Chapter 1

I Need You

"Dimitri I need to talk to you" I said

"Rose will you just stop it" Dimitri replied getting angry.

"What I just-" I started but I was abruptly cut off by Dimitri

"Rose don't you get it just leave me alone. I don't love you anymore. Love fades, mine has" He said with no emotion in his voice.

I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest and there were tears stinging in the back of my eyes. He didn't mean that, did he?

"I-" I started but was cut off again this time by Lissa

"Rose just leave you're starting to cause a scene just let it go. Do you want Dimitri back in prison again?" She said.

I couldn't believe this not only has my SOUL MATE just told me his love had faded but my best friend was taking his side.

My life was Shit.

I had tears pouring down my face and I did the only thing I could at that moment and that was to get the hell out of there before the other guardians could see me cry.

As I was running back to my room I felt confusion through the bond and questions from Lissa but I blocked them.

I was crying so hard that everything was blurry and I couldn't see which is why it was understandable to run into something or in this case someone.

I looked up only to find I had literally run into my best guy friend Eddie Castile.

"Hey slow down. Rose what's wrong?" he asked frantically.

"He doesn't love me I just wanted to tell him about the baby and before I could he told me his love had faded and then Lissa took his side" I sobbed

Eddie wrapped me in a tight hug and said "You're talking about Dimitri aren't you. Wait did you say baby?"

I nodded and more tears fell.

"Come on let's get you back up to your room and we can talk like we used to" He said. Then he lifted me up bridal style and I linked my arms around his neck and laid my head on his chest as he carried me up to my room.

When we got there he gently set me down on my bed and then he sat down on the edge of it.

"Rose what's going on?" he asked.

So I told him everything I told him about from when Dimitri caught me and Lissa and brought us back to my old academy St Vladimir's and how we fell in love, slept together.

I told Eddie about my time in Russia when I went to find Dimitri. I was never going to tell anyone about that but I told Eddie.

I also told him how I somehow am able to conceive a child with another Dhampir as I am shadow kissed.

He didn't say anything and we lay on my bed in a comfortable silence and all though telling my story to Eddie hurt and was painful I also felt better to get it off my chest.

"Eddie what do I do?" I asked after a while.

Eddie thought for a moment "Well first things first. What are you going to do about the baby?"

"Well I'm going to keep it" I said as abortion was definitely not an option and adoption there was no point in as I would be just like my mother.

I wanted to be a good mother I wanted to have this baby and watch them grow up and be there for them when they were sad or if they had a bad dream.

He nodded and then he said the one thing that I have been thinking of this whole time

"Why don't you move away from court and live with your father I'm sure he wouldn't mind" he said

I nodded there was nothing was left for me here Lissa had Christian and vice versa. Lissa also had Dimitri and Dimitri doesn't want me anyway. Adrian has cheated on me twice now so he definitely doesn't need me.

"You're right Eddie. I think everyone would be so much happier if I just left" I said

"Not everybody would be happy with that Rose" he said

"Really like who?" I asked

"Like me" he stated as if it was a fact

I smiled Eddie was truly the man that doesn't deserve me.

I kissed him on the cheek

He blushed.

Just like that I felt whole again for the first time I had in a long time whilst Eddie sat there like a statue with the biggest grin on his face.

I looked at him questioningly

"Rose Hathaway just kissed my cheek. I think I might faint" he said in a really girly voice. I knew he was just goofing around.

I laughed

Then I did something else which surprised both me and him.

I kissed him as in properly kissed him full on the lips and he responded just as eager.

I have always loved Eddie always had that little bit of feeling towards him but I never acted upon him because I'm not good enough for him.

When we stopped kissing he said "What was that not that I'm complaining or anything"

"Eddie I think I'm falling for you" I answered truthfully and I did whenever anything bad happened it was always Eddie that was there for me.

"Are you sure I mean I don't want this to be a distraction from what happened today" he said with a slightly sad expression.

"No Eddie I swear it has nothing to do with today" I said back to him.

"So why now why not before?" he asked

I sighed time to fess up.

"Because I never thought I would ever be good enough for you. I mean there is you responsible could have anyone you want, so yourself around me. And then there is me" I said the last me as if it meant nothing and looked down.

I felt Eddie put his hand on my chin and force me to look into his eyes.

He was crying and that's when my eyes started to water.

He lifted me on to his lap and wrapped his arms around me tightly.

"How could you ever think that?" he said in disbelief.

I shrugged

"Why do you think I never let myself love anyone else?" he asked

I looked up at him

"Why?" I asked.

"Because the girl I am looking at right now is the only girl I have ever loved" and with that he put his lips back on mine and we shared a sweet kiss.

"Can I still leave court Eddie?" I asked

"I need to get away from here" I said

He nodded

"On one condition" he said

"Whatever it is name it" I said

He smiled.

"I'm leaving with you. We are going to raise this baby and me and you are going to be the best parents ever" He said as if it was obvious.

"This is the happiest I have felt in a long time" I thought

"Let me call my father" I said.

I called my father and he said that he was sorry for everything going on and that he understood.

He also said he was delighted for me and Eddie to go live with him

I hung up the phone and looked at Eddie.

"Well" he said.

I smiled "He said he was more than happy for us to go and live with him" I squealed

Eddie cheered and picked me up and spun me round.

"We'd better get packing" I said

We started packing up our stuff.

I was thinking about my future and how it finally looked bright again.