Will you choose me?

A Pokemon Fanfiction

A/N- I'm back in business! It's been so long since I've written something... but this idea's been in my head for a while. School has been a bitch, let me tell you that. I've just been so busy lately, I haven't been able to update anything or write at all. Let me get back into the swing of things with this, and will update my other story, 'kay? :D

This is rated because there is a teeny bit of some sexual themes in this, but it is NOT a lemon. Sorry, but I doubt I'll ever be able to write a lemon until I'm older. D:

Disclaimer: I don't own Pokemon, N, Touya, or anything.

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Touya, why did you fall for me?

There are so many qualities I own, so many that should keep people away from me. My personality on the outside is nothing like my inner me.

I am selfish. I will never share anything with anyone.

I am possessive. When I claim something, it is mine. Nobody else can ever lay claim to the thing I already set my eyes on. You were always that thing for me, ever since I met you. You became my new obsession, like I needed to battle you so I could live. So I could breathe.

Hell, why did I fall for you?You were only an object for me to own. You were my living essence, and without you I would die.

It's different now. You are no longer a collectors item for me. You are my one and only Touya.

You are my opposite. You're kind, selfless, and you share everything with others. You act as if your pain and problems shouldn't be kept in.

I would never dare think that. Nobody would worry about my problems. You heard what Ghetsis said. I was only a tool for him to use. I am still only a warped defective boy that knows nothing but Pokemon. He only made me like that so I could let him rule this planet.

But he doesn't know I still have feelings. Feelings for Pokemon. Feelings for you.

I try to remember things about you. Many things appear in my thoughts, but only certain things about you are extremely special to me. Like...

Your strength. It was so hard to battle you without losing. I don't think I ever won once when I was against you. Not even with Reshiram on my side.

I remember your eyes. They were the color of cocoa. They always gleamed when you were about to win a battle. They were always so bright and filled with determination when I would challenge you, and you have a glare that can kill, did you know?

I remember your smile. Even though you didn't genuinely smile too often, those small little peeks of a real smile that I'd see- I don't know how to describe it. The corners of your lips tugged up for only a second, sometimes you'd even laugh. It was never long enough though for me. When your smile would drop, it would always be too soon.

I remember that one day when we were in Mistralton City. In front of the Pokemon Gym. About what we were talking about, I don't remember, but I do remember how close I got to you that one day. Closer that the day we were in the Ferris Wheel. You're eyes were so huge, curiosity filling them to the brim. Your lips were like little pink seashells.

Oh sweet Arceus, how much did I want you? How much did I want to sweep you up into a kiss and run off with you without knowing that everyone would judge me? How much did I want to run my hands through your hair and just drink in your scent while you laid with me under the stars? How badly did I want to trail kisses down your jaw and nip at your pulse just to feel you shudder underneath me?

There was only one problem with my fantasies, one sure factor that would ensure they would never happen. That problem was Team Plasma.

How could I face my father or Team Plasma if they had figured out I fell in love with the enemy? I wouldn't. I couldn't.

They'd never understand concepts like "Love". They'd only believe that I was joking, and if they thought I was serious, then they would think something is wrong with me. They would do anything in their power to try to show me how I was wrong. I would never be able to deal with that.

That's why I only wanted to battle you. I wouldn't care if you would win, whether we were in the rain or the hail. As long as I got to battle you, I wouldn't care at all. You would always give your signature smirk, and I would have to turn away and flee as fast as I could, because I couldn't stand to be around you for very long after a battle. Something about the atmosphere would change, and my heart would hammer in my chest so rapidly I thought I would pass out.

I wonder if anyone else has experienced that feeling before. I wonder if that's what the emotion of Love does to people. It affects you so harshly that you can only stand to be with that person at a distance. You can fill your dreams with love and lust but as soon as you step forward toward that person, Love shoots you in the heart, you double over in pain, and you have to run.

That's what happened to me, at least. I was never able to be with you for long. I would always have to run, hide, and continue to dream. Continue to dream of my lips brushing against yours as skin brushed against skin- it would be perfect.

Unfortunately, I would never be able to actually do that with you. Never be that intimate with you unless you would really want to be. But I've been gone for five years. Didn't you forget about me yet? If you even do remember me, do you still love me?

Of course you don't. You have Cheren and Bianca to be with. They didn't leave you to go on journeys of their own, to see if they could live without that certain someone.

I was wrong, Touya. I've battled other trainers. Their names I forget, and I will probably never remember those titles. Whenever I've battled them, the battles were empty, not enough to fill the hole that I left behind in the Unova. They were never as thrilling as the battles I would have with you. Never.

I've been to countless other Regions in this world of Pokemon, and I've battled thousands of trainers. None of them are like you, and none will ever be like you.

I have battled trainers with qualities like you though. They share the same kind of bond like you have with your Pokemon. Their names are easier to remember than others. But they're not you.

I- I love you Touya. I've loved you since I first saw you.

Will you take me back?

Whatever decision you choose, my feelings for you won't change, but I'll let you go.

I just have one request.

Can you choose me?