DISCLAIMER I DO NOT OWN YOUNG JUSTICE! If I did Speedy would have a WAY bigger part in it. I just wondered what happened to Speedy because we all know what happens to the rest of them and I felt kinda bad for him. WARNING It has drug use in it.

I shoot my practice arrows alone in my room. My target was the few pictures I have of me and Ollie, some of the Justice League and a few of me and Robin hanging on my walls.

It's past midnight, on a full-mooned-night just like the one all those years again when I started living with Ollie. I find myself missing those humid starry nights in Arizona. There's nothing like that in the city, it's just cold and dull.

How does Robin do it? He was adopted too, how does he stand it? All those people calling Batman his dad, after years of training he still doesn't get to see the real headquarters of the JL! How do any of them do it? How come none of them went with me, they just let go outside alone.

The others, it's expectable; but Robin. I'd would follow him if he left, we've been friends for years, I took the blame when he took the Batmobile for a joyride, I was the one that visited his parents' grave every year on the 28th (March) with him because Batman is always too busy, I was his friend; and he still let me leave like an idiot.

Maybe I'm asking too much of him. Maybe Ollie was right and I should of waited maybe there's a reason I spend every Christmas alone, no one remembers my birthday, maybe I'm not fit for everyday lifelike everyone else.

The Green Arrow shuts my door as he leaves. He just finished telling me about how Robin is part of a team with Kid Flash, Aqualad, Superboy apparently and someone named Miss Martian. The way he described it, they seemed more like a team of sidekicks to me; they way he talked I knew he was mad at me.

I walk over to my draw and pull out the secret stash of heroin I've been hiding. I told myself I would stop, I told myself that it was wrong, but I just couldn't bring myself to listen or care. After tonight I know that I needed it, I know why I started using this crap in the first place. I need an escape; from reality, from this lonely feeling that consumes me, from the very fact about how useless I really am.

As I shoot up I think, Maybe this is the way it's suppost to be.

Review! or not, flaming is of too! For the record, Speedy used heroin in the comics.