AN- Hiatus, Is over... Recently I had suffered personal issues and I'm getting through it, so thank you lovely folks for being patient xoxo ... Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad or whatever ... enjoy :) Hope you like it.

Chapter- Guilty Hearts ... for guilty love.

After her night with Klaus and what they did repeatedly she needed to talk with her very best friend the one who will understand the most and the impending conversation she has to have with Jeremy- she just needs an outlet for what's about to go down.

"I really need to talk someone, and I really need that someone to be you!" Bonnie says frantically. Caroline could hear it in the young witches voice that she was freaking out about something.

"I'll be right there."

"The door will be open just come straight in,"

30 minutes later and Caroline heads straight up to Bonnie's room.

"Bonnie . . ." The blond called out. Bonnie took a big gulp and exhaled. "In here."

Bonnie called from inside her walk in closet. "What are you doing in there, Bon?"

"Thinking."

"Inside the closet?" The bubbly blond tried no to laugh, "It helps."

"You want to come out so we can talk?" She spoke to the witch as if she were child she was babysitting.

"Not really, I rather talk from in here." She says all innocent.

Caroline chuckled. "Okay, whatever's good for you sweetie,"

Bonnie sits there all jittery and nervous, "What am about to tell you, it can never be repeated outside of this room." She paused. "And you cannot judge me okay."

"What's going on? You're starting to freak me out!"

"I slept with Klaus," Bonnie blurts out, breathing relived that she finally said it.

Caroline mouth drops as she hops in the closet. "Wha-yo-And him, did . . . Ew, I just- you and him." Caroline seems more freaked out then Bonnie does. Bonnie waits for her to form coherent thoughts. "When, Where? How? I mean, I know how but . . . When?

"In his car and twice in here." She shrugged.

Caroline backs out of the closet, "Gross," She makes a face shivering. Collecting her thoughts she's rather curious about how Bonnie fell prey to such deviousness.

"Not that he isn't a total sociopath and I don't approve of him, At all. I'm slightly intrigued, How was it?" Her eyes get slightly larger with the question, laid out in front of Bonnie.

Bonnie's mouth is sprung open for a moment as she considers going into detail about the smutty sex she had with the big bad vampire, "It was wrong, but it was -it was heavenly, I mean divine . . . There was this heat shared between us, it was sweaty and very intense." Bonnie's eyes roll in the back of her head and her stomach flutters just thinking about it.

Caroline fans herself mouth open. "Wow!" she says amazed.

"But it was wrong , what I feel for him is wrong and unnatural and just wrong, I don't know what's wrong with me…"

"Okay, first stop saying "wrong" second who are you trying to convince me or yourself, Bonnie there is obviously something albeit a tad weird going on between you and Klaus you know him better than any of us, so it's your choice, don't let any of us influence your decision."

"I knew I had could count on you to understand."

" Miss Bennett, I do know you pretty damn well." Caroline smiles as the petite witch throws her around the blonde bombshell neck. "Yes. You do, plus this is new territory for me."

Caroline tilts her head to look Bonnie straight in those lovely green eyes, Caroline thought most days she could lost in them.

"You have me and I'll help you . . . No matter what." The blonde gives her friend a reassuring nod.

"If nobodies told you lately you're amazing and don't you ever forget it."

Caroline pulls Bonnie closer, "As long as you keep telling me I won't."

"I think we can get out of the closet now," Bonnie says with a huge smile sprawled on her face.

Bonnie and Caroline fall backwards out of closet laughing laying twisted up in each-other.

"So, the football team is having this thing at the grill tonight to celebrate our return to school, wanna be my date?" The blonde asks cheekily.

Bonnie giggles, "Of course, but what about Matt?"

"He and Tyler are setting this whole thing up together."

"Oh!" She shrugs, thinking about the awkwardness of the Tyler, Caroline and Matt Saga, strangely familiar except Jeremy and Klaus aren't best friends.

"What kind of "oh" is that?" Caroline flops up on her elbow to look at Bonnie.

Bonnie stands up quickly, "It was just an oh…"

"Liar."

"Prove it." Bonnie runs from the room and Caroline chases after her.

Caroline leaves to give Bonnie sometime to reflect what's best for her life and that's what she's going to do.

and Caroline also went to do other girly things such get her nails did and grab a bite with Elena to no doubt hear the troubles of yet another friend but for some odd reason the bubbly blonde looked forward to these discussions although Elena's tells aren't nearly as unexpected or entertaining as Bonnie's- It's whatever because it takes the pressure off of her so she can live happily in denial about Matt and Tyler for a little while longer.

Bonnie throw herself across the bed and thought of the moments she and Klaus had shared in here on this bed. Her body running with heated passion- An effortless seduction between her and Klaus, they were to powerful forces who'd come together she loved that she had shared herself with him; in her thoughts is where she feels the most comfortable with her enchantment with Klaus.

She felt this heat rise up in her center and she felt the urge to satisfy it.

Bonnie sighed as her hands wondered unsure of what to do she opened her eyes as Jeremy cleared his throat. Bonnie looks startled for a moment. "Jeremy!"

He smiles cheekily at her, "Pleasant thoughts. I could only hope they were of me, " He stared for a moment looking at her erect nipples. He could feel the pulse of his cock harden looking at her.

Bonnie furrows her brow embarrassed although she had gone the extra mile with Klaus and then some she still wasn't comfortable talking about it. Especially with Jeremy whom she wasn't thinking about.

Jeremy made his way slowly towards the bed. He kissed her suddenly Bonnie wasn't prepared for the sudden crash of his lips into hers, as he tries to lay her down.

"Stop." She pushes him back.

"Why, what's wrong . . . I saw you." Jeremy whispers in her ear, kissing her neck. "I know but I can't."

"It's okay Bonnie, I have protection!"

"So do I ! but that's not the point," She quipped back like it was second nature for her to have condoms laying around somewhere encase the urge ever strikes her.

Jeremy exhales exhausted throwing up his hands in defeat. " What is the point? Because I sure as hell don't know."

Bonnie looks at him annoyed but she understands his frustration. Bonnie took a deep breath and held it for a moment but it was time to face the music and answer for what she has done, she has trashed their relationship not once but twice, A kiss he could understand but her sleeping with Klaus; that was not understandable. NOT ..

"You know what, forgive me. it's okay you're not ready, no pressure, I'm sorry." He pouted all cutesy at her.

"You don't have to apologize, I'm the one that's sorry."

Jeremy leaned forward and kisses her shoulder blade, he looks at her sad expression. "Hey, what's wrong? If I said or did something, I'm sorry… I was being a jerk."

"Stop. Just. Stop." She holds back the tears threatening to escape at any moment.

She didn't look at him or speak . . . So he started. "I have something -"

"I have to tell you something." She interrupted quickly.

Jeremy waved his hand interrupting her now, "It can wait, I have something planned for you, you're gonna love this and you deserve it."

He just keeps talking and talking and she needs to say this now before she loses all the courage she has. She knows she's about to break his heart and hers into a million pieces, she's prepared to see him turn his back on her, she's prepared to see her door slam in her face as he leaves her on the floor wallowing in a fist full of tears, because she'll deserve it, she'll deserve it, she betrayed him and she'll deserve his hatred.

Finally, she can't take it anymore.

"I slept with Klaus." she blurts.

He looks at her stunned. "What?" His voice cracks in disbelief.

"I slept with Klaus." Bonnie says it again, this time barely above a whisper.

Jeremy's face flashes like fifty different emotions, he lunges for her quickly and then he turns away punching the wall multiple-times.

"Why?" Is the only thing he could say.

"What does it matter?"

"It matters!" He yells.

"It just happened, it wasn't something that was planned."

Jeremy looks at her seething, he was pale like someone had drained all the blood from his body. She had never seen him look like this before. This wasn't the Jeremy she knew; she didn't know the Jeremy that looked back at her, in this moment.

"Do you have feelings for him? Do you love him?" He expelled the air from his lungs quickly.

"Yes and I don't know." She couldn't confirm nor deny her love for Klaus.

"Do you love me?"

"Of course, I do." She says without hesitation.

"I need you to be very sure Bonnie, because there's a difference between loving me and being in love with me."

"I love you Jeremy, I' am in love . . . With you." She says pulling him into her arms holding him tightly, squeezing for him to embrace her back.

"Okay, we can get passed this, I love you." Jeremy held her to him tightly.

"I love you too." She sobbed lightly into his chest.

She loved him she really did, she felt it inside her, he was good to her, he was sweet, kind and loving , he accepted her, he needed her, he had already lost enough people she wouldn't be responsible for causing anymore pain in his young life. She couldn't be responsible for breaking him, her leaving him would surely break him.

But was she truly honestly still in love with.

Bonnie couldn't see the look of guilt ease from Jeremy's face, the ghost whisper had a secret of his own that he was keeping tight-lipped about; Anna had visited him one night without Vicki, the very night Dmitri had kidnapped Bonnie- Jeremy had been drinking and was feeling very, very, vulnerable and he loved Anna she made him feel better. And he regretted it- the moments after it happened. But he had been in love with Anna and she was their and he could touch her and if he were honest he'd allow himself to admit he was still in love with her. But Bonnie was here and alive- But he couldn't let go of Anna and Bonnie could never have with him what Anna had.

But Jeremy has become selfish in nature because he also didn't want to lose Bonnie even if he's noticed the way her feelings have slowly started to shift towards Klaus, but he's not man enough to let go and lose another love.

And Bonnie should wonder why , he's so willing to forgive such a huge betrayal.

"I'm gonna go clean myself up." Bonnie wiped the tears from her eyes. While she's in the bathroom; Jeremy steals Klaus's number from her phone. "Bonnie, I'll see you later." Jeremy yells as he leaves in a hurry; more like bat out of hell.

Bonnie stands by her bed looking at her phone, "But-" Trailing off because she's alone, she looks suspiciously at the screen of phone once more. Suddenly she dreaded going out but she was relived that Jeremy knew, but now she had to get ready for her "Date" with Caroline.

And just be happy that some of the crazy in her life was coming to light.

Jeremy knows that Klaus will come, he knows that for sure, because he wouldn't stay away from anything that involved Bonnie.

"What's- it's- face …I should have known." He says in a bored fashion."The name's Jeremy."

"And I care because?" He said dismissively.

"Because I know about you and Bonnie." Jeremy says it in a haughty manner, like some how he had the upper hand on Klaus.

Klaus smirks. "Good, so she can stop pretending that she still loves you and just move on with me, without hurting your delicate feelings." Klaus waved his hand for drink.

Jeremy scoffed delighted.

"She's never going to love you, you're nothing but a mistake." Jeremy squares his shoulder, challenging the sociopath vampire. He sees that primal look in his eyes, he recognizes it -knows it well, hell he's being on the end of this look one too many times in his lifetime and yet here he stands ; it's like staring down the barrel of shotgun just waiting for the trigger to be pulled.

"Go ahead kill me. Because that's what you do, it's who you are. I see it! " Jeremy taunts him boldly.

Klaus steps towards Jeremy slowly. "You'd love that wouldn't you, if I kill you then she'd hate me and I'd lose her." Jeremy doesn't deny or confirm. He just wants answers.

"Why her? Why my Bonnie?"

Klaus looks long and hard at young Mr. Gilbert, "Why, I imagine it's probably the same reasons why you want her, why you love her."

"You have no idea why I love her." Jeremy wants to rip Klaus a new ass for thinking he had any idea about his love for Bonnie.

"I have some idea …" Klaus trailed off as he walks over to the men's room he felt this heated hate seething threatening to burst through him.

Jeremy followed quickly nagging at him with that question.

"You didn't answer my question, why do you want Bonnie?" Jeremy says forcibly.

"I figured, if someone like her could love someone like me … than I'd better be worth it and she makes me want to be worth it." He shrugs confident with the answer and he hopes that Bonnie feels the same for him- not that he would want her going around ripping peoples throats out or anything to be suitable for him.

"Well, she doesn't love you… the one thing about love is that it's never unsure and when I asked if she loved you, if she had feelings for you. She was unsure but when I asked if she loved me she was sure." Jeremy gloats smugly at Klaus. Who cringes at the thought and In the blink of an eye Jeremy's lifeless body hit's the ground and Klaus walks away slowly. Well, I guess he didn't like what Jeremy had to say.

Jeremy wakes up gasping for air, stunned to be hovered over by Matt; he was on the couch in the employees lounge of the Mystic grill. "What the hell happened ?" Matt asks panicked. Jeremy looks around collecting his bearings.

"Klaus. He killed me." Jeremy still struggling to catch his breath. He looks down at the Gilbert ring.

Surprised he still had it.

Matt looks around as if Klaus were going to swoop in at any moment and finish what he started. "I'll call Bonnie,"

"No. Leave her out of this," Boy wonder grabs the phone from Mr. Perfect which is what Jeremy liked to call Matt.

"Dude, Klaus just killed you." Matt rises his brow wondering why The hunted boy wouldn't want him to say anything to Bonnie.

Jeremy lets all of this register deciding what his next move will be. "Look, right now all I need is a Tylenol, dying a is a bitch! and coming back really sucks." Jeremy coughs once more his throat felt a bit sore.

"Unbearable headaches." Matt states nonchalantly.

"Like you wouldn't believe." Jeremy chuckles lightly. "So, I can take you off the list of people attending the party tonight."

Jeremy just shrugs as Matt helps him up.

Elena had come with Stefan and Damon which had become quite the awkward situation. But no one talks about that fucking mess which goes to far back for anybody to really give a damn about yet another Salvatore triangle with fickle girls who'll never make-up their damn minds.

Caroline stays close to Bonnie all night giving smiles and cheers to both the special guys in her life, which was a first because Caroline was never the one chosen as someone's first choice, guys didn't fight over her -they fought over Elena- not her.

And Bonnie, well she was happy that her personal entanglements weren't here. No Jeremy. No Klaus. Just her and her lady Caroline dancing it up and down the Mystic grill floors and this was what she had been missing for mouths this was what she needed in her life.

Pure and simple FUN.

To bad it couldn't last!

"Hello everyone, it's fantastic to see you all again," Klaus looked around at them smiling. As he politely took a seat on a bar stool.

Bonnie spites her drink on Caroline, who was expecting that kind of reaction, she just wasn't expecting it to be directed her way. "I' am so sorry," Bonnie starts to wipe Caroline off. "It's okay." The blond says with her eyes closed.

"What the hell is he doing here?" Damon demands.

"I couldn't tell you, if I wanted too." Alaric says all resigned.

"This is that awkward moment, when you just wish you could just drop dead." Bonnie says nodding frantically at Caroline, who was in total agreement.

Well things didn't go well after Klaus showed up at the Mystic grill; Damon tries to kill Klaus but he nearly breaks Damon's pretty face on the bar… Stefan does the dubious thing and tries to help his brother but he can't muster up the effort when he sees Elena care for Damon so tentatively . . . One chaotic situation leads to another until they are all thrown out of Mystic grill.

The nights moon shinned brightly through the open window of Bonnie's darkened room as she waited for Klaus to make an appearance like he always does.

"What were you thinking coming there tonight?"

"I wasn't! just wanted to see you." He sounds like an innocent child who doesn't know that they did anything wrong.

Bonnie sighed defeated looking at those cunning baby blues that sparkled so nicely in the moonlight. Bonnie knows her heart and she knows what she wants but what kind of life would Klaus have with her- it goes against everything that he is to be with someone like her.

But now it's time to let go and be normal again. She has to give Klaus up for his own good.

"What's wrong?" He kneels down in front of her.

"Were wrong." She says simply looking at the center of empty palms.

He stands suddenly. As this scowl appears across his brow.

"I told Jeremy that I slept with you and he's willing to forgive me and he want's us to move on." She holds herself as she says this.

He makes a strange sound under his breath as he swayed effortlessly a little but Bonnie didn't speak, she just watched the impact of her words wash over him. And then as his eyes made their way back towards her; that murderous grimace appears she's seen it one to many times and it cuts through her like sharp knives.

"Is that what you really want?"

"Yes. And it should be what you want to… you need to leave mystic falls, you need to leave me… we don't fit together, you're a killer, I'm not, you want to kill my friends and I'll never let that happen…everything that you think Is right about us, it's just twisted and sick… we need to stop this, So you need to go."

Bonnie eyes nearly betray her. As Klaus steps closer to her invading her space he pointed his index- finger in her face.

"I' am not gonna let you get rid of me. Do you hear me Bonnie Bennett. You're not getting rid of me." He says with his eyes burning with determination.

Klaus turns his back to her, he wasn't sure how to handle the flush of emotion hitting him right now, he didn't think he could feel something so deeply in his core, he was feeling the sharp sting of his humanity.

She looks sympathetically at him. "But we can never really be together, this will never work." She places her hand on his back. "Because you won't let it!" He yells turning to face her. "Don't you see, you're saving me dammit, because your worth it to me. I don't won't to be alone anymore, so you're not getting rid of me."

Klaus parched himself on his knees in front of her closing his eyes, he run his hands down her thighs squeezing her to him tightly….

Bonnie realizes what lead him to the Mystic grill and to her home tonight.

Five hours earlier…

After Klaus so mercilessly snapped Jeremy's neck, he soot out the one person in the world he truly needed.

"So, a party?" He holds up a tight little black dress, licking his lips. He smiled fruitfully as he watches her hold things up to her small but curvaceous figure, he was elated by the simplest things she does.

"What?"

"Nothing." He said with a shrug. "You look like you have something on your mind,"

Klaus swallows because he's about to step into the forbidden territory; Her friends and Damon.

"…What are your friends going to say when they see us together?"

"They will never see us together, because there is no us." Bonnie scrunched her nose up dismissing the idea of them going public.

"And why not?"

"Um, how do I put this … you killed Elena-"

"She came back." he interrupted quickly.

"You killed Jenna," Bonnie shakes her head somberly.

"She was an unfortunate mistake . . ." He says with a bit of sadness.

"Oh!, that may be but everyone hates you."

"But I thought-"

Bonnie through her hands up, "No. I told you that sleeping with you was a mistake." She says with the emotional capability of a rock.

"A mistake! Once is mistake, three times is a choice." Klaus gets off the bed putting on his jacket Bonnie pulls her eyes away from his glare, damn that merciless glare.

"This isn't real," She states nonchalant.

He flashed in front of her, his eyes burning, he doesn't care for her tone and the callous way she's trying to make what they have seem obsolete "Oh it's real, because you can't deny what you feel, you can't fake the moans or the way you whisper my name when I'm inside you . . ." His eyes trailed over her like water taking in every beautiful thing about her.

Bonnie doesn't say anything because she's lying to herself about everything, and she wonders when she became this person. " And if you haven't noticed you're the realest thing I know."

Klaus crowns her face with both his hands but Bonnie pulls them down from her face.

"This has to end . . . Us together will never work,"

"Tell me why?" He puts his hands back; this time at the nape of her neck.

"Because of you, what kind of life would we have Klaus, honestly?" She feels this need in her for him to make this situation acceptable for them.

Klaus looks lost because he doesn't have the answers she wants, he can't make this better for her-or more acceptable.

"That's what I thought." Bonnie pulls his hands from her face, "Let yourself out."

And she turned and walked away from the handsome vampire…. But now here he was laying with her his head in her lap….

"Bonnie?"

"Yeah." She cranes her head to look down on him.

"I don't think selfishly anymore, I don't just worry about what's best for me, I think about what's best for you I care about your feelings more than my own . . . I want to be better for you and for myself . . . I also know that it's foolish to believe that I can change because I really haven't shown that I can, but I'm trying. I want to be worth it for you and myself, I'd do anything for you." Klaus kisses her thighs and Bonnie just caresses his head lovingly... she doesn't have the proper words for him right now.