Sorry for the long delay. I had health issues and other personal issues to deal with. This chapter has a very important moment in it. The rest will follow soon. The death of Cory also delayed my writing as it kept seeping into what I was writing and its not part of the plan. Take care my friends and please review. Also will be updating my others :)

Who Do You Love

After playing a couple of hours of COD, Noah is startled out of his semi trance. Agent Thompson is saying something and it isn't about the game.

"You know you need to make a choice of which one you really want to be with." Thompson says without looking away from the screen as Noah falters enough for a kill shot.

"Wha…What are you talking about?" Noah sets the controller down on the bed. A look of confusion is clearly written on the dark face. "What choice?"

"Which guy do you really want to be with." Thompson places his controller on the chest by the bed. "You have two guys down stairs that would die for you but only one of them needs to be that person in your life."

"Finn is my boyfriend. I love him with all my heart." Noah doesn't like where the line of questioning is headed nor does he like the way his own heart feels at the moment.

"Are you sure about that? Cause it seems that Dave takes more liberties than Finn does where you are concerned. He is always in the middle of your business and I know that Finn doesn't like it." Thompson pushes gently.

"He is just trying to help me. Finn understands that I need both of them and Santana too." Noah is squirming under the agent's intent gaze.

"Look kid I know that you need your friends around you, but the one person that you should need more than anyone else is the one that holds your total heart and if that over grown Frankenteen doesn't then you need to tell him before you destroy his heart all the way."

"…" Noah huffs and tries to cross his arms across his chest but the bump stops him. The little one inside kicks gently.

"It is something that you need to think about Noah. Both of the boys downstairs love you. A blind man could sense it. But you need to pick one and to tell the other to back away for a while so that the two of you can have some privacy and intimacy." Thompson sees Noah's expression pale slightly. "I am not talking about making out or sex. But the intimacy between two people, a couple, is something that is not supposed to be shared by anyone else."

Noah relaxes just a bit as the agent tells him he is going downstairs for a few minutes to check on the other agents. The tanned jock knows that Thompson is giving him time to think about what he just said. He simply nods as the older man leaves the room. His little girl gently kicks him again.

"Yeah I know baby girl, I can be a total jerkwad sometimes. I just…I am afraid of the answers to the questions. I know that doesn't make sense to you but…" Noah's mind begins to whirl as jumbled thoughts bounce around inside his brain.

Everything had been so fucked up since the….hell he still couldn't say the simple four letter word without wanting to scream…RAPE..

He had been raped and if he listened to everyone else including his therapist, it wasn't his fault. But he still felt like it was and until he could actually lay blame to the rapist it would always feel like it was his fault.

Finn never blamed him, but he felt like Finn was only there because of it…that if it had never happened to him then Finn would never have admitted to loving him…Finn had been the only person in his life that had been a constant besides his mother and sister..

When Finn had his arms around him the world melted away, the noise stopped inside of his head. He could feel the love and see it too every time he looked Finn in those beautiful eyes. So why did it feel good when Dave held him too…God he was so fucked up….But Dave made him feel safe and protected without the thoughts of 'will he leave me'…Noah just couldn't really return the same feelings.

Noah knew the agent was right that he allowed Dave too much control and way too much influence on him…Yet he was afraid of pushing away someone that made him feel…wanted…He knew that Dave had been secretly crushing on him for a while. He had caught Dave looking at him with those soft eyes…And he never saw repulsion in those eyes either.

But I am not in love with Dave! I don't think I could ever love Dave the way I love Finn. Not completely….

Aw hell maybe I should just send everyone away….All of them, including Finn. They all need a break from the drama I have brought into their lives. But I need all of them. Don't I?

What if I send them all away and they forget about me? What if it makes them angry that I sent them away? Would they still be there for me? Would they turn their backs on me?

Noah looks at the controller on the bed in front of him. He drops his head at the thoughts the young agent cause to roam freely in his mind. The way Finn cared for him after the rape. The way he treated Finn back then….God that makes it seems like it was years ago, when it was just a few months ago. He knows that he has put Finn through the fire and yet the young man stays with him.

He remembers that day in Burt Hummel's kitchen. The weight of the knife, the steel tip of the blade, and most of all the look of complete horror, despair, FEAR. Finn's beautiful green/blue eyes showed more than his words ever could and that caused a physical pain to tear through Noah's heart at the memory.

The look he saw so many times since then when it came to the subject of Dave. Yes he had stuck up for Dave many, many times when Finn wanted to exclude the larger jock in private conversations. The realization hit Noah hard as another pain ripped at his heart.

Oh my God! All those times…All that hurt and the big lug still stays with me!

Noah lays there for a while thinking about what Agent Thompson said about Finn and Dave. He knew that the truth but he didn't want to let go of anyone. He needed each one of them in a different way. Each person gave him strength, courage, and love.

The girls provided him with the nurturing side. The comfort each one gave was never lost on Noah. The soft touches, the gentleness. The loving looks from each gave him hope.

Santana was the mother hen and the rest were minions. If she started off in English and ended in Spanish it wasn't a good sign for anyone in her path. She even threatened him on more than one occasion when he tried to do too much too soon. Yet he saw her loving side every night when she checked in on him before going either home or to her 'own' room in the house. She always kissed his cheek and speaking gently against his skin words of love and encouragement before leaving the room.

Brittany was just Britt Britt. She would tell him stories of her fat tom cat, Lord Tubbington. She would sneak him bottles of juice since he wasn't allowed any junk food or soda. Her mother told her that juice was like a treat because it tasted so sweet. The blonde teen would bring a different stuffed animal each time she went home. He had quite the duck and unicorn collection going in the corner.

Mercedes understood about his beliefs being important. They often had discussions about religion and how Noah wanted the baby to know both worlds. Noah would often say, 'It would be her choice what spiritual beliefs were'. They both believed in the power of prayer and the healing of the soul.

Tina would join in their discussions some days as she was raised by a Buddhist father and a Jewish mother. Her beliefs were blended without causing an uproar in her home life. Noah found he really enjoyed talking with Tina about Gothic stuff like vampires and werewolves as well as religion.

They were always checking on him. They made sure that he was eating, that his homework was finished, Brittany even asked him if he bathed until Satan scolded her in Spanish saying that was Finn's job to handle.

The boys provided the protection and security he needed at this time. Yes he had the finest government agents and the worlds best doctor taking care of him, but it didn't hold a candle to the feeling his friends provided when he was feeling down or upset.

Mike, Sam, and Artie were his gaming buds. If he was having a bad day they would have a tournament to see who could beat the Great Puckasurus but they would end up telling stories from grade school and what was happening in the school. They just hung out with him. No mushy girly crap for them. Brohood was far beyond friendship, it was the ties that would bind them until each one's time is over.

Finn was everything to him yet the doubts were still there in the back of his mind. Always waiting, always rearing their ugly heads. He knew that Finn loved him but at night sometimes when he could hear Finn snoring he still wondered if all of this had never happened would Finn still feel the same way. Would he make his feelings known? Would Finn have beat him to a pulp if he had told him he loved him before any of this had happened? He was so afraid of the answers that he never brought up any of those thoughts, not even to the head doctor.

With Dave there was no fear, only a battle scarred past of turbulence.

Noah had caught Dave watching him one afternoon in the boys locker room. It didn't repulse him. For just a few brief moments Noah fantasized about it being Finn that was watching. He had never cum so hard in his life as he did that afternoon. He felt more embarrassed that he jerked off that quickly than he did about being that bold in the open shower area.

Dave would have reciprocated the feelings without hesitation. He would never have been anything but supportive and loving. They would have been the baddest of the badasses walking down the halls. Yet he still remembered their rocky past as well but even then there was something underlying all the teen angst.

If anyone had ever kept a scorecard in the many fights that were started from Kindergarten to last year they would have seen a pattern in their fights and individual styles. They would try and beat the total shit out of each other one on one. Yet in all of this animosity they still had each other's back in a free for all. It was almost as if it was okay to fight between themselves but outsiders were not welcomed in their brawls.

Noah knew he could love Dave the same way the over sized jock loved him, it would take time but it was there. But he loved Finn. It felt natural. He don't have to try to make it happen.

Even back then he knew who he loved but the question that still haunts his heart, he knew he had to answer once and for all. He didn't realize the tears that were running down his face until he heard Finn yell for the doctor.

"Wha…Finn what's wrong?"

"Noah, babe, don't worry the doctor will be here soon. Where are you hurting?" Finn wipes the tears from the cinnamon cheeks.

"I'm alright. I'm not hurting cause of the baby." Noah looks away from Finn. He's still not ready to hear the answers. "It's my heart."

"Noah you're starting to scare me. Please look at me and tell me what is wrong." Finn places both of his hands on either cheek trying to turn his boyfriend's face towards his own.

"I just…I hate these damn hormones! I don't want to do this right now but I have to know! Finn I HAVE TO KNOW!" Noah practically yells at the love of his life.

"Noah you need to calm down baby. I don't know what's going on, but you need to calm down!" Finn tries to be forceful at the end of his plea. As he stands to go grab Dr. Barnes Noah clings to his hand.

"Finn I want to go see the shrink, I need to talk to her and to you. To both of you. I want her to be there." Dark hazel eyes stare pleading in to a sea of green, the dark storm brewing could be seen even if Finn was blind as a bat.

"Baby what is wrong? Please Noah talk to me." Finn holds Noah's hand.

"Finn I want no I need to see the shrink. Please call her and see if we can both come in. I need this Finn. I NEED THIS!" Tears were falling again down dusky cheeks dripping off on to the dark blue tee.

Finn fumbles with his jean pocket for his phone when Dr. Barnes walks into the room talking on his cell phone.

"Yes Dr. Crompton I think it is necessary. Good I will see you in twenty minutes." The good doctor closes his phone and looks at the angst ridden teens.

"Agent Thompson told me about the conversation the two of you had Noah so I called your 'shrink' and asked that she come here instead of trying to take you out today." The wizard of medicine spoke directly to Noah. "I know that being a teenager is hard, difficult even, but being a pregnant teen makes everything twice as hard. You have hormones that are raging through your body causing your brain to overload which causes you to be a crying mess at times. So I am going to clear the house when Cheryl gets here so that the TWO of you can have privacy and intimacy." There is a small smile and a slight wink from the pistol packing doc as he exit's the room.

Finn stares after the doctor wondering what episode of whatever soap opera he just woke up in the middle of. The cloud of confusion slowly dissipates as he realizes the baby is okay but Noah's not. Something is wrong with Noah, the thought scares Finn. He knows the last couple of sessions with the shrink were difficult for his boyfriend and to be honest it had been really hard for him too.

"Babe, just let me hold you until the head doc gets here." He gently shushes Noah as he goes to speak. "Shhh….Just wait until she gets here. It will be alright, Noe. Everything is going to be all right."

The lanky teen stretches out beside Noah cradling the pregnant teen as best he could since the dark jock was trying to crawl into his lap. Finn closes his eyes letting his mind comprehend what was going to happen in just under thirty minutes.

The last session with Dr. Cheryl had caused Finn to disappear for a couple of hours that day. Finally admitting that he had been in love with Noah since they started middle school. The fear, the revulsion, the inescapable love he felt for the man in his arms. His love for Noah had caused him to almost be a total homophobe.

Yeah he accepted Kurt, but only on the surface. He could not completely accept the only openly gay kid at school. Kurt was out and proud. That type of courage was not something that Finn possessed and didn't think he would until he accepted that he loved another man.

And yeah he still had doubts about this whole thing. Wouldn't you? I mean….He's having a baby and I agreed to raise her as mine. We live in a town that will rip us apart when we go public and we will have to as soon as the baby is born. Our only other option is to move away. And that means giving up our family or friends. Everything that we have every known is in this town. Our support system is here.

Yet holding Noe like this all of that disappears. In my arms is the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. The way his dark eyes sparkle when he is happy or about to do something one of us will regret later. When we kiss the world melts away to just the two of us, unless Dave is there.

The guy is okay. Under different circumstances….Naw, even if I just met him on the sidewalk I still don't think I would like him or want him as a friend. He barges in to our room whenever he feels like it. He always has an answer for everything. And and…..Okay I am so jealous of what they have between them. It's like Noah cant say no to the jerk.

I just want to be able to hold him. To cuddle. Yes I said cuddle. Just me and him. Me stealing kisses from those pouty lips. Feeling his body against mine, baby bump and all. Planning our not so bright future. But that never seems to happen cause Dave seems to be able to sense when we are trying to be alone. I just want to scream, to say get the fuck out of our lives for just a little while.

Finn is brought out of his thoughts by the knocking on their door, "Finn, Noah Cheryl is here" Agent Hightower calls gently through the door, "me and Thompson are going to be outside on the front porch and Dr. Barnes, Mr. Hummel will be on the back porch if you need anything".

After a couple minutes a softer tapping is heard by both teens as the door gently opens to Dr. Crompton's soft voice announces her presence in the room.

Next chapter will be up soon. HEmmy