Mistakes We Knew We Were Making:

Disclaimer: I don't own Glee, Never Shout Never, or Mae (unfortunately D:)

Rachel sat in her room watching "Funny Girl" on her laptop, a regular occurrence for her ever since Finn "officially" broke up with her. After three weeks of being alone every day during school, after school, and on the weekends, Rachel started to calculate her relationship with Finn and everything that went wrong with it. Being the neurotic girl that she was, Rachel composed a list:

The auditorium- after an amazing kiss Finn left in a rush, not even considering my feelings.

The bowling alley- he used me in hopes of getting a scholarship, and Quinn was pregnant with a

child that he thought was his….

Rachel paused for a moment, "wait, the first kiss that we had was when Finn was still with Quinn, and so was the second! And he thought that she was bearing his seed!" Rachel thought as her face turned red with rage.

"WHAT A FUCKING HIPOCRITE!" Rachel screamed.

"Rachel Barbra! What did I just hear you say!" Rachel's father yelled up the stairs.

"Sorry dad!" Rachel said, as she slipped on her coat.

Rachel opened up her window and climbed stealthy down the tree outside of her house with her car keys in her hand. As soon as she slipped into her car she shoved in her Never Shout Never CD and skipped to her one of the only songs that would calm her down. Seawhatweseas pumped through her speakers as she was transported to a calm, happy place. She needed to be calm enough to not get into an accident on her way to Finn's house.

Pulling up a block away from the Hummel/ Hudson residence Rachel took a few breaths and took out her cell phone,

*Hey Finn, you home?* She texted quickly, her phone soon vibrated and she quickly flipped it up to read the newest text:

-Nah, I'm a party, puck's house, why?-

*Oh, uhmm, can I stop by real fast, I REALLY need to talk to you*

-Sure, but if this is some attempt at trying to get me back, it won't work, I told you that I needed time and I meant it Rachel."

"Hah!" Rachel scoffed "As if you insufferable dickwad!" Though she replied calmly, *I totally understand, but It's not about that, I'll be there soon.*

Rachel checked herself in her mirror, she was wearing a pink and white striped cami with a pink lace trim, skinny leg jeans that showed off her curves, the new pair of black , flat, suede boots that she bought, and her hair was curled due to the fact that she wanted to try out her new curling iron. Rachel had to admit that tonight she looked pretty smokin'. She shoved her hand in her purse and grabber her eyeliner, eye shadow, and pink sparkly lip gloss that tasted like strawberries. Rachel donned her eyes with a smokey look and puckered her glossed lips at her mirror, feeling proud, and for once in her life sexy. Putting her car in gear she pulled up in front of Puck's house only to see drunk football players groping cheerleaders on the front lawn. Rachel parked her car and walked up the sidewalk. Half way to the door she spotted Finn talking to some other players who were gathered in a circle each with a drink in hand. Rachel made her way over only to be groped around the waist and pulled back into someone's body.

"Lookin' good Berry.", was slurred into her ear. Rachel recognized Dave Karofsky's voice.

Rachel loosened his grip on her enough to spin around, "Why thank you David, but I have other matters to attend to at the moment" she said politely, it's not like she liked Dave at all, she was just smart enough to know that being as small as she is was no match for a big, fat, drunk, football player like him. David just shrugged and let her go, which slightly surprised her, but she didn't think much of it. She swiftly adjusted her boobs to make them look a bit bigger before swaggering over to Finn. Rachel copied Karofsky's line as she sexily whispered in Finn's ear "looking good Hudson" while giving his ass a little squeeze.

"Oh hey Santan-" Finn paused with a surprised look on his face as he looked at a very hot version of Rachel. "R-r-rachhel, h-hey." He stuttered as he eyed her. Rachel chuckled and playfully slapped his arm, "Oh Finny, you're so funny." She giggled, "I wanted to ask you something, it's more of a proposition actually, can we go somewhere more…" Rachel ran a finger from his chest to his belt "..quiet?" Finn's eyes nearly popped out of his head and he grabbed Rachel's hand and practically dragged her to the first empty bedroom he could find. Rachel didn't hesitate on pushing Finn on to the bed , Finn didn't hesitate either, quite the opposite actually, he grabbed the back of Rachel's head and kissed her passionately .

Finn broke the kiss and whispered "I'm sorry Rachel, I've missed this so much, I've missed you so much" in her ear. A wave of emotion fell over Rachel and she almost lost herself in everything Finn, but she knew in the back of her mind that she couldn't

"Get ahold of yourself Rach, just a quick fuck and get out, rip his heart out." She thought to herself.

Rachel took ahold of Finn's belt and ripped down his pants and boxers in one swift motion, Finn looked at Rachel in surprise but quickly reciprocated her actions has he helped to undress her. It was only a matter of seconds before limbs were tangled together on the bed.

Finn kissed every part of Rachel's naked body until she got tired of foreplay and took his member in her hand to guide him into her. The pain ripped through Rachel as he thrust upward breaking her barrier, but she didn't let it show on her face. It only took a minute of thrusting on Finn's part for him to be finished, unfortunately Rachel didn't get her release, but she faked it anyway just wanting to get out of that room ASAP. Rachel went to get off of Finn when he grabbed her sides and hugged her to him.

"I love you Rachel, I promise I'll never hurt you again, you're all I want, you're all I'll ever want, you Rachel, only you." Finn whispered into her ear as he stroked her hair.

"god, why does he have to make this harder than it has to be?" Rachel thought angrily as silent tears slipped from her eyes.

Once Finn fell asleep, Rachel peeled herself off of his body and slipped on her clothes. She got in her car and cried, she cried more than she did when he broke up with her.

Out of nowhere she felt someone slap her, "what the fuck!" she said with a hand to her cheek, as she looked over to see herself in her passenger seat.

"oh my god…. You're me…what the helllllllllllll? I'm going fucking crazy, I'M CRAZY! OW!" she said as she received another swift slap.

"Rachel, calm down, you are crazy, but only a bit, I'm your conscious. You're just imagining this." Her conscious said calmly.

"w-w-what do you want?" Rachel stammered.

"I'm just here to remind you to stick with plan 'Screw over that douchebag.' Ok? Just think of all the shit he put you through, the lies, the hurt, never EVER sticking up for you, everything." Her other self said.

"Ok. Stick with the plan, gotcha. Can you go back in my head now?" Rachel said.

"yeah sure, but just remember, because Berry, you deserve better." Her conscious said as she disappeared.

"I have some major issues." Rachel said to herself as she started her car.

A/N: Okay, this is my first glee fic, uhm I'm not too sure exactly where I want to go with this yet, but it's definitely going to be interesting. I know Rachel swears a lot, but let's get real, anyone in her situation would swear even if it was only to themself. In the end it will definitely end up being Finchel, but the journey will be very rocky. I probably won't update very fast because I suck at deadlines, sorry. I may update faster than usual if I get enough reviews *hint hint*

Thanks for reading! Hailee.