1.1.2013

Dear Ana,

Happy New year! Can you believe we made it through 2012? I'll admit, I was terrified about the world ending. I guess everything's fine though.

It's partly because of you Ana. You've been a great friend ever since I met you in the park last month. Remember that day?

It was raining, and we sorta bumped into each other. Best friends ever since. You've made that month easier for me to get through. Thank you for that.

1.2.2013

Ana,

Thank God you got there when you did! I was soo excited to see you. I don't know why, but lately I haven't been enjoying my stepmothers food as much as I used to. I think t was for the best, I didn't want to waste food, but I wanted to spend to time with you. Everybody wins.

Tomorrow schools tarts again, and I wish you went to my school.

1.3.2013

Sp today wasn't one of my best days. School was horrible. I felt completely out of place. My friends ignored me. I had no where to sit during lunch, so I sat in a bathroom stall and I cried.

But you found me Ana. You made everything better.

1.4.2013

Ana,

Life isn't fair.

1.6.2013

*Sigh*

She did it again. She keeps turning dad against me. He was mine first!

Things were better and easier when Mom was alive. She would've loved you Ana. But Kathy, my dearest step mommy, she hates you. Says you're corrupting me. She told dad to send me away to some hospital.

At least he came to his senses and told her to leave me alone.

1.7.2013

Good news and bad news. Bad news is that I weighed myself. I lost 15 pounds! But I guess that could be considered good news. I was a little on the chubby side.

Good news? There's this boy.3

1.14.2013

3 Ana! After a week of being a stalker, my plan has finally worked! I practically stalked him to his classes and you wouldn't believe how many times I walked past his locker.

After the 5th time I dropped my books and he helped pick me up! We had a moment!

And now we have a date!

1.17.2013

Troy

1.21st.2013

I. Hate. You! How could you do this to me? You knew how important this date was to me. I've been talking about it for days! I thought you wee my friend! How could you?

It was going great until you showed up. It was supposed to be a double date, Troy, Chad and Taylor and I. Ana you know I didn't want you there!

Do you realize how stupid I looked? I was just sitting there staring at my food because you wouldn't go away. Blake asked if I felt sick. I couldn't explain the effect you have on me Ana. I just ran out of the restaurant. G away Ana. Don't come back.

1.23.2013

Ana,

You're my only friend. The only one who understands me. You help me get through everything. You're such a great friend. I told you to go away, and you came back fro me. You're the only one who has.

I love you Ana.

1.25.2013

I cant do this anymore. When my mom died, I thought It was a bad dream and shed come back.

I felt so alone when I finally realized she was never coming back. Kathy was going to be a permanent part of my life. Of dads life.

How could he just forget about mom so easily? Dad told me id love my new brother and sister. He was wrong. I hate the, stepbrother Jason managed to convince the whole 10th grade that I threw myself at him. Suddenly I was called a slut, a whore. A skank. Kati didn't help. While I was vulnerable, she took my friends.

I'm so alone Ana. Even when the room is full of people. I just want to cry,

And I've decided I really hate school food.

1.27.2013

Ana! You're my best friend, but I feel horrible after what you did yesterday.

Jason took my car yesterday after school and I had to walk home in the rain. I was soaked by the time I got home.

Kathy had cookies waiting on the table, but after she yelled at me for getting her floor wet, you and I went upstairs.

Kati came up with the cookies, and you left while she informed me on the plans she made with my former friends. I felt horrible by the time she left and you returned.

And you brought friends.

I thought about losing my mom, my friends the reputation that followed me around school, and I lolst it.

I have never hated myself as much as I did that day. I just wanted it all to end. I think your friends that took a little too literal.

My throat hurts from puking so much. My wrists hurt and they're sore when I touch them. I fell asleep that night crying and naming everything I hate about myself.

1.29.2013

I cant bring myself to smile, to laugh. I cant find a reason to go on. My self esteem is getting dangerously low. I'm so alone. I don't have anyone except you Ana. And I'm starting to think you aren't exactly the best thing for me…

1.31.2013

Ana,

Your friends left scars on my wrists.

2.1.2013

I wouldn't be so alone if I had my mom.

2.2.2013

Ana,

I'm thinking about joining my mom. In heaven, hell, wherever she is. That's where I want to be.

*This is my second try trying to write a story. I have more already written down, but if I don't get positive reviews, this will probably stay a one shot. I changed my account name from pheonix997, and im ready for a new start at writing. all comments are welcome. R&R!*