Disclaimer: I don't own Ouran High School Host Club, or Monster by Skillet. I own Lily, and an over-active imagination.

Lily's POV

I was a monster. Everyone knows it, yet they all tell me I'm not. Lies, they're feeding me lies. They couldn't hide the disgust they had for me off their faces. Every person wore the expression, even you wore it, as you knew the monster that was me. The problem that needed to be exterminated.

The Secret side of me I never let you see
I keep it caged, But I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

You all didn't know about my past, how everyone had betrayed me. Even my parents. They said they wouldn't send me away, as long as I got better. I did get better, everything got better, but they still sent me away.

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake, and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save from this, make it end?

But somehow, you guys managed to figure out everything wrong with me. You all threw looks of disgust towards me, making sure I knew your true feelings.

Trust me, I do.

You know the monster I've become.

Even now, you still have the tolerance to ask me what's wrong, as if you want to listen to a monster complain. The people I've harmed, they're the ones who should be complaining. Not the beast who hurt them. I was hurt by the beasts of my life, so, to make it even, I hurt them. Harmed, and Harming.

Even now, Kaoru, you still hate me, no matter how many times you say you don't, you hate me. And, guess what?

I don't blame you.

You have the complete right to hate me. To hurt me as I did to all of them.

I feel it deep within', it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I confess that I feel like a monster

You look at me, with such a hateful look in your eye. The look in your that screams to rip me apart. To make me non-existent. To make me regret ever being alive. Already, I regret being alive, if it means making you so unhappy that I am.

I, feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster

You explain that the look is purely love, but I recognize the lie. You have a sparkle, but it's no love. Simply hate at what I've become. You want someone who's perfect, who can be loved by you, and not hated like me. Someone who could share your equal hate of all things, that don't belong in this world.

Things like me.

The secret side I keep under lock and key
I keep it caged, but I can't control it
Cause if I let him out he'll tear me down, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save from this, make it end?

Oh Kaoru, how I wish it was different! I wish I could be the perfect blonde hair, blue eyed perfect girl that you would be proud to be next to! But, alas, I am nothing but the reject. The reject that showed you what you really wanted.

I feel it deep within', it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I confess that I feel like a monster

Standing in the bathroom, I find my instrument of choice.

A knife.

To truly recognize what I am.

"Embrace who you truly are."

Your words exactly.

I feel it deep within', it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster

To carve the words, to make sure they last forever.

So people know what a real monster looks like.

It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

A monster is often described as possibly Bigfoot, or the Boogeyman.

Look in the mirror, I found another one.

One who scares everyone around her, makes everyone wary of her next move.

I feel it deep within', it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I confess that I feel like a monster

As the blood flows around, staining the countertop, I see the reflection of everyone I've hurt, all the lives I've ruined, loathing in my blood. They want my veins to run dry, to make sure I can't walk the world anymore.

I feel it deep within', it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster

I chose the word to engrave in my skin, that everyone saw me as.

A monster.

I, feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster
I, feel like a monster

Are you proud, Kaoru? That I embraced who I really am?