Ohhh my GOODNESS! It's been months since I last updated! Haksgdasdhjga. Forgive me guys! ;A;

Anyway, this is probably the 2nd to the last chapter.

Disclaimer: I do not own Durarara and it's characters. I only own the crappy story XP

"IIIII~ZZZAAA~YYAAAA-KUU~N!"

I turned around and saw Shizuo with a metal bar on his shoulders, ready to kill. He looked at me with that savage grin of his "I've been feeling quite pissed lately. So, hold still so I can beat you up senseless!".

"Sorry Shizu-chan"

Shizuo's eyes widened from shock. "huh?".

I smiled at him "Not today. I…don't feel like fighting right now" I walked away far from Shizuo.

I don't want to see you

I bit my lower lip to hold back from crying.

I don't want to hear you

I turned a corner

I don't want to feel you

I leaned on a wall and I slid down to the floor.

I don't want to be near you

I hugged my knees and I rested my head on them.

I leaned my head back on the wall as I looked at the ceiling. "Shizuo…" The name leaves a tingling sensation on my tongue. I don't know if I still can handle all of this pain. This is just too much for me.

I don't want this. But it's for the best.

Me, Shinra and Dotachin were once again on the roof with lunch. Somehow, I'm half relieved and half disappointed that Shizu-chan wasn't around. But, I felt more relieved. Today, I somehow ignored Shizu-chan and avoided to get into fights with him. Of course, this shocked Shizu-chan. I took a piece of ootoro from my lunch box and I plopped it in my mouth. I hummed happily as the taste melted on my tongue. "Sushi is the best~!" I exclaimed. Shinra chuckled from this "We know Izaya-kun we know".

"So Izaya, why did you skip out on class?" asked Dotachin.

I looked at him with my face full of Sushi bits. I swallowed the food in my mouth "It's a secre~t" I said in a sing-song voice.

Shinra took a bite out of his onigiri and asked "You know Izaya-kun? You seem so happy! Did you finally confess?"

I stopped halfway of placing the ootoro in my mouth. Shinra looked at me with a confused expression. Also Dotachin. I placed the sushi back in my bento before frowning at the ground like it had something to do with what I'm feeling right now "No. Didn't I tell you that it's impossible?"

Shinra and Dotachin's expressions earlier deflated to disappointment.

"Izaya-kun. Why?"

I sighed at Shinra "I told you Shinra, it's impossible for me to confess to Shizu-chan. He'll just laugh at my face and he will probably think I'm just pulling his leg or something" I plopped the last sushi into my mouth and I packed up my lunch.

"Izaya? Where are you going?" Asked Dotachin.

I stood up and patted the dust from my pants "I'm going to the classroom. I still have to study" I lied. I don't really need to study for anything. I just want to stay there in the classroom and try to stop these thoughts in my head.

I walked my way to the door. When I opened it, Shizu-chan was there standing in front of the door.

His face scowled and he growled threateningly . "Get lost flea"

"Don't worry I'll be gone sooner or later" I mumbled as I passed by him.

Before I could even take another step I was lifted from the ground. Shizu-chan grabbed the collar of my shirt and glared at me. I just stared at him impassively

"Shi-Shizuo-kun!" Shinra shouted as he stood up and ran to us. He tried to pry off Shizu-chan's hand off my shirt. But it was meaningless, the brute wouldn't budge. "Let go of Izaya-kun!".

I shot a glare at Shinra.

The blonde mumbled something illegible.

"Hah?" was the only thing that came out of my mouth as I raised an eyebrow.

"There's something wrong with you and it's been pissing me off!" He screamed at me. My eyes were wide as I looked at his eyes. A mixture of Anger, Sadness and Concern.

"Shi-Shizu-cha-WAH!" I was pinned to the wall roughly.

He looked at me with those hazel colored eyes blinded with anger and concern "You're not the same prick I know. You're way too different. What have you done with the real Orihara Izaya! TELL ME!" He screamed at my face till our faces were dangerously close. "There' something wrong with you and I'll beat you up until you tell me!"

"Wa-Wait! Shizuo-kun don't!" Shinra shouted at the blonde with a voice full of desperation.

I continued to look down and my bangs covered my eyes. I must look pretty pathetic right now. But I don't really care about that at this moment. "you don't know a thing…"

Shizuo quirked an eyebrow. "What?"

I slapped him across the face and I glared at him with my eyes brimming with tears. Shinra stared at me with wide eyes and Dotachin just looked at us from the spot where he was awhile ago. "DON'T TALK AS IF YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!" I shouted at him.

He slowly turned his head to me and he looked at me with a shocked expression. "I-Izaya?".

My heart skipped a beat as I realized what I just did. I just slapped him. I didn't use my knife to cut or stab him to let me go. I just slapped him across the face.

"SHUT UP!" I shouted at him. Shizuo just looked at me with a bewildered expression. I used this chance to slip away from his hold and run away. I heard him shout my name.

But.

It was different.

The tone wasn't the usual one he used every time with my name. It didn't sound threatening or it wasn't filled with malice. What I heard was.

Want.

I shook it out of my head as I continued to run. There was no way. Shizuo would never want me. He hated every single molecule of me. He's just messing with my head. That's all.

I had no clue where my feet were taking me. I was just going wherever it takes me. All that matters is that I have to get away from the one who hurts me the most, both body and heart.

Before I could realize, I was already out of the school building and I zipped through crowds of people, pushing them out of my way. Of course there were voices that shouted and eyes that glared daggers at me for doing so.

"IZAAAAAAAYAAAAAAAAAAA!"

I looked back and saw that the blonde brute was still right on my tail. As the humans heard the voice that was all too familiar, they panicked and scattered all over the street, thinking that probably vending machines or stop signs will come flying out of nowhere.

But there were none.

It was just an old chase with two teenage boys.

I cursed under my breath and looked forward. I turned to an alley and I looked back, he was still chasing right after me. I turned again, but he was still there. Then I started turning alley after alley to lose the monster.

About 15 minutes passed, I finally lost him. I smiled in relief.

He was gone.

I looked in front of me and saw a large and tall building. It was abandoned. I walked closer to it and tested the door, something was blocking it from the other side. I sighed then I saw a broken window right beside the door. I climbed right through it and looked at the inside. It looked like an old apartment complex. I walked further into the building and saw a door to the stairwell. I opened the door as the hinges creaked from the rust. I looked up and saw an endless flight of stairs. I stopped observing before I walked to the first step of the stairs then a cold feeling rushed on my spine.

Am I going up to end my life?

I narrowed my eyes in thought. "It's for the best" I breathed as I close my eyes.

I took another step.

What will happen to my family? Won't they be sad?

That's ridiculous. They don't care about me. They might dance around my grave when I die. They'll be happy.

Then another and another. Every step I took, another question pops into my mind.

I'm having doubts about my suicide attempt. Questions are circling my mind. But it's for the better of everyone. Especially Shizuo.

They would be happy when I'm gone.

Shizuo would finally have the peace he had been yearning for years. And he would have a beautiful girlfriend and marry her. He would have a wonderful family with no problems. Everything would go his way. His life would be happy and perfect.

Because Orihara Izaya wouldn't be there to give him any more pain and trouble.

Orihara Izaya would be gone for all eternity.

Ahahaha~ It's not the end yet~! Next chappie might be the last one :3 and I might add an Epilogue. HURR HURR.

Jazzy Mire: pffftt Contain your screams next time XD But thanks.

Purianee: Hell yeah IzaIza :V Stop being a pansy and get 'im back!

RavenBlackRoses: ohohoho~ nooo~ next chapter is the end :3 Enjoy it while you can~

Misaki-Sophia: D-Did I disappoint you? ;v;

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