Author's Note: Once again, the characters will be OOC and once again, i still have no idea where i'm going with this. sorry if it sucks.

After the fight with Fitz, I walked into the bathroom to wash the blood off my knuckles. I'm glad I had his blood on my hands. I wanted him to bleed, I wanted him to hurt...more than I did.

I still couldn't take my mind off the fact that Clare had sex with him. While I was beating him up, all I could picture was him on top of her, her moaning his name...it wasn't right. It should have been me.

Someone came through the door and I looked up from the sink.

"Dude, what the hell is wrong with you?" Adam asked. "Why would you start a fight with Fitz? I thought you two were over your problems?"

"Yeah," I laughed and scrubbed some more blood off. I turned off the sink and grabbed some paper towels. "But we have a new problem. A slutty problem," I snarled the word and didn't feel bad. That is what Saint Clare was, anyway.

"What are you talking about?"

"She's fucking slept with Fitz!" I yelled and slammed the paper towels into the trash.

Adam's face closed in shock. "Wait, she told you that?"

"I wouldn't believe it if I heard it from anyone else,"

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Adam!" I yelled, getting frustrated. "I have all the proof I need. I found an empty condom in her room and when I confronted her, she said she slept with Fitz! What more do you need?"

"I'm just trying to wrap my head around it. I can't believe she would do this,"

"I didn't want to believe it, either," I muttered and stormed out of the bathroom. I smacked right into the person I didn't want to see.

"Sorry," she muffled, her sobs silencing her apology.

"Whatever," I went to walk away from her, but she grabbed my arm.

"Eli, wait! I really am sorry! For everything!"

I yanked my arm out of her grasp and stomped off.

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I put my head in my hands and sobbed. I hated myself for all of this. I didn't know what was wrong with me.

"Clare, you know he has a right to be mad," Adam said behind me.

"I-I know," I sobbed.

"Why did you do it?" he asked.

I shrugged. "I don't know. He wasn't supposed to find out,"

"That doesn't make it okay! Clare, you broke his heart and you slept with the enemy. Literally!" Adam yelled.

This upset me even more. Adam never raised his voice unless his was super pissed. He had every right to be.

"I know," I choked out. "But I just wanted to loose my virginity to someone that was a virgin, too,"

"Are you serious?" Adam scoffed in my face, walking away. Before he fully left the hall, he turned to face me. "You know that's not what this is about, Clare. You should have just owned up to it and broken up with him. We all could see it between you and Fitz, but he blinded himself. You didn't need to cheat,"

I dropped down in front of a locker and cried into my hands.

"Clare, can I talk to you?"

I looked up and glared through my tears. "I have nothing to say to you, Fitz,"

"Please, hear me out,"

author's note: bum bum bum, i guess? reviews?