WARNING: Has Yaoi Lemon. Infrequent coarse language. InverseShipping/TreasonShipping Kiryu(Kalin)xYusei. For those who don't like yaoi, then why are you reading this in the first place? Get off my fanfic right now! For those who like yaoi and this pairing, enjoy my fanfic! This is like really angsty and this fanfic was originally a oneshot but it turned out to be too long so I broke it up into two chapters...(Might have typos...^^;)

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's nor gain any profit from it. I'm just a obsessed, dedicated fan. However, this fanfiction's all mine though.

*Kiryu's POV*

I should run. Run away from here as fast as I can and never look back, I thought to myself as I rode past the city limits of Neo Domino at 10 a.m. My heartrate soared out of anticipation when I'd finally reached the newly built Daedelus Bridge into the Satellite Sector where my friends live. Part of my mind did notice all the changes for the better that they've done to the Satellite as well as the rest of Neo Domino but I wasn't worried about that. They sent me an email a few months back, telling me about this. What I was worried about, I mean really worried about was whether my friends Jack, Crow and Yusei would ever forgive me for all of the bad things I've done. Then again, why should they? I was a Dark Signer after all.

The one person I know shouldn't forgive me at all under no circumstances is Yusei. My beloved Yusei. I thought he'd betrayed me awhile back in our Team Satisfaction days but I was sadly mistaken my emotions clouded my judgement. It made me see things that didn't really happen. He didn't betray me. He was trying to stop me from doing something horribly wrong. As a result, I hurt Yusei. The one I loved. Physically and emotionally. Yusei loved me and I end up hurting him. Even tried to kill him. My Shooting Star... The guilt was too much for me to bear. I even tried taking my own life several times. Then, on my last attempt at suicide, Yusei's face flashed into my mind. The way his beautiful face would look if he even knew I tried to kill myself and succeeded. If I had succeeded in my attempt, I would've hurt Yusei in the worst way possible. I had realized that I'd be taking myself away from Yusei. Now that I've realized what I was doing, I couldn't bring myself to commit suicide anymore. Now I have a new resolve: To see Yusei again. Even though I don't deserve him.

As I rode through the streets, it dawned on me that I'd forgot to send my friends an email saying that I'll be in town today. I knew why too. It was because I was too keyed up the previous day to do anything else. I stopped a couple of pedestrians to ask them for directions to my friends' place. Apparently, it was easier than I thought since everyone in the entire city knew about Yusei. As soon as I mentioned his name, a huge crowd of people came out of nowhere surrounded me and started shooting off questions at me. It was irritating since some of them were personal and most of the personal questions involved Yusei and those questions triggered some of my blushes. Before they asked me anymore questions, I had to beg them to give me the address to Yusei's place. To my relief, some random woman who was walking with her son holding her hand told me the directions. I thanked her before speeding off on my runner faster than before.

As the sun crossed into high noon, my eagerness to see my friends and Yusei has increased even more as well as the anxiety. I'm sure I can see them now without trying to run away. I'm almost there. Just a few more blocks... I can't run now. I know I can't now that I've come this far. I must see my friends again. Seeing Yusei again will make me the happiest person in the world.

I finally arrived at their place. From the looks of it, it's pretty spacious considering that the four of us lived in something like this in our Satisfaction days. I chuckled darkly at the memories that flowed through my mind that second. I really did go mental, did I? How pitiful.

I heard an explosion coming from inside as I pulled up to their garage slowly and jumped. Then the garage door started opening and my heart stopped then sank alittle when Crow stepped out. I thought it would be Yusei then... Crow spotted me staring at him with wide eyes filled with fear and confusion then gasped.

"No way...Kiryu?" he gasped, I took off my helmet.

"Hi, Crow." I said to him casually, smiling lightly. "I decided to ride down here to see you guys."

"You could've called or emailed us first."

"Sorry. I really wanted to see you guys again."

Crow still looked confused if not cautious but he sort of recovered several seconds. I got off my duel runner as he said, "Well, why don't you come in? Jack and Yusei will be thrilled to see you again. Come on, bring your runner in here too. Don't worry, we have tons of space now."

"Sure." I rolled my runner into the spacious garage which is bigger than I thought. It's not just a garage, it's a workshop too. Part of my mind noticed Crow run off into the back of the house as I parked my runner next to theirs. I looked around their garage and noticed what looked like an incomplete duel runner hooked up to an generator-type of engine by jumper cables. And it's smoking alittle. What the hell were they doing in here? I thought to myself as I stared at the smoking engine in horror.

"Kiryu?" I started at the sound of Jack's voice and turned to look at him. "I thought Crow was joking when he said you were here. What made you come back to see us?" Jack asked me, glowering. I may have deserved that.

"I just wanted to come down here to see you, Crow and...Yusei." I could barely get his name out. "To make sure you guys are okay." I answered, looking away. If Yusei's okay...

Crow sighed apprehensively. My eyes locked onto him automatically.

"What?" I demanded.

"So you're not moving down here?" he asked.

"I do have a house now, Crow." I retorted.

"You know what I mean."

"I do. And I can't. I can't be near him like that. After what I've done, I can't. It's too much." I sighed heavily, my throat was getting thick. Run, Kiryu, I told myself. "I better go." I grabbed my helmet which was now sitting on the seat of my runner. Jack grabbed my arm before I proceeded to roll my runner outside.

"Let go of me!" I said angrily.

"No. Yusei wants to see you, Kiryu." Jack said as he yanked my arm toward his body. I fell back slightly before he caught me by my shoulders then spun me around to face him directly. He glared at me intensely. "That's the real reason why you came down here, right? To see Yusei?"

I nodded then answered. "Yes. That's why. But I don't deserve to see him."

"It doesn't matter if you think you don't deserve him, Kiryu. He loves you."

I stared at him stunned. "What?"

"Yusei loves you." Jack repeated. "He always has." My face smoothed out when Jack had uttered those three words. His words flowed through my doubtful mind over and over trying to process it. The next words that escaped my lips were the ones I've been dying to ask for the longest time.

"Yusei's still in love with...me? How is it that he still loves me after everything I've done to him? You and Crow were there when you've seen me do it. I've hurt him. Tried to kill him."

"Like I said, 'It doesn't matter.' Yusei loves you. He forgives you."

I gasped slightly. "He forgives me?" Both Jack and Crow nodded. I sighed while smiling lightly. "Yusei really does have a big heart does he?"

"Yeah but he's a fierce duelist." said Crow as Jack laughed in agreement.

The three of us moved into the living area of the house and proceeded to the living room to talk some more. Jack went into the kitchen then returned with three cups of tea minutes later. The tv was on some channel that airs turbo duel tournaments but we weren't really paying any attention to it. We must've sat there for ten minutes sipping our tea before they started asking me questions where I had been. I sidetracked them by asking about Yusei since I haven't seen him since I'd arrived here. They told me that he was at work and won't be back until sunset.

"Where does he work?" I demanded.

"He mostly does repairs. Right now he's at the Duel Academy." Crow answered.

"I'm heading there now." I said automatically as I stood up abruptly. Crow and Jack stood up with me and held me to keep me from leaving. "Why are you guys stopping me?"

"If you care about Yusei, I mean really care about him, you'd stay here and wait for him the same way he's waited or you all this time." Jack told me as I relaxed. I stared at him in disbelief. "Look, the best present you could ever give Yusei is you, Kiryu. When he comes home and unexpectedly sees your face, it will make him the happiest he's ever been." My face relaxed as well as my posture and sat back down on the couch. He's right. I care about Yusei alot though I'm not sure how staying here until he comes home will prove that I love him but it's the one thing I can give Yusei. Me. I can give him me, my body, my entire being to him. My heart already belongs to him.

"Fine. I'll wait for him." I promised. Jack and Crow stared at me apprehensively.

"Good." said Crow. He looked at his watch and blurted out, "Well, I have to be at work. in 20 so see you guys later. Save some dinner for me, Jack." Crow dashed out of the room and I heard the garage door open then close and the sound of his runner powering up and speeding off.

"What the hell made him think that I'm the one who's cooking tonight?" Jack grumbled then sighed. "Well, I'd better go pick up the things I'll need for later after I run a couple of errands first. Will you be okay here by yourself, Kiryu?"

I glared at him irritantly and said with a note of petulance in my voice, "I'm not a fucking kid, Jack!"

Jack laughed at my tone and I glowered at him as he said, "I'll see you later then. Help yourself to anything in the fridge, Kiryu."

I walked with him to the front and opened the garage for him as he started up bhis runner. He sped off as soon as the garage door was fully open. Then I closed the garage door soon after and returned to the living area. The tv was still on the same channel and I sighed in frustration. I wanted to see Yusei so much right now but I promised Jack and Crow I wouldn't leave here until Yusei comes home and sees me. His smiling face when he sees me had crossed my mind. I smiled at the thought.

Fine! I'll stay here like I promised! I thought to myself as I threw myself down on the couch. After a few minutes of watching tv, I yawned. Now that I think of it, I haven't gotten any sleep since yesterday. I was too keyed up to do anything really because I decided to come down here. My anxiousness rised to new levels and I haven't realized I was seriously crashing. I yawned again before my eyes closed. Then, my mind was taken over by unconsciousness so soon...

The smell of cabbages, tomato and a variety of other foods reached my senses and my eyes snapped open. It didn't take me long to figure out that I've slept a really long time. The house was really dark except for the kitchen light that had barely touched my eyes. The tv is now off. I sat up slowly then noticed a light colored blanket sliding off my body. Someone must've placed it on me while I was sleeping... My stomach started filling up with butterflies. Yusei. He's home now. He came home and saw me sleeping then covered me with this blanket. Then almost as quick as my happiness came, it dissipated when I finally realized that I wasn't awake to see his face when he came home some time ago. I stood up as I looked towards the kitchen with anticipation. The blanket fell to the floor partially. I want to see him. I have to, I thought as I finally willed my legs to move. I walked towards the kitchen slowly as my heartrate soared and my breathing became irregular. Breathe, Kiryu, said the voice in my head. Who am I kidding? I'm fucking terrified! What will he think once he sees me? I stepped into the kitchen and saw him standing there in front of the stove 10, 20 feet away from me. My heart and my breathing stopped.

To Be Continued...

A/N: Sorry I had to end it right here but I had to because the one shot ended up being too long... I'll have the 2nd chapter up in a day or so. Try to be patient with me. Reviews are appreciated! ^_^ (Lemon will be in the 2nd chapter...)