Dear Readers,
Thank you so much for reading this story. This I had to admit was sad to write, I was almost a little teary eyed as I was writing the end. Well, I hope you guys enjoyed reading this story. Reviews are very much appreciated, I really really want to know what you guys think about the ending. This is my first time writing a Lucius Malfoy and Narcissa Black fanfiction, and well I think I would like to continue writing more of them. I highly recommend reading this story while listening to the song, you'll get an idea of the emotions I wanted you guys to feel.
-Natalya

(January 30, 2011)

"When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one "
Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Yesterday was the day Lucius couldn't sop thinking about. The story that Narcissa told him made him sad and furious at the same time. Sad because, she was going to die; furious because she likes the cancer. He understood how much pressure she was going through, if anything he was going through much worse. He was the son of an powerful, pure blood, aristocrat, arraigned married family. He knew how it was like to go through the day with people pushing and pulling you until you collapse. But he also knew how to escape from it all, just erase all of the pain and expectations from your mind and only do it because you want too. If only he had told her last night.

He couldn't get his mind away from Narcissa. Everywhere he went, he was always thinking about her. Even his schoolmates wouldn't stop talking about her. It is official that the whole school knows about Narcissa's illness. You can't walk down the halls without hearing Narcissa name coming out from another person's mouth.

Lucius didn't know what he was thinking of kissing her. Of course she wouldn't like him back. She was dieing and in pain. He shook his head in fury and continued to watch the grounds this late at night. He wanted to finish his head boy duties already and go to bed.

Lucius reached his final destination and looked up from the bottom of the astronomy tower. Currently, the only thing that was running through his mind was how many flight of stairs he had to go through just to go to the top of the tower.

Slowly but surely, he walked up the stairs with images of last night replaying over and over in his head.

Slightly without of breath, he reached the top and saw a person looking at the view over at the balcony.

He shook his head and was ready to curse that person out for being so stupid and making him actually do his head boy duties. He silently walked over but stopped as he saw the familiar long wavy blonde hair fall down the girls low back; the much to big for her body, thin hospital gown flowing by the breeze; and the paleness of her skin not because of the moonlight.

Narcissa.

Lucius debated inside to whether or not to leave or stay.

He choose the first and silently turned around, but quickly stopped as he heard her sob. Lucius bit his lip and walked over to her.

"Narcissa?" he whispered but she didn't seem to hear him.

He took a step closer.

"Narcissa?" he whispered again.

Narcissa whimpered something that he couldn't make out and walked over to her side.

As he was next to her, he saw goosebumps forming all over her pale skin. She was freezing, when the temperature outside was barely below seventy-five Fahrenheit. Without thinking, he took off his school robe that was embedded with the Slytherin symbol and put it over her shoulders. Narcissa just stood there, watching the view in front of her. She didn't even attempt to stop him, instead she fixed the robe on her.

For a few moments, they both looked out of the balcony and watched the view. The lake was twinkling under the moonlight, the black sky was filled with many stars, and the full moon made everything seem so nice.

Lucius heard soft sobs coming from her direction. He faced her and saw tears falling down her cheeks. She was clinging to the railing, steadying her self from falling apart. Nevertheless, it wasn't helping. Lucius put his hands around her and pulled her close to him. She didn't object and put her face into his toned chest. Lucius ran his fingers through her hair as she cried into his chest. He felt his shirt getting wet very quickly but didn't care. The only thing he could do right now, was to comfort her.

Lucius put his chin on top of her head and slightly rocked his body side to side.

"Shh, Narcissa. Everything will be alright," he whispered but he knew that this was never going to be alright.

Her wrapped his arms around her tighter as she sobbed harder. It was surprising to see so many tears coming out of her eyes. Maybe that's what happens when you keep your emotions to yourself, without much warning, you burst and it all comes out so quickly.

"I'm so sorry," her voice muffled into his chest.

"There's no need to apologize," he said softly.

"No, I need to apologize," she said while lifting her head up. Lucius looked down a her and saw that her eyes were red from all of the crying.

"I'm so sorry for the way I treated you. Many times you helped me, but I just pushed you away. I feel like one of those ungrateful children that never realized how good something was until its gone. Lucius," She put her shaking hand on his cheek. Lucius closed his eyes as she did so. "Thank you, for everything. You were there for me when no one was."

Narcissa was crying one again but this time from the emotion she said from the apology.

"Will you ever for give me?" she asked. Lucius looked down at her twinkling eyes and saw the beauty that he always saw when he looked at her.

"I will always forgive you, no matter the consequence," he said as he placed his forehead against hers. He picked up his thumb and whipped away the tears off of her cheeks.

Narcissa looked up at his silver gray eyes and smiled. Without a second to spare, she leaned in and kissed him. Lucius was stunned by her sudden action but quickly regained himself and kissed her back. The kiss was soft and simple, mainly because she was far to weak to do much more, but it was still filled with so much passion and desire. Narcissa tied her hands around his neck as he lifted her up. He realized how much lighter she has gotten from the last time he picked her up, which was just last night. They continued to kiss as if they won't be seeing each other ever again.

"I'm going to miss you," she said softly as she came away from the kiss for some air.

"Don't say that Narcissa," he said sternly.

"But I am."

"You're not going anywhere, you hear me? We will find a way to get this muggle disease out from you. Even if it mean that I have to risk everything."

Narcissa shook her head but didn't say anything.

"I'm so stupid. I could have cured this cancer a long time ago if I just took some medication," her voice trailed away into sobs.

"You're not stupid, Narcissa. The cancer just took control of your brain making you think that it was doing more good than harm." Lucius put her down on her feet as she put her head on his shoulder.

"I don't want to die," she sobbed.

Lucius closed his eyes and put his face into her hair.

"Your not going to die, not when I'm around," Lucius said, but deep down he knew that, that was a promise he couldn't keep.

Slowly, they swayed together as if music was playing.

"I love you Narcissa," he said softly.

"I love you too," she whispered.

~o~

Lucius carried Narcissa down the stairs as she was slowly falling asleep. He looked down at her and actually got a chance to see how fragile she was. To him, she weighed nothing more than a feather.

He walked down to the Hospital Wing, hoping that Madam Pomfrey wasn't going to bark at him, thinking that he took her out in the condition that she was in.

With his elbow, he managed to open that huge door without disturbing her. He braced himself for the bickering but sighed as he saw that Madam Pomfrey was in her office, fast asleep. Lucius walked over to Narcissa's bed and placed her on it. He put the covers over her and kissed her lips. He fixed the strand of hair away from her face and smiled. To him, even with the condition she was in, she was the most beautiful girl he had ever laid eyes on.

With one last look, he turned around and started to make his way to the door.

"Lucius," a voice called from behind him.

He turned around and saw Narcissa awake, looking at him. He walked back to her and knelled down on his knees.

"Yes?" he said slightly above a whisper.

"Don't go," she said faintly.

She seemed to be in pain, either from him leaving or the pain that the cancer was doing.

"Sleep with me," she said which sounded more like a plea.

Lucius nodded his head and took out his wand. Silently, he moved some of the furniture around. He moved one of the beds next to Narcissa, so that then it looked like it was one. He'll deal with Madam Pomfrey in the morning.

He took off his shoes and climbed into bed with her. Her body was so cold that she was shivering. Narcissa moved her way closer to him and cuddled into his chest. He put his arms around her to warm her up. Narcissa closed her eyes to stop the many tears that were ready to fall as she remembered the conversation that she overheard earlier that night when she pretended to sleep.

"How's Ms. Black doing?" Professor Dumbledore asked as he walked towards her bed. Narcissa pretended to be fast asleep.

"Not so well," Madam Pomfrey said which ended with quiet sobbing. "I don't think she will make it sir. I don't even think she will make it to the morning."

Narcissa heard footsteps walking closer and hushing. She imagined Professor Dumbledore hugging Madam Pomfrey.

"Are you certain?" Professor Dumbledore asked not knowing what to say.

Madam Pomfrey didn't say anything and Narcissa knew that she was nodding her head in response. A few moments later, Narcissa felt a warm hand touch her shoulder.

"Such a lovely girl," he mumbled and walked away. Narcissa heard the door close shut and opened her eyes. Reality had finally hit her.

Narcissa wrapped her arms around Lucius not wanting to let him go. He was the best thing that happened to her and she didn't want to let it go.

Narcissa lifted her trembling hand and scooted herself closer to him. She watched him sleep and smiled. He was so peaceful, undisturbed. She kissed his cheek and closed her eyes. Darkness overfilled her.

~Narcissa's Voice~

Since I was a little girl, I wanted to be perfect. I wanted to be the girl that my parents were proud to have; I wanted to be the prettier, smarter, most liked than my sisters; I wanted to be the girl that every boy wanted to have and to be the girl that girls wanted to have as their best friend; all in all, I wanted to be perfect. The type of perfection, that you can't find a single flaw in. But as time wandered on, I found out that perfection had it's price.

As a little girl, I was naïve to the many expectations that my parents gave me. I just thought that was how my parents showed their affection towards me, calling me out from my sister to show how much better I was. As years went by, I found out that I couldn't be perfect. Everything that I did was never good enough for my parents.

When a teenager first finds out that they have cancer, they go cry to their parents knowing that they would do anything to save their little girls life. When those words came out from the doctor, I feared to go to my parents. I knew that they would just bark at me for being so stupid and say that it was all my fault. They would go on and on, and sooner or later they would disown me like how they did to Andromeda. I didn't want that, after all I was their perfect little girl.

So instead, I ran away from the hospital with no medication what so ever. I didn't take any medications because I told my self, and soon I believed, that I wasn't sick.

For a year I had this mask on, for a year I let everyone think that nothing was wrong with me, for a year I let the pain run through my body, for a year I kept the cancer my little secret.

This cancer took control of me, even letting me think that it was good. That it showed the many flaws that I wouldn't let anyone see. For my whole life people controlled everything that I did and this cancer stopped it. It stopped me from thinking that my life was perfect, it stopped me from the many expectations that I had to make. Now you know why I loved it so much. It let me feel pain, let me know that I was alive and not this perfect doll that I wanted to be.

My cancer was a disease. I realized that when Lucius kissed me for the first time. It messed up my mind. I never wanted it because why would I want to cover up something I wanted so badly?

Lucius saw me for me. He looked beyond the perfect mask I put on. He was there when I needed someone the most, he was there when I was drowning, he was there when I needed someone to love. He was my guardian angel and he forever will be. He set me free from my cursed body when no one else could.