Note: I copied this from my tumblr, I wrote it as a ficlet there but I liked it so I also wanted to post it here. I don't use caps on my tumblr and I couldn't be bothered to go over it and make the caps.

Let's just call it artistic freedom, okay :)

Summary: Rachel and Blaine are sharing an apartment in NYC after uni. Everything is alright and normal. Until one day it isn't

I might update, I might not. It's a two-shot and complete for now. (Of course if I get tons of reviews...*cough, cough* I might feel the need to write more)

something has changed within me

chapter one

the popcorn was ready. the whole apartment was filled with the smell of sweet popped corn, promising the usual calm and peace of the tuesday movie-night.

it was nice to escape the pace and the noise of ever so busy new york city and spread out cozily on the couch just pretending there was only them in the world.

but for the first time since they'd started the tradition, almost a year back to the day, rachel berry felt uneasy. it was her heart. she was sick. she was probably going to have a heart-attack. either that or it was skipping beats because blaine was walking towards her with a bowl of popcorn in hand, smiling and shining like the sun on a cloudless sky.

she'd rather have it be for the first option. simply because she could not be in love with blaine anderson. not like this. back in high school she'd been crushing on him for about a week and a half and it was stupid and meaningless and thankfully it hadn't kept them from becoming friends. and staying friends, even when he and kurt broke up over going to different collages.

they were out of uni for a year now, they'd moved in together, both trying to make it on broadway. she'd been lucky enough to land a part. he was working behind the scenes as an AD. and for a year they'd been living the 'will and grace' dream and she'd never even consider that something would change. but then of course it did.

one day, it was just like an explosion inside of her. and suddenly she loved him and loved him in a different way than she had before. her love for him was now untamed, wild and needy. even more so because he was so close but so so very out of reach. he wasn't interested. in nothing she had to offer. it killed her that something as irrevocable as anatomy and gender would forever keep him from wanting her the way she wanted him. whole and unconditional.

and when he put the popcorn on the table and started the dvd, she snuggled close to him as always. but the whole ninety minutes she prayed that he wouldn't catch on her hummingbird heartbeat.

oOo

blaine anderson loved the movie-tuesdays. he put the bowl on the table, started the dvd and waited for rachel to sprawl over him like she usually did.

he loved the quietness, the comfortable silence, the peace and warmth and how everything felt whole and complete when they lay like this. he felt more at home than ever with his family. over the course of just one short year, rachel had become so much more of a home to him than he had ever anticipated.

if it wasn't for her he would've bailed and ran away from the big city a million times but she kept him strong, she was persistent with him and always encouraging. and proud, so proud.

the tv screen was filled with colourful pictures and the princess looked up, blinked at the prince and then they kissed. blaine felt rachel's hand on his knee, felt how warm she was and how perfectly she fitted on him, how tiny, how delicate...

and right in that moment, something changed within him. something exploded in his chest. he wanted to jump up because it was so imminent. but he couldn't.

he couldn't think, he couldn't process it. he knew with an unbeknown clarity what he felt. he felt exhilarated, like he was in flight. his heart was twice the size and pounded like an 808. he knew what he felt. he loved her, he loved rachel berry.

but not the way he used to. he loved her with greed now. loved her whole, with everything; wanted to hold her, to own her, to mark her his.

but he didn't understand. he didn't feel like this about women. never before had he felt like this ever and if he thought about other women there was nothing to spike his interest.

but rachel. but wonderful, dysfunctional, beautiful, crazy, hopeless, fearless, strong and brave rachel who was so tough but yet so fragile, who needed him just as much as he needed her. who completed him on so many levels.

he'd thought that the love he'd felt for her couldn't have gotten any bigger. but then of course it did and it completely turned everything around.

he felt her shiver on him and glanced down at her. swiftly, he let his hand trail through her pitch black hair and her fingers dug into his knee.

he felt a jolt of electricity shoot through his body and knew in an instant that nothing was ever going to be the same.

oOo

this kind of goes along with the saying 'you don't fall in love with genders but with people'. i know it's ooc because blaine is 100 percent gay and all but...hey...a lone shipper can dream, right.

ps: if there's anybody out there who maybe ships raine too, come say hi. i feel lonely :)