Hey guys. I know I should be updating my other sotrym but I always findlast chapters the hardest to write. So I thought I would do another one-shot. This one-shot is kinda based on my feeling on this guy that I really really like. So I hope you like it :)

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I sit on one side of the comissary, while he sits on the other. I look at the girl sitting next to him, and I look around my empty table, feeling heart ache. She has him wrapped around her satin and lace.

It's not fair how he can let that sit by him, hold his hand, and comfert him, when she is just for show. Pretty as a rose on the outside, but ugly as our lunch on the inside. How he can stand her I don't know.

First off, I can't believe I let myself fall, for such a selfish jerk! But a jerk who can be sweet, careing and generouse at some times...

But I always denied it. I always denied that I liked him. That was until all the fights started, and all the yelling. All the things that give me the adrenaline rush. The thing I look forward to every day. And the whole time, I only found myself falling harder and harder, to the point where I couldn't deny it any more. I didn't just like Chad Dylan Cooper. I loved him. He made me feel like no one else could. And he didn't even know it! I loved everything about him. Especially how his eyes told everything...Something you can't really find in a lot of guys.

But I know how much he loves her...She makes him happy. And miserable. But I know she does not love him. She only uses him like the pathetic piece of trash she is. She can't see what's underneath the act. Ha! She can't? She WON'T! She chooses not to! What kind of person does that to someone they love? Oh, right. She dosn't love him.

They do spend alot of time togeather. And I won't deny the jealousy I feel. I always wondered how it would feel. To have his arm around me. To have his eyes looking into mine, with respect like he does her. It's not fair! And it's all because I'm a Random.

Sometimes I feel like crying everytime he hugs her. Sometimes I feel like sobbing and falling to my knee's when he kisses her, because I know I'm a step further away from showing him how I feel. Sometimes I feel like strangling her when I see her cheating on him in small, dingy closets. He dosn't deserve her. He does not deserve the pain she brings.

When bad things happen to him...I want to be the one to comfert him. I want to be the one-

"Hey Sonny!" My thoughts blasted apart.

"Hey Tawni." I said, feeling my voice catch.

"What's wrong with you? Your all red and look like your gonna cry." I just couldn't stand wacthing them any more.

"Um, yeah. I just got a text from my mom saying that my uncle died. I was really close to him. So I'm gonna go get some air. Okay?" I bolted out of the commisary without hearing a responce. I didn't really care. I ran outside, and climbed the ladder on the back of the studio to the roof.

Here, I could think. Here I could vent. Here...Here I was safe to cry.

I don't even know why, but I am crying over some guy. Something I never, ever do. Something I thought I would never do until I met the love of my life. Well, I guess I have met him.

I wish I could be the one he tells his problems to. I would care, and would help if he needed it. I would do anything (reasonable) for him. I would love him more then his own mother-

Laughter.

My thoughts were interuppted by laughter. I went to the side of the building, got on my knee's, and looked over the edge. Chad and her were in the parking lot.

"I can't live without you Chloe" I heard him say. (I know that some of you despise her, but she reminds me of this girl I hate so I just had to put her in there.) I felt tears brim my eyes, and fall. That should be me.

"Neither can I Chad. I will, and always love you" That brought on angry tears because I knew those were lies.

'If there is by any chance a car chase today, please let it come through Condor Studios so it can hit that abomanation. Like, now!' I silently prayed.

"Hey, Chad I have an amzing idea. Let's go to the roof so we can talk, and...we won't be interuppted." That sentence of her's made me gag. Literally. But, what hurt was that he agreed, and they were starting their way back to the studio. She has him tied around her little finger.

My heart pounded as I realized that if they come up here, they'll find me. Perfect!

I jumped up, and ran to the ladder, and began the decend to the ground. I jumped off the ladder, and made the round to the side of the building. I was just rounding the front, when I bumped into him and her.

"Oh, I-I'm sorry. I wasn't watching where I was going" I said, looking at the ground to hide my face. I didn't want them to know I was crying.

"Yeah, you should be sorry. Next time, it won't be so pretty." The devil herself spoke. I looked up at her and glared.

"You know. Manners is something your supossed to learn before you turn three." I said, never looking away.

"So? Who needs manners when your pretty?" She replied while looking at her pink nails.

"You know what Chloe? Your exactly the type of girl everyone hates. You wanna know why? Because you might be pretty on the outside. You may look decent. But when you open that mouth. Everyone runs the other way because you are ugly! Ugly on the inside, and you don't even care!" I said, begging to become really pissed.

"Now look who has no manners!" Chad said, leaning against the brick wall. I ignored that comment.

" Why were you crying? Because you have an unsuccessful carrer? And you know your time is almost up?" She asked, swaying her hip to the side while placing a perfectly manicured hand on it.

"Now, now Chloe. Play nice. Save some of that energy for the falls." Chad said, but I could see the laughter shining in his eyes. I felt like my heart was going to break into a million pieces.

"You know Chloe. Yes. That is exactly why I'm crying. Now excuse me, I have to get back to my set to rehearse my skit so I can perform on my show" I said, moving around them.

"Look out! Munroe's on a rampage!" I heard Chad yell.

"She get's it from all the cown she hung around with on the farm in cheese town."

I ignored their harsh words, and just kept walking. Once I was out o their sight, I began running. I ran down he strret, and all he way downtown and never stopped.

When I finally reached a small alley, I pushed myself in there, and started crying.

"Why does this have to happen to me! I hate this." I sobbed. I fell to my knees, and laid my head in my lap. I don't know how long I was there, but when I lifted my head, the bright California sun was gone and darkness had taken over. Ironic.

I stood up, and began my journey home. But I knew that no matter what Chad said, I couldn't stop loving him. In a way I was addicted. But I didn't know how he could love someone, who pretend to love him for his fame and money.

But I did know something...

"I can love you better then that, Chad. I can love you better then that."

So what did you think? I needed to write this, because I hate writing in a diary, and I felt the biggest heartach today. I based the story on the guy I like and me. On my feelings. Chloe was based on the girl he loves. Stupid girl. But she is ugly on the inside.

Bellieve me. She can be nice, but if she is, you better run the other way.

Anyway, I will update 'The Band' as soon as I can.

So REVIEW!

~monkey87~