A/N: Posted for the Dark Lord's birthday! December 31st! I'm a bit late, but I'm sure I will be forgiven.
Tittle: Interlude
Beta: Dani
Pairing: Harry Potter/Lord Voldemort
Summary: A moment in time in the life of two people. An interlude in the middle of the night
Warning: Slash, mentions of character death.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Interlude
I chose to belong to him; to Voldemort, to Tom, to Master Riddle —whatever they called him, I'm his. It was natural of us, our relationship; it has always been unusual (explosive, intense) and I've come to like it, cherish it. It was natural for us, beyond the normal for others - unusual, freakish if we consider how normal people would act.
But we've never been normal, have we, my Lord?
The day I first came to the castle was just a bit unusual. It was during one of the battles. Dark versus Light, Right versus Wrong. We were fighting, duelling for our ideals and, due to a mistake, I was captured. I was thrown into the dungeons at first and left there for two days before He came - only him, no second in command; Malfoy, Lestrange, Snape or Carrows.
He taunted me, said I was dead to the world; I said that, even if he had spread news of my death, the Light's beliefs would keep my work going. One moment we were fighting again (though with words this time around) and the other we were making love, there's no other word for it, it was slow, careful tangle of limbs, and his kisses! It was completely different from a simple fuck, one-night stands I was used to; that, however, I was not, being the bottom, being with a man. Right there in the dungeons; he was the one to ask for my virginity and I gave in.
I hope you understand, my Lord, that you're the only man I'll ever lay down with.
Later, He took me to his bed and, again, I gave myself completely. We still hated each other; we fought, we argued and we cursed each other to hell and beyond, and we made love . . . Until it came the day when that hate turned into something else. I guessed at the time that it might have been longing, born from loneliness perhaps, but our dynamics changed, we argued and we made love still, but there was no fight. Well, no serious fight at least.
Instead, there was this hunger, there was need, there was an overwhelming desire and I fell deeper into Him than I ever thought possible. I've had relationships before, but none as intense - none that I cherished as much as I did cherish him. It shouldn't be possible; he was the Dark Lord, he was evil and a murderer, but I had (I still have actually) this hunger for him - to be near, to be consumed, devoured . . . to be his and only his.
It was him that changed us that final time. I still had my own room back then and he walked in (without permission, without asking or knocking) and he was furious. I think he might even have attempted to Crucio me, which just goes to show how angry My Lord was.
Instead, he just grabbed me and pinned me down and snarled to me about how he hated to be made a fool of and whoever had dared to touch me in a sexual way would meet his wrath, because Dark Lords do not share. I still have no idea what possessed me to say what I did, but I told him that he would have to commit suicide then, because the only one touching me was him.
Needless to say, I've never slept alone since that day.
x
Harry Potter woke up to the freezing air around him, the blankets covering only his legs; His side of bed was unmade, cold and empty. It wasn't the first time this had happened and Harry was certain it wouldn't be the last.
Harry was a jealous lover, had always been a jealous lover in fact - oddly enough, it was part of the reason Voldemort and him got along so well, since the Dark Lord was the exact same way. He was always jealous of his possessions, and Harry was well aware that, on the night he gave his Lord his virginity, he had become one of the Dark Lord's possessions.
Rubbing his arms to try and get them to a normal, non-freezing temperature, Harry looked around the dark room. He reached for his glasses, putting them on while getting out of bed, worry and jealousy gnawing at him. If his Lord was with someone else, he wanted to see it with his own eyes. His sock-clad feet met the cold stone ground and Harry couldn't help the shiver that ran up his spine. He moved slowly towards the sitting room, opening the door without making a sound.
Harry found it bathed in a sort of greyish light. There was no noise, but someone was clearly in the room. He hoped it was his Lord and not one of His things. Harry might like the Dark Lord, but he still couldn't stand his Death Eaters.
'I guess 'like' might be a bit of an understatement.'
Harry found Him sitting on the floor, his back against the expensive couch, staring at the usually blank wall. Only now, it wasn't blank. There was . . . something . . . there. He stared at the black-and-white moving picture for a moment, before giggling. The man on the screen was eating pasta with a dash of serpentine paper. It was obviously a silent film from the start of the century.
"Harry?" came the deep voice from the floor, and Harry looked down into crimson eyes staring at him.
"What are you watching?" Harry asked, getting closer.
"A silent film, from 1931." There was no obvious change in the man's face but, to Harry, He seemed to smile. "Come here beloved," the Dark Lord said, holding his hand out to the petite young man before him.
Grinning at the invitation, Harry quickly walked up to him, sock-clad feet making a dull thump-thump-thump noise as he stepped up to his Master. While the man on the screen continued to eat the pasta, Harry sat between his Master's legs, his small frame surrounded easily by Voldemort's arms, and leaned against a thin chest.
Voldemort just guided Harry onto his lap, his hands resting on Harry's hips, fingers idly caressing the white skin beneath the shirt as their eyes returned to the screen.
The man on the screen was now watching the couples celebrate what was, obviously, New Year's, they danced before him with their dates, and the man suddenly got up, dragging another man's date to dance with him, spinning them round and around the room like a mad carousel while the woman's date fumed. Harry couldn't help but snigger at the scene.
Voldemort smiled, placing a kiss on Harry's head as The Tramp was thrown out of the door by a butler, on the orders of a currently sober millionaire. Harry gasped as he finally recognised the man. It was... Harry had never watched one of his films!
"Shh, Harry-pet," the Dark Lord chastised, "no talking during the film."
"But it's -"
"I know," the Dark Lord whispered, placing a finger on Harry's lips. "But it's still a film, so no talking, pet."
Harry nodded and they watched The Tramp falling in love with the blind Flower Girl, then going to prison because of the Alcoholic Millionaire, only to find the Flower Girl again in the end. For an hour and a half, Harry simply watched, delighted, snuggled against his Master.
'Can you see now?'
'Yes, I can see now.'*
His head leaning on Voldemort's shoulder, Harry stared at the ending screen, the cursive Fin that appeared, and sighed as the wall returned to its usual blank state.
"I didn't know you knew about silent films," Harry whispered after the end, his earlier feeling of abandonment completely forgotten as his Master caressed him. Whenever they were near each other, they were always touching - a caress of fingertips, a hand covering another hand, gripping the other's knee, twirling a strand of hair, a brush of hands, a pinkie finger holding another pinkie finger.
"There's much you don't know yet, pet. You'll learn, of course; we'll have forever to learn everything about each other." The Dark Lord shrugged, his fingers moving up from Harry's hips, to his torso and settling over his stomach, right under his breastbone, his right thumb caressing the skin.
"True . . . but I have questions now, if you don't mind that is . . ." Harry trailed off, his own hand settling on his Master's right knee. Voldemort's silence was all Harry needed to start his inquiry.
"Which film was that?"
"That one . . . It's called City Lights, aired at the end of February, 1931. Before you ask, I was four years old."
"And you remembered it? As far as I know, we can hold memories only after we're five or six years old."
"They showed it at the orphanage when I was ten, one of the only good memories I actually have of that place." The Dark Lord shrugged.
"But why were you watching it now?"
"Insomnia. You know I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes; this was just one of those times."
"Oh," Harry sighed in relief, staring at the floor, his hand gripping the Dark Lord's flannel trousers until his knuckles were white. "I thought... I thought you—"
"You thought I was with someone else." The Dark Lord sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose to try and head off a migraine.
'My darling, you can be so obtuse sometimes.'
"I know you wouldn't, but sometimes I can't help but think—"
"Harry, pet, what do I think of traitors?" Voldemort interrupted him, watching Harry as a myriad of emotions bloomed on Harry's face.
Harry gulped loudly, still staring at the floor, his grip on his Lord's flannel pants tightening as his heart skipped a beat. "You despise them, you loath them . . . you . . . you don't think they're worthy of their lives," he stuttered.
Harry could still remember Severus's mangled body, thrown onto the floor as his Lord let him choke in his own blood, before crushing his windpipe, stomping down on it, when Severus was near death. And Harry would never, ever forget Draco Malfoy, who begged the Dark Lord for his life only to be handled over to the Death Eaters for a swift death.
"Almost. It's not that they're unworthy of their lives, but, as far as I'm concerned, if you want to follow something - if you made a decision to go down a certain path - you should be prepared to go through with it until the very end. If you betray that goal, then you better be prepared for the consequences." The Dark Lord shrugged, at the same time his grip on Harry's body tightened in an unrelenting caress, bringing him even closer.
"Those are the rules I follow, my darling, why would I betray them? If I chose to take you, to keep you, to cherish you, to . . ." Voldemort stopped, leaning forward and breathing in Harry's scent, placing a kiss on his head and then on a smooth cheek. "If I chose to do that, why would I betray that choice? Why would I choose something else? Choose someone else?"
"You're a logical person," Harry muttered, finally releasing his Master's pants and glancing at those beloved crimson eyes, his heart beating fast.
Voldemort had never, ever called him 'my darling', was it possible that . . .?
"I am; and you, my pet, are a very insecure griffin, thinking naughty thoughts like that about your Master . . . Maybe I should punish you, remind you who you belong to." He paused for a moment, thinking. "Actually, maybe I should remind you whom I chose to belong to," Voldemort whispered, nuzzling Harry's cheek with his nose, even as he twisted them around, settling Harry properly on his lap and kissing the skin right underneath his ear.
Harry's eyes widened, looking at Voldemort with fearful hope. Would Tom change their relationship yet again? Harry smiled at his Lord, fingers caressing the thick, raven hair. Voldemort rose with Harry still on his lap and headed for their bedroom, ignoring as Harry gasped as silently as he could.
Harry could do nothing but hold on, a silly smile lighting up his face as he stared into his Master's eyes. They were soft, soft as the midnight caresses he received sometimes, warm as ambers, and holding an emotion Harry rarely saw in them.
Voldemort didn't say anything as he walked inside, just shooting a flame to light up the fireplace, bathing the bedroom in a dim orange light, as he gently lay Harry down on the sheets, staring into Harry's eyes before claiming his lips.
"Such tempting lips, pet . . ." Voldemort murmured into the kiss, "red and beautiful like you."
Harry barely heard the strikes of the grandfather clock - it was 3am, the 31st of December. Smiling into the kiss, and letting his fingers caress his lover's spine, Harry whispered, "Happy Birthday, beloved."
x
'Happy Birthday,' that Harry had said it as if it was a normal occurrence is what astonishes me. That he remembers it, when I've only said it in passing a little over five months ago, is what makes my heart beat faster. He remembered it.
I once heard someone saying that if you love someone, you'll remember the little details about them. That Harry actually remembers this day, and that I can recall the details he doesn't even realize he shares... I wonder what that says about us?
Admittedly it's not a date that people usually remember, the birth date of the Dark Lord, everyone – followers included – are too busy perceiving this as New Year's Eve, soon another year will come, another life will be upon us, the turn of the tide as the saying goes. But the same things happens now, just as it happened all those years ago.
No one had bothered to remember little Tom Riddle's birthday then. And no one bothers to remember the date now.
Well... almost no one.
I look at him, my Harry, laying beside me, completely exhausted after our activities, and I can't help but be reminded of that time, long ago, when I was around seven. Just like now, it was New Year's Eve. My birthday. There was a star and I, foolish little thing I was, made a wish.
'I want someone that remembers.'
My darling, my beloved, my heart. I fall asleep listening to his breathing. Tomorrow will be another day, people will be busy with their own parties. Fireworks, food, drinks, being awake until the dawn of January. But we, my darling and I, will be busy with another sort of celebration. Because he remembered it.
Soon after falling asleep I wake up to the sound of sniffling, coming from our window. As I open my eyes, it's not the castle that I see, but the orphanage. I see the empty beds, the tread-bare blankets, the walls – their corners mouldy because of the infiltration of water and snow, peeling paint coming out of the ceiling. And I see him, sitting on the window sill, trying to hold back tears as he looked up to the dark sky.
Was I really that pathetic, sniffling little brat once?
"'I want someone that remembers." I hear him whisper to the nothingness before him. And just before the scene fades, as I know it will, I reply to that plea.
"Someone will remember, and he'll be dear to us, he'll become our world, and I guarantee, you'll love him more than anything you will ever love, more than your own magic."
And I fall back into natural sleep, safe in the knowledge that, as long as my Harry and I are together, we'll never feel lonely again.
Huh, when did I become such a sappy love-struck fool?
~fin~
*Direct quote from the end of the film.
