Song - Skinng Love - Birdy

Lovely song, heard it from Vampire Diaries .

Third Person POV

She'd never really been to a funeral before, let alone a grave yard.

Yea so maybe when she was five or something she visited a grave yard once only because her mother was visiting her dead parents, but Clary never really knew them, so she didn't think it counted.

When Jace into the parking lot, Clary had no idea what kind of insane thing influence her to come here in the first place. Maybe it was because she was already insane that maybe being here, she'd feel somewhat normal again.

Her eyes focused on all the grave stones along the hills, her eyes noticing a small path that went around the whole yard.

Jace sat beside her patiently, observing her as she took steady breaths and looking out his front window. He didn't know what made Clary decide to come, because lets be real, she hasn't been very with herself lately, but he's been helping her out.

When she first said that she wanted to see Simon he was set against it. He wouldn't allow it.

It was only because though he though it would be to hard for her, she has so much going on, that visiting her dead best friend shouldn't be added to those problems.

But, after hours of shouting and crying he finally agreed knowing that one day she would have to face this and see him. So he said yes.

Now here they are, sitting in his car.

His hands held the steering wheel firmly as he watched her hands clasp the un-clasp as if contemplating on whether or not she should get out of the car door, or just beg him to turn around and tell him to take her home where she can hide on her bed under the covers and wish the voices away.

But since she's been here, sitting in front of these graves, the voices weren't there, and she felt somewhat better. Almost hopeful.

"If your not ready I can take you back home Clary. You don't have to do this today." Jace said, making her know she had options. That he wasn't forcing her to visit Simon's grave. To be honest, he just wanted to lock his car doors and drive far away out of town with her and never comeback.

"I have to do this." was all she said before opening up her side of the car door open and sliding out carefully.

The cool breeze swept across her face as she started walking on the path that led around the graves, her body slightly cold but otherwise fine.

Her heart was beating rapidly out of her chest as she caught hold of some grave stone that had Simons name on it, but not his last name.

Jace was behind her, watching her carefully as she walked along the path, her arms wrapped protectively around herself as she would tighten her hold whenever there was a slight breeze.

He watched as her body went rigid and stopped in front of a small grave stone with the name of her best friend on it. He watched as she stood there for minutes just starring at it, like she was lost. Then slowly, he watched as she collapsed onto her knees while still holding her arms around herself and stared at the stone blankly.

"I'll give you a few minutes alone." he said softly knowing she had heard him, then turned around when he saw her nod her head once and then he began to walk around hoping that Clary would be okay after all this.

Once Jace was gone Clary's focus was all on the grave stone in front of her. She was now standing over her dead best friends body once again.

She kept reading the words on his grave stone over and over again.

Simon Lewis

1993-2008

Beloved son and friend.

Will forever be missed.

Forever be missed.

Clary's heart tightened reading those words over and over again.

He was dead. He was gone, and he was never coming back. Not to his family, not to his friends…. Not to her.

"I'm so sorry." she choked trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall.

"I'm so sorry I got you killed Simon."

She rested her hand against the cold stone, welcoming the coldness creep into her palm. She traced the letters with her fingers letting her tears fall silently, repeating the words 'sorry' over and over again.

"I don't know what I'm going to do without you." she sighed, wiping away the tears.

"You're my best friend, but now your just gone, and I will never get to see you again."

She knew Jace would be back in a few seconds, but that didn't stop her from wanting to just curl up into a ball in front of Simons stone and just die slowly. She knew Jace would never allow it, and she was glad that he cared about her.

She liked that he was always there for her, and hasn't run away calling her crazy and never talk to her again. He's there for her, and he hasn't left.

He hasn't left.

"I think I love him Simon." Clary mumbles to the grave stone looking down at her hands that were picking nervously at each other.

"I think I might love Jace, and that scares me because what if he leaves me? What if something bad happens that forces him to leave me forever. I don't think I could handle loosing him too. I love him."

She looks at the grave again waiting for Simon to pop out from the ground and start lecturing her on how she was being stupid for worrying, but he didn't. She knew that would never happen.

"He believes in me Si. He hasn't lost hope for me, and I want to get better. I want to be the same Clary I was before just for him." she says smiling softly to herself imagining a normal Clary and Jace together.

"I feel something when I with him that I've never felt before. It scares me, but at the same time it thrills me. I feel so empty when he's not near me, and when he is, I feel hope. Like that there's hope that the old Clary will be back again. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but some day."

She could hear Jace's foot-steps now getting closer, so she knew she had to finish up.

"I'll get better Si, you watch. I'll do it for him and I'll do it for you. I'll live for both of us because you deserve that and so much more."

"Clary?" she heard Jace's voice call her. She looked behind her and saw him standing behind her with his hands tucked into his pants and watching her carefully.

She gives him a small smile, and sees his face light up in shock, but then he smiles back and looks relieved.

"Good-bye Simon. I love you, and forever will. You're my best friend and I will never forget you." she said, standing up and placing a small kiss on the cold stone. Closing her eyes for a second as she let her lips linger on it for a second, picturing that the stone was Simons cheek, and his cheeks going rosy as he blushed at the little kiss. But when she pulled back she knew that it was just his stone.

"I won't forget." she said one last time before turning around and walking over to Jace who was watching her carefully.

She grabbed his hand and looked at him, really looked as he looked at her back.

"I love you." she said softly to him. A small breeze flowing between them as they starred at one another.

"I didn't know if I could ever feel again, but you've made me fall in love with you." she said. Speaking to him more then she'd ever before about her feelings.

"I promise I'll get better. I won't let you down." she said strongly, conviction clear in her voice as she stood tall and confident.

Jace smiled softly, nodding his head and bending down a little to catch her lips with his.

They were soft and gentle, and even though it was just a quick peck, it felt like a million years to her.

"I love you too." he told her sincerely.

Both of them now headed back to the car where he will drive he home, and one day closer to recovery.

He believed she could do it.

She believed she could do it too.