A/N: Honestly I thought I had already posted this, but turns out I didn't sorry you had to wait so long. I understand if some of you have fallen off the wagon and no longer want to read that is your choice. Those of you who still want to... we do appreciate it and hope you enjoy it.
Back at One
Chapter 17
Before Callie knew what was happening she was pinned against the pool wall, Arizona's lips against hers.
It took Callie only half a second to respond twisting the fingers of her right hand in Arizona's wet locks. Arizona gripped Callie by the hips holding tightly. Their mouths moved in sync, their tongues danced a passionate tango. Everything felt perfect. As the kiss slowed down Callie moved back enough to put her forehead against Arizona's.
Arizona relaxed for a moment taking in the fact that she had done it, she had kissed Callie. Then it hit her like a freight train. She had kissed Callie. She had kissed her roommate. She had kissed her best friend.
Callie felt Arizona's hands leave her side as she felt her body move away from her own. Callie leaned back slightly and opened her eyes as the water around her sloshed. Turning her head to follow Arizona, she watched the woman pull herself up on the side of the pool, grab her towel and make a dash for the house all before Callie could even get anything out.
"Arizona!"
Callie's body finally reacted as she herself pulled herself out of the water as quick as she could. Ignoring the towel on the chair, she made a mad dash for the house.
Slididng the glass door open and not even bothering to close it she called out to Arizona hoping the blonde woman would actually answer her. When she heard nothing in return she walked into the living room and was greeted with emptiness.
Callie immediately turned to head up to Arizona's room. Callie's eyes fell on the woman who sat at the top of the stair case with her head in her hands. Callie took her time walking up the steps, calming down immensely now that she had the woman in her sight.
"I realized about the time I hit this spot it was pointless to hide from you in a house we share." Arizona scoffed softly, lifting her head and shaking it. Callie kneeled in front of Arizona trying to meet her eyes.
"Callie…"
"Don't Callie me." Arizona avoided the brunette's eyes still.
"I'm sorry… I didn't even ask. I just… I…"
"Did you want it Arizona?" Callie asked finally meeting the woman's eyes. Arizona opened her mouth to answer but no sound came out. "It is simple. I want to know. Did you want it?" Callie said firmly and Arizona wasn't sure how this would play out, but she couldn't lie to her best friend.
"Yes" Callie removed her hands and backed up slightly. 'This is it' Arizona thought. 'I just lost her.' This time, the surprise feeling definitely belonged to Arizona. Callie, in one swift motion, had pressed her lips to Arizona's for the second kiss was slower, Callie wanted Arizona to feel how much she had wanted It too.
Leaning back to look in Arizona's eyes Callie knew, no matter how much feeling she put in to a kiss, she knew Arizona. She knew she needed to say it. "I want it too." Callie stood up and held her hand out for Arizona to take. She could see the blue eyes shine impossibly brighter in dim house. Arizona placed her hand in Callie's and stood. Before Callie could take more than two steps on the flat surface of the second floor, Arizona had pushed her up against the wall and kissed her again.
Arizona slipped her tongue in to Callie's mouth drawing patterns on the Latina's tongue causing the firey woman to go weak bending her knees, but catching herself before she could fall. Callie's hands were on both sides of Arizona's neck holding her in place while the blonde's were slipping around Callie's bare torso reveling in the feel of the smooth skin she found.
The two women made their way in to Arizona's room, by Callie's lead, not even bothering to break the heated kisses they were sharing. Callie moved her hands down wanting to feel Arizona's body.
"When did you put on a shirt?" Callie asked looking down. "Better yet, when did you put on my shirt?"
"When I came through the kitchen it was hanging on the back of a chair. My towel is in its place." Arizona's eyes met the floor unsure of Callie's reaction.
"Looks much sexier on you." Callie leaned in to husk in Arizona's ear. Callie's hands ventured down to grasp Arizona's ass. Arizona kissed Callie hard, yet again. Callie bent down, hands moving to Arizona's thighs and lifting her in the air. Grinding in to Arizona caused the blonde to inhale sharply, and doing it again while latching her lips onto the blonde's pulse point, elicited a delicious moan that Callie was craving to hear again.
"Callie…" Arizona moaned into the brunette's ear. Placing her hands on Callie's shoulders, she pushed her back slightly. Callie took the time to slide her down carefully and let her catch her balance before meeting her eyes. "I haven't… have you ever…" Arizona whispered between her labored breaths. She was more embarrassed than anything in that moment. She was the one who initiated the whole thing and was now stopping it.
Callie thought for a moment and knew there was only one thing to do. Lifting her finger and placing it under Arizona's chin, lifting she made the beautiful blue eyes meet her own. "Do you trust me?" When Arizona went without answering her, Callie inhaled deeply and took a step back trying to keep the disappointed look off her face.
"I trust you."
Callie took the hand Arizona had just placed on her face and kissed her palm softly. A light smile spread on her face. Callie peppered feather-light kisses up Arizona's arm nudging the sleeve of the shirt up. Moving to Arizona's neck again she pinned the blonde's wrists above her head with one hand and let the other start to play with the hem of Arizona's shirt.
Callie knew she would need for Arizona to feel protected for this to go any further and the only way that would happen would be for her to feel the love Callie feels for her, to feel something she never felt before.
Callie used the hand playing with the hem of Arizona's shirt and wrapped it around her waist turning her to face the wall arms still pinned. Using her free hand, Callie moved Arizona's hair to the left and placed kisses down her neck. Callie slowly lifted the hem of Arizona's shirt bringing it over her head without leaned in to Arizona wrapping her arms around her palms flat against Arizona's stomach, pressing her body flush against the lighter one, loving the feeling of skin on skin contact.
Arizona bends her arms wrapping them behind Callie's head and neck using them to pull her impossibly closer. Arizona lets out another moan as Callie kisses from the base of her neck up to her ear nibbling and sucking on the lobe. "Never, have I ever…" Callie breathes out lowering herself. Kissing every inch of skin slowly and sensually, paying extra attention to the scars, Callie loved the way Arizona's breath hitched every time she swirled her tongue on the exposed skin. When Callie had made it all the way down Arizona's back and was on her knees she turned the blonde woman back around to face her continuing her ministrations at her bikini, feeling especially bold she slipped her tongue under the top of Arizona's bikini bottoms causing the woman's knees to buckle. Callie placed her hands on Arizona's thighs holding her steady while continuing her way back up the toned stomach on display in front of her. Callie kissed, nipped, and sucked her way up through the valley of Arizona's breasts and back to her neck. Bringing her hand up and massaging the breast through the bikini. Arizona hungrily slammed her lips into Callie's.
"You are my first. We can discover this new territory together?" Upon Arizona's moan of approval Callie lifted her once again and carried her across the room to the bed, laying her down softly and sliding in between her legs grinding in to her.
They spent the whole night helping one another familiarize with the other's body. It was pure, it was passionate, and it was not sex. It was making love. Neither women had ever felt anything like what they experienced with each other, nor had they ever felt safer.
Slowly blinking her eyes letting them adjust, Arizona was met with the sight of a slumbering beauty. Callie laid peacefully, lips slightly parted, and breathing rhythmically. Arizona couldn't help but to let a smile grace her face. The previous night made her feel like a new woman. Between the kisses and the tender caresses she knew there was no denying it, she had fallen in love with Calliope Torres.
Her mind raced with the what ifs. What if Callie didn't feel the same way? What if it was a one time thing? What if...
Arizona decided it would be better to just get out of her thoughts. She spared a final look at Callie before extricating herself from the Latina's strong embrace. Shuffling to quietly get dressed, She listened to Callie squirm and turn over before she closed the door silently behind her. On her way down stairs she decided to cook breakfast. Pulling out her ingredients her mind began to wonder. As she cooked and thought about the situation in the forefront of her mind, she knew what would probably help.
Arizona wished she could talk to her family. She had always been a daddy's girl and it had broke his heart as much as it did hers when she cut contact with them. Her marine corps father was a definite hard ass until it came to his little girl, who had him wrapped around his pinky from the day she was born and placed in a tiny pink blanket.
Arizona was so caught up in her thoughts that she didn't hear the brunette come down the stairs or walk up behind her. Arizona jumped as she felt a chin on her shoulder.
"What cha cookin?" Callie's voice in her ear instantly calmed the blonde.
"Pancakes, eggs, bacon, and I cut up some fruit." Callie affectionately leaned her head into Arizona's face. When she pulled back she felt something wet on her forehead. Reaching up and around Arizona's face, she turned her to face her. No other obviously signs of crying were present.
"Were you crying?"
"No.. I just yawned a little hard." When Callie didn't let her face go and continued to peer in her eyes she altered her answer. "I wasn't crying it was a tear. Will you help me find something when we are done eating?"
"Of course"
The two took the time to eat breakfast. The time wasn't awkward, but both girls knew there was a kind of tension. Both felt the need to reach out planning to give a gesture of affection, but neither knew how it would be taken so they simply didn't act on it. Just the same when the other noticed the retracted action nothing was said. After breakfast was cleaned up Callie kept to her word following Arizona up to her room and going to the closet where some boxes of her old stuff was piled up from the other house.
Sitting on the bed and going through the boxes Callie finally asked after just watching. "What are we looking for?"
"Pictures of my family. I wasn't allowed to even keep many, but I hid some."
Callie didn't want to even hear anything further. Callie searched the boxes just as frantically. She wanted to see the smile back on the blonde's face. She knew Arizona didn't talk about her family but from the few times she did Callie could tell how much it all affected her. Reaching into a box, Callie pulled out a small photo album.
"Here you go." Arizona's face lit up at the sight. She flipped it open as soon as her hands were on it. The first picture was a picture of her dad in full uniform just off the plane, back from deployment hugging and lifting a young Arizona off the ground. Callie could see Arizona going off in her own little world and she knew Arizona needed some time to herself.
"I'm going to jump in the shower and get ready. Cristina asked me to meet her at the shooting range today. I think she's having BFF problems with Meredith."
"Thank you, Callie." Callie nodded her response and gave Arizona an awkward half hug.
Callie took her shower and threw on some clothes. She pulled out her phone and called Cristina to make sure Cristina was going to show. Callie went and knocked on Arizona's door frame. "I'm heading out. Are you doing anything today?"
"No, ill be here." Callie smiled wanting to go give the blonde a hug, but she wasn't sure of how it would be taken after last night.
"Torres!" Callie heard Cristina yell as soon as she stepped foot in the cafe.
"Hey Yang" Callie said sliding in to their usual booth. "How have you been?"
"I've been ok, just locking up them hard criminals, ya know?" Cristina asked jokingly puffing her chest out.
"Oh I know, you're a regular hard ass." Callie quipped with a straight face causing them both to share a laugh.
"How are you and blondie?" The blush that flooded Callie's face definitely didn't go unnoticed by the officer in front of her.
"I've been well and Arizona is doing much better. Do you think you could do me a favor?"
"Sure, what's up?"
Callie filled Cristina in on her plan and the smaller brunette made a call, most likely to Meredith.
"Callie, we been friends for a while right?"
"Well yeah." Callie cocked her head at the strange tone coming from Cristina.
"So I'm just going to ask this... What is goin' on with you and blondie?" Callie choked on her food opening her mouth to answer Cristina stopped her. "Please don't insult me by lying."
"Just between me and you? Well and Meredith I'm assuming. I don't even expect you to keep anything from her... I'm falling in love with her. I've never met anyone like her."
"Love? Callie that is a dangerous subject for someone coming out of her situation. Do you really think that is the best of ideas?"
"Yang, if I could have stopped it don't you think I would have? I don't want to put anything on her that would complicate her life anymore."
"Have you told her any of this? Callie have you ever even been with a woman?" Callie let her gaze fall to the floor trying to hide the smile threatening to take over her face. "Oh my... Cal! Tell me everything!" Cristina reached across the table punching her companions shoulder.
"You are worse than a teenager! We kind of... Well did something last night." Callie's tan skin turned light pink.
"How was it? Did you speak the vagina monologues?"
"Cristina Yang!"
"Hey! It's a reasonable question!"
"So you say! Let's just say it was beautiful." Callie let the smile grace her features.
"Beautiful? Such a cop out, I want details!"
"How about we don't and say we did. Would you prefer amazing, hot, fan-fucking-tastic, or totally worth it? Because it was all of those."
Cristina's shrill ringtone sounded through the cafe. Lifting a finger she answered. "Yang... Yeah... Ok..." Cristina pulled out a pen and pulled a napkin over to her. "Did you say 2-8?.. Yeah that's it? You're sure?... Ok thanks so much."
Pushing the napkin over to Callie. She clicked her pen and put it back in the pocket of her uniform. "Now you decide how to proceed."
"Hey, I'm home!" Callie yelled into the house. When she received no answer she looked around a bit. Not finding Arizona upstairs anywhere she went out back. Arizona was sitting with her feet in the water, staring in to space.
It had been three days since they had made love and neither of them had discussed it. They had skirted around the issue while trying to remain normal.
"Hey beautiful, can I sit with you?" Arizona nodded her response. "Are you ok?"
"I think so... Are we ok?"
"Why wouldn't we be ok?" Arizona gave Callie an 'are you serious' look.
"I guess it's time we talked about that." Arizona nodded yet again.
"Was it a mistake?" The blonde finally asked.
"Something that made me feel the way that did could never be a mistake to me. But, I mean, what was it to you? A mistake, a one time thing, something that happened too soon? You can be honest with me... I just... I..."
"Calliope..." Arizona cut her off grabbing her hand and rubbing circles on the back of it. "Can we stop before you start in Spanish? You know I can't understand you." Arizona giggled and bumped her shoulder in to Callie as a playful signal for her to relax.
"But you like when I speak Spanish." Callie winked at the blonde causing her to blush.
"You are correct. To answer your question honestly. It wasn't a mistake. I definitely wanted it and I don't regret it."
"So that leaves us at another question. Was it a one time thing or did it mean something?"
"I don't know how to answer that. I don't want to say something and you agree just because I am or have been broken."
"Arizona Robbins, you are NOT broken. You are strong. You have made great strides. You are your own person. You have even been on dates, ones that didn't end after just one, much to my disappointment. You are absolutely amazing and you need to know that. Anything I say will not be to guard your feelings, I can assure you that. You deserve honesty, above anything else. While we are talking, I will be 100 percent honest with you if you promise to do the same. I don't want you to worry about my feelings."
"I promise, Calliope."
"Ok well, I like you." Callie squeezed Arizona's hand. "I like coming home to you. Whatever that may mean." Callie put her hand on Arizona's face keeping their eyes locked. "I like being able to talk to you. I like cuddling with you and most recently... I really liked being able to kiss you." Callie leaned in hesitating slightly to let Arizona protest, but when she saw no resistance she placed a kiss on her lips.
"I like you too Calliope. I like feeling safe when you hold me. I like being able to come home and tell you how my day went. I like... just spending time with you. I like how you never judge me. But where does this take us?"
"It can take us wherever you want it to. We can remain friends and nothing has to change. We are affectionate anyways. Or we could try being together."
"Well I like and don't like the sound of the same thing... Try... I don't know. I know I can't lose my best friend if something were to go wrong."
"How about we just see where it takes us? No labels no anything, just us doing our own thing."
"I can do that."
"I just have one question for you."
"What would that be?"
"Can I kiss you when I want?" Arizona giggled before leaning in and placing a kiss solidly on Callie's lips. Pulling back she cocked her eyebrow as if to ask 'does that answer your question'. Callie smiled and pulled out her phone when it chimed.
"One more thing. I need you to be ready in 45 minutes. I know we didn't have anything planned, but I invited someone over. Sorry."
"Ok, I'm going to jump in the shower." Arizona pulled her legs up from the water, leaning down to place a kiss on Callie's forehead, and running in the house.
Callie inhaled deeply hoping this would go over well. Callie fixed herself a drink trying to calm her nerves. On the plus side she had worked things out with Arizona, and although it wasn't the perfect scenario it was better than she could have asked for. After some time had passed, Callie heard the door bell ring.
"One moment please!" Callie slowly made her way to the door, taking a final calming breath. She twisted the knob to the door and plastered a smile to her face. Holding her smile she quickly surveyed the two people in the doorway.
"Hi. Colonial Daniel Robbins, you must be Ms Torres."