A/N: So, this is my return to fanfiction. It's sure been a long time. I won't make excuses, but I posted a letter to the readers as the chapter previous to this one. It kind of explains everything but not very well. I'm kind of rusty and I've changed a lot since I was writing the last chapters, but I'm gonna try to pick up where we left off and see where this goes.
This is going to be another lyrical chapter, probably containing 3 songs. One for each of our characters involved at the moment; Jesse, Rachel, and Finn. I hope I don't mess this up. fingers crossed* Chapter 18, ladies and gents.
Rachel sat holding Jesse's hand in the hospital waiting room, while a doctor looked over Finn. Normally she would have been frantic with worry, but she felt Finn got what he deserved. It could have been much worse.
Jesse was slightly more nervous than usual. He was afraid that he might have actually hurt Finn, which was not his intention. He had meant to rough him up just a bit and show him that he wasn't scared of him. He didn't mean to knock the guy out. He just wanted to knock him down a peg or two.
If he was being honest with himself, he wasn't really concerned for the boy well being. He was more concerned that Finn or his family would press charges.
"Jesse." Rachel said. "I need to ask you a favor."
"Anything." he replied.
"I don't think Finn's mother has been called, and I don't think he will be allowed to drive home. Would you please give him and I a ride back to his truck and I'll drive him home? Its the least we could do after you clocked him." Rachel looked at Jesse with her puppy dog pout.
"I don't like the idea of you being in a car alone with him." said Jesse.
After what seemed like an hour of pleading Jesse gave in.
"FINE, fine. But if anything, and I mean anything happens, you let me know. I'll have my phone close by. If anything does happen, pull over and get away from him if you can. Text me and I'll be there in a second."
Rachel nodded in agreement. After a few awkward moments of silence the doctor came into the waiting room. He said that Finn didn't have a concussion but he would need to rest and that he would be a little sick to his stomach. As Rachel had predicted he was not suppose to drive. Finn was released to them and when Rachel told Finn about their plan both of the boy groaned and huffed with not wanting to be close to each other. At all.
Jesse eyed Finn in his rear view mirror the whole way back to McKinley. Seems fine to me. Let the bastard drive. Jesse thought. This'll be good.
Jesse reached over with one hand and grasped Rachel's hand. He rubbed circles on her hand with his thumb while they sang love songs in perfect harmony.
It made Finn sick to his stomach to watch the "two lovebirds", or maybe that was just from being knocked out cold by the vulture himself. Finn met Jesse's eyes in the rear view mirror and he did not like the look Jesse was giving him.
Finn didn't care however. He was going to use this opportunity to get Rachel back.
As Rachel drove him home in his truck he rummaged through the glove compartment until he found his favorite mix cd.
"Rachel, why are you with Jesse?" he began.
"Because I love him." She replied never taking her eyes off the road.
"But you always said you loved me." he pressed.
Rachel thought for a moment before she spoke. "Finn, the love I had for you was a blind one. It was an unhappy one. This love I have with Jesse is different. Its a wonderful love. One that makes me feel good and warm. Jesse is home to me. No offense, but my relationship with you didn't feel like home. It felt like the gym. It was a lot of work."
Finn was not impressed. "So do you wish you had never gone out with me?"
Rachel squirmed in her seat. "Well..not exactly..."
"You do! You wish you and I had never dated! I can't believe this. After all that crap you did just to get me you regret it." Finn fumed. "You wanted to mean something to me but now you wish that you meant something to somebody else."
Rachel fell silent as the music began. She did not like where this was going.
So now you're running, it's hard to see clearly Sometimes I wonder, why I'm still waiting Can you help me understand?
When I make you angry, you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming, so can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly, but I am still here
Sometimes I'm shaking, that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
Rachel stared blankly ahead of her, not wanting to meet Finn's eyes.
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
(something to somebody else)
(something to somebody else)
Finn looked out of his window as he sang. She wouldn't look at him but he hoped his words were getting through.
You look at me through clouded eyes, Can you help me understand?
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars;
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind,
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy
Rachel could feel Finn's eyes boring into her face. Finn reached over and placed his hand on her shoulder for emphasis.
And now you wish that you meant something You know I would wait forever You know I would wait forever And now you wish that you meant something And I'm the one that should mean something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)
Yes, I would wait
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else
Silence filled the cabin as the CD was ejected and Rachel placed it on the dash. Finn looked at Rachel waiting for some kind of reaction from her. Instead he was met with silence and a cold shoulder.
They had arrived at Finn's house and Jesse was no where to be seen. The lights were off in the house. Rachel debated in her head whether to leave Finn alone or not. Eventually she decided that she would make sure he got in safely and he had everything he needed before she left.
After that its not my responsibility what he does. She thought.
Rachel walked Finn to his door and unlocked it, but instead of handing him his keys she walked into the house and started up the stairs.
"Where are you going?" he called.
"To your room." she answered.
Finn wasn't about to argue with having Rachel in his room so he followed her quietly up the stairs. Upon entering the room he saw her standing beside the bed holding a t-shirt and a pair of shorts.
"You staying the night?" he asked.
She shot him a look and said "No change your clothes and get into bed. I'm going to get you water and some aspirin for your head.
Finn changed in the bathroom. When he made his way back to his room he found his bed made, a glass of water and some aspirin on his bedside table, and the remote lying on the bed.
"Will you be needing anything else?" she asked.
Finn shook his head and climbed into bed, while Rachel tucked him in. He would have been embarrassed if his head hadn't hurt so bad.
"Ok well if you're all settled, I'll be on my way." she stated heading for the door.
"Rach, was it really so bad being with me that you can't even stand to be around me for 10 minutes?"
Rachel stopped and turned around. "Finn you never treated me like your equal. You know I don't think you were happy with me either. If we were happy I wouldn't have worried that you liked other girls. If I was happy maybe I wouldn't have started talking to Jesse again."
"Are you saying that its my fault that you left me?" he replied.
"No. What I'm saying is that if we were happy together we wouldn't have had as many problems as we did."
"What was so awful about being with me?" he asked.
"It wasn't...I just...but you...and we...UGH" she gave up trying to find the words and opened his laptop which she had placed close to his bed. "I don't have the words to tell you but I do have the lyrics." The music began to play as Rachel stood up in front of Finn.
Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
Are you a guard in prison maximum security?
Is that you? is that you? Is that you?
do we stay home all the time because you want me to yourself?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
Or am I stay locked away out of fear I'll find someone else?
Is that you Is that you Is that you?
The gears of Finns' mind started to turn.
Well I don't like (o-hoo) O I don't like (o-hoo) Is this a relationship Well I don't like (o-hoo) O I don't like (o-hoo)
Living under your spotlight (o-hoo)
Just because you think I might (o-hoo)
Find somebody worthy
Living under spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right
You wont have to worry
Fulfilling your needs as well as mine?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
Or is this just my sentence
Am I doing time?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
Is this love real real love
Then I'm staying no doubt
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
But if I'm just love's prisoner
Then I'm bustin out (oh)
Living under your spotlight (o-hoo)
Just because you think I might (o-hoo)
Find somebody worthy
Living under spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right
You wont have to worry
Finn began to see what being with him was like for her.
Boy you ought to be ashamed of yourself Well I don't like (I don't like)
What the hell do you think your doing
Loving me, loving me so wrong
Baby all I do is try (try)
To show you that your mine (mine)
One and only guy (only guy)
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes cause baby I don't like
Ooh, ooh (oo,oo)
Ooh, ooh (hey cause I don't like!)
Living under your spotlight (no,no)
Just because you think I might (hee)
Find somebody worthy (no, I don't like yeah)
And I don't
Living under your spotlight (living under your spotlight)
Maybe if you treat me right (treat me right yeah!)
You wont to worry
"Thats what it was like being with you." Rachel said looking into his eyes. He nodded and she turned and walked out of his room.
Jesse barreled out of his car and up the driveway of Finns house. Rachel wasn't outside and the only light on was upstairs. It can only be his bedroom. Jesse thought as he stood on the stoop. Just as he was about to grab the doorknob, the door swung open and there was a yelp.
"Jesse?" Rachel questioned. "What are you doing?" She pulled him down the steps as she walked out of the house.
"What were you doing? The plan was to drop him and his truck off at his house. Not go in and play house!" was his rebuttal.
"I wasn't about to leave him injured and alone. I just made sure he was comfortable and had all he needed. We then had a heart to heart. I think it went well."
"So...he didn't...you know...try anything?" Jesse tried to act nonchalant. Rachel laughed and shook her head.
They got into the car and Rachel began to explain. "He asked if it was really so bad being with him and I told him exactly what it was like."
Jesse was curious. "What did you say to him?"
"Well I sang Spotlight to him. You know the Jennifer Hudson song?" When Jesse didn't recognize the song she hummed a little bit to him.
"OH that song. Ouch. That must have hurt him." Jesse said in mock sympathy.
"Yeah I thought he might cry. It seemed like he finally realized what it was like for me." she replied.
"Well did he say anything?"
"No, but he did sing to me on the way over here. I'm not familiar with the song he sang but it said what he was feeling."
Crap. He probably sang something about how he should be the one she wants. Ugh. Jesse had an idea. I can do better than that.
"Well since he sang to you, do I get to?" he asked. Rachel grinned and nodded.
Jesse picked a song on his ipod and it started to play. Jesse sang as he pulled away from the curb.
It hasn't been the best of days,
Since she drove off and left me standing in a haze
Because I've been so out of order
Yes I have babe
My new found love showed up and blew her out the water
Rachel was confused. That didn't sound good to her. She looked at Jesse confused, but he held up a finger telling her to wait.
And its so not easy I can't believe I found
(I know she'll say)
I'm sleazy
(I love the way)
You please me
A girl who turned my life around
She suddenly
Came onto me
Pin me down
On the ground
I could have pushed away
But I didn't know what she'd say
But I'm glad I'm not the guy who turned her down
Now Rachel smiled understanding why he picked this song. I cut my social life in two Cos you look like
I quit my city job so I can be here with you
My friends say I'm a fool in love
But I'm not babe
It's worth my while because you're what my dreams are made of
(A beauty queen)
Sucked in by
(Your tractor beam)
You know I
They reached Rachel's house and Jesse looked at her as he sang.
I can't believe I found Years go by
A girl who turned my life around
She suddenly
Came onto me
Pin me down
On the ground
I could have pushed away
But I didn't know what she'd say
But I'm glad I'm not the guy who turned her down
(As the years go by)
I wonder why
(I start to wonder why)
She had come to me
(Bah da bah bah)
So glad that she met me
(Bah da bah bah)
And life without you baby, just don't know where I would be
Jesse cupped her face as he sang the next part (being that it was slower and quieter) I can't believe I found
A girl who turned my life around
She suddenly
Came onto me
Pin me down
On the ground
I could have pushed away
But I didn't know what she'd say
Jesse made Rachel giggle by shrinking in his seat as he sang the next part.
But I'm glad I'm not the guy who turned her down (down down down down)
Yeah I'm glad I'm not the guy who turned her down (down down down down)
Yeah I'm glad I'm not the guy who turned her down
Rachel and Jesse kissed before she left the car and he drove away thinking: Yeah. I'm good.
A/N: So I know its rough but its the first thing I've written in a long time. At least its the first fictional thing. I know this was full of lyrics and not much content but I'm still trying to figure out what to do with this story. If you all have any suggestions or ideas or just something that you would like to see happen or a song you would like to be in the story let me know in the reviews or message me or something.
Songs used:
Something- Escape the Fate
Spotlight- Jennifer Hudson
The Guy Who Turned Her Down - McFly
Reviews really do help me write!