that never lie. The only person who never left her side. The only person who was there when she was in a emotion breakdown for Syaoran, and seeking for comfort this was the person.

Tomoyo Daidouji was also a perfect student, she was the valedictorian every year, She loves taping Sakura Kinomoto, since she is very Cute to be taped, and one day she would show the whole world how kawaii her cousin is, and if she's lucky to catch Sakura and Syaoran kissing.

She's very friendly, innocent and evil. It's like an angel controls her then a devil, you can't really describe if her evilness is good or bad, because they can be good or bad.

"Understand class?!" Umizi-sensei asked in bore voice.

"Hai Umizi-sensei." Chorus in the dully voice.

"Class dismiss." she announce as she sigh as everyone ran for it.

Sakura and Tomoyo always walk together through classes and to lockers.

"So you think it's him." Tomoyo ask casually as she realized how Sakura was nervous and shakily like.

"It's just a feeling," she replied silently " you know my feelings aren't accurate." she let out a soft laugh, but not a real laugh.

"Sakura-chan..." Tomoyo ask wordily as she unlock her locker and Sakura began to unlock hers.

"Honto ni Tomoyo-can, I'm fine. It's nothing if it's not them then it's not them I don't blame them." Sakura gave a warm smile to her friend, as she glance the locker beside her which was empty. If only wishes came true. She would've wish Syaoran locker was right beside her so he could look at his face and feel really happiness like a few years ago.

"Well looks like today you have choir practice." Sakura sigh.

"Yeah, here I made you lunch, you never ate anything this week." Tomoyo said as she pass her lunch to Sakura.

"Ano, Tomoyo what about you."

"I'm fine, but your not now go on, I don't think the transfer students would like to hear the guide's stomach growling," Tomoyo joke," Ja-ne Sakura-chan!" she wave as she left to go strolling to the hallways.

While entering the cafeteria, many boys would try to impress Sakura, to get her attention. Ha, many people would laugh at this, they should know she would never notice. Sakura ignore everyone, as she went outside and sat under a cherry blossom tree. It was her favourite tree. She began eating Tomoyo lunch that she had gave her, it was sushi, how typical they used to like to make sushi together and still do. Smiling back at the wonderful memories they had.

This thought let more to how she met Syaoran. The whole point was all about Clow cards, which were transfer to Sakura cards, thanks to Tomoyo who had named them Sakura cards. Now they have been returned to the Li-clan where they would protect the cards. Kero was also sent away. She missed those memorial moments where he would always beg for pudding. Funny she used to think it was annoying but now she kind of missed his plea.

Tomoeda Elementary school was the best, her friends were there as if they were a second family to her. A breathless sigh fell on her lips and into the fresh wind that blew. Memories. How she treasured them.

Then there were her parents. Sadly her Mother had die when she was three years old and her dad had die recently, from sickness. Now Sakura had only her brother, they fight a lot but then they would stop and think how it was when their parents would stop them and start on a long memory lane.

Soon The bell rang signaling the students to return to lockers and received their books for the following periods. Sakura met Tomoyo in the lockers.

"You Go For it Sakura-chan" Tomoyo gave a light cheer to her cousin as she saw her walking to the office. Sakura return with a faint smile.

As she walk into the busy office where everyone was working non-stop, seeing a secretary coming up asking what she wanted.

"I'm here for the students that are coming into the grade 8 and class 5." Sakura stated.

"Oh they just came in." she answer as she led Sakura into a small room with couch, plants, desk and a computer. This must be the principal's office. The Secretary then left Sakura to do her job.

Sakura heart skip rapidly fast, her breathing was getting faint, her cheeks were began to grow at a high temperature. And her eyes were glassy water, as if tears were beginning to fall down her smooth cheeks. Which did. "Kami....Shaoran-kun..." in a below whisper to herself.

The same mess up chestnut hair she always play with since he was so cute with messy hair, his eyes they were still the same, they haven't change but they seem so, un life like as if someone had took his soul and lock away his memories.

A female sat at Syaoran's lap while hugging his neck and Syaoran's arms encircle her waist, she had flowing auburn hair that went down her waist and the innocent azure eyes, she may look the snobby girl who gets whatever she wants. Well she succeed, she had already took one of the most perciousiest thing from the most popular girl in the school.

Sakura, then felt as her heart was made of glass and someone just drop it which no care. Her knees got weak she couldn't handle it anymore. It was more than heartbreaking, it was beyond that.

" Is something wrong? " she ask in a scratchy voice.

"Iie...Iie it's just that," she wipe her tears away," I never seen such a beautiful couple. " covering up with the lamest excuse in the book.

"Oh, Thank you, did you hear that Xiaolang." she nuzzle his neck.

Sakura gulp as she saw Syaoran was looking straight at her. "Ano.. watashi no Sakura Kinomoto. Anata?"

"My name is Li Xiao-mon but here in Tomoeda they call me Yumiko Li. And my Fiancee is Li Xiao-lang, I'm not sure if he has a Japanese name, all I know he's going to marry moi." as she rub her nose on Xiaolang's nose.

' Yeah he has a Japanese name and it's Li Syaoran.' Sakura roll her eyes, it's only the beginning and she's already detesting her snobby attitude.

An hour had passed, after they had introduced each other.

"And this is the English room, where we learn a lot of vocabulary, grammar and write essays." Sakura look at Yumiko and Syaoran holding hands happily. They were like magnets attracting each other. Sakura gave a small peek at Syaoran's eyes. Getting the warm feeling bubbling inside of her she sigh. ' I will not cry, I will not cry, I will not cry. ' she repeat mentally. Yumiko had seen many signs of Sakura looking at Syaoran, and was fairly annoyed with this.

"Kinomoto-san, May I talk to you privately." asking in a sweet tone of voice.

"Sure." Sakura mumble emotionlessly. Yumiko came over and took her hand and drag her to a place.

"Xiaolang I'll be back, don't miss me too much." Yumiko wink at her love.

"Be back soon." Xiaolang whisper sadly as he watch both girls turning around the corne, as they went into the ladies' washroom.

Yumiko lean against the wall as she set up a glare at Sakura, who was leaning standing in the middle shakily.

"Kinomoto-san.."Yumiko began softly

"Hai..." Sakura respond timidly.

"I saw you gave the looks to my Xiaolang." Yumiko close her eyes.

"I-I-I didn't mean too....I-It's just that...I-I.." Sakura began to tremble she had never expected this from her.

"I KNOW HE HAS BEEN HERE IN JAPAN!! YOU HAD MET EACH OTHER HAVEN'T YOU." Yumiko burst out angrily.

"I--Hai..." Sakura avoided eye contacts with Yumiko not really looking forward for trouble.

"Well, not matter how much you try he won't remember you." Yumiko smirk.

"Nani?" Sakura curiosity took over.

"Wow, you sure are dumb, his mother Yelan Li had erased his past life in Japan. She had done it because one girl was such a burnt into his training for being a leader, and he couldn't get over her, and Yelan Li helped him but erasing his memories of Japan. He doesn't remember anything about Japan. He'll never will. It's all a blur. this is like his first time he came into Japan." She stuck her nose up into the air.

"How would you know?!" Sakura hiss.

"Duh, have a brain. The spell that Yelan perform on Syaoran was permanent, nothing can heal it or cure it." Yumiko roll her blue eyes.

"No...It's not possible." Sakura stared at the ground as she saw her own tears on the floor, this wasn't happening.

"Kinomoto I advise you one more thing." Yumiko walk closer to Sakura and rest both of her hands on her shoulder," DON'T YOU DARE MAKE A MOVE ON XIAOLANG, HE'S MINE," She use her right hand and scratch slap swiftly and painfully across Sakura's face, "I'll be watching Kinomoto." she glare at Sakura who was standing there as if she was a statue, she smile and chuckle as she left the washroom.

Sakura raise her hand to touch the her cheeks which has been mark with soft lumps of bumps, she look at her hands, it was dripping smooth ruby blood down her hands. Her cheeks ache, it stung, it felt like if a lot of bees stung her all at once. But this was nothing. Nothing compare how emotionally she had felt more then ever.

Dropping down to the floor as she held her head, "Syaoran-kun....Why...." she whisper between tears, " I--I can't..do anything to make you come back to me." she sniff, as she wipe several tears off her face with her sleeves, " I'm Happy Syaoran....I'm happy that your happy..and that you found your someone..even if it not me, but your happy, and if I love you, I should support you." she crawl to the wall and pull her knees to her chest.

"Arigatou Kami...arigatou...for crushing all my dreams with being with him. My high spirits crashing down to the groud. All my Hopes of one day he would come back and fulfill his promises and show me it wasn't just a lie, Thank you Kami."

She bury her head into her knees,"I'm a wisher, because I wish alot. I'm a dreamer, because I dream alot. I'm a hoper, because I hope alot." she smile at her faiths, " But thank you Kami for showing that wish, dreams, hopes and promises were never meant to come true, they were just illusions to pretend to make people happy, and I was easily fooled to believe that." she look up to the ceiling picturing his face up there smiling down at her. her eyes fill with warm streaks of tear stream down her face, "Syaoran-kun..."

--Tsu zu ku--

Well there you have it, my first revised CardCaptorSakura fanfiction ^^;; ya I kno it sucks..thank you very much ^^;; Review Please?!

Domo Arigatou for Reading My Fanfiction ^_____^

Publish Date - 03.14.02