My First Regret

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I don't know what to do with myself. There was a time when everything in my life was just fine. I'm your average eleventh grade student, attending a performing arts school called Hollywood Arts. I'm aiming at having a career of both acting and modeling. I did pretty well in my classes for the most part. I had a good group of friends that I stuck with and did everything with. Their names are Andre, Cat, Robbie and Tori and they''re awesome people. I'd trust them with my life. And I don't mean to sound vain or arrogant, but I'm pretty good looking. Girls come up to me all the time but I have never gone on a date. The average girl doesn't really do it for me. My life was perfectly normal, nothing extremely complicated.

And then I met her.

Her name was Jade West. She had just transferred to our school a few months ago. At first, she behaved coldly to the other students and as a result, people rejected her and made fun of her. They thought she was weird because she was goth. One day I saw her getting bullied by some guys, so I went over and told them to back off. She thanked me and then we got to talking. After that, I introduced Jade to my friends and she's been hanging out with us ever since. She's actually really smart and funny. She just needed a group of people that accepted her for who she was. I've personally spent a lot of time with Jade on my own. She's not like all the other girls; she's special. She's very attractive but there's so much more to her than that. She has a personality and she has a lot of depth. She writes and draws a lot and she's extremely gifted. I've seen her works and they are almost as stunning as she is. I was also surprised to hear that she's an amazing singer when I overheard an audition she was doing for a play. Jade West had it all. I just couldn't find any fault in her. Sure, she could be a little mean at times and she can still be kind of hard to understand but she's a genuinely caring and talented person. She was perfect.

So why was this perfect girl such a pain in my life?

Because I'm in love with her. And she recently started dating my best friend, Andre Harris. Every day I have to watch them be together. We all have classes together, we eat lunch together and we hang out outside of school together. Every single day, I can't take my eyes off of her when she's with him. Every single day, I can't help but wish that I was in Andre's place, being able to spend time with the girl of my dreams. My head is filled with a rush of emotions whenever I see her now. Not just love but also sorrow, guilt, and anger. But above all else, I felt regret. Why didn't I ask her out when I had the chance? Why couldn't I have just told her how I felt? I hated myself for not acting on my feelings sooner; I hesitated because I didn't want to jeopardize our friendship. Now all I can do is regret it. And as days went on, my regrets would only pile higher and higher until they finally came to a head and changed things forever.

My name is Beck Oliver. And this is my story.

Another idea I thought I'd throw out there. I have a basic idea of where I'm going with this but unlike my other story, I haven't done the writing in advance yet so updates might be slower for now. R&R, hope you like it!