DISCLAIMER: I do not own Gakuen Alice and the songs with its lyrics that will be used in the one shot drabble.
Melodies of Life – a collection of one shot drabbles with different genres that were based off from a song.
Notice: Some lyrics were cut off by me... :D I didn't put all the lyrics to avoid redundancy. :)
Important note: Slightly related to manga.
Heaven Knows
( - Rick Price)
Written by LunarChan
[Narumi Anjo and Yuka Azumi]
[Hurt/Comfort/Romance (Not much romance)]
She's always on my mind...
From the time I wake up, 'til I close my eyes...
She's everywhere I go...
She's all I know.
Though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger, everyday...
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on...
"I love you," I told her and she suddenly grabbed me and stole it. She never intended to. It was an accident.
My eyes fluttered open and I sit back on the hard frame of my bed, panting heavily as I remembered those days. Those days haunt me. Up to now.
My senpai. My first love. My heart's desire.
I felt my heart crumple just remembering every minute that we shared with each other.
She's gone. She's long gone.
I would always remind myself that she's gone, but a part of me still hopes... that she'll be back. That she'll come back. To me. For me.
.
.
.
So tell me where do I start?
'Cause it's breaking my heart...
Don't wanna let her go.
"You have to move on." Misaki sighed and told me for the umpteenth time to move on, blah blah blah.
"I can't feel it." I shrugged and take a sip at my hot coffee.
"But you have to. You have to forget about her, Naru. Your world doesn't revolve around her."
"Tell me how to move on." I finally gave up. What he said makes sense. I have to move on. My world doesn't revolve around her. She's just one person that I met.
Just one person that changed my whole life. My mind argued and I pushed hat thought to the back of my mind.
My other mind was telling me to wait, even if it means waiting for eternity to come. But my other self is tired already.
But I decided now. I'm determined to move on... Or not.
But I will try. I will.
.
.
.
My friend keep telling me,
"If you really love her, you gotta set her free...
And if she returns in kind..."
Then, I'll know she's mine.
Who would think I'd see her again?
There she was, standing in front of me. Her silky brown locks still managed to shimmer the way it did before. Her eyes were focused.
And I realized one important thing...
I don't want t fall out of love with her... I just want to love her... 'Til this pain ends...
I want her and nothing more.
Just her. It's enough.
.
.
.
Maybe my love will come back someday...
Only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way...
Only heaven knows.
And all I can do is hope and pray...
'Cause heaven knows.
She came out of the portal she created long ago. I knew she'd come out and I expected her to come out here.
She was surprised to see me. Her thin lips gasped and her eyes widened a little bit.
My heartbeat raced against the clock's second hand. It was beating frantically.
She spoke coldly to me... Her words stung, like I'd been bitten by hornets. It was painful.
"Give me back my alice stone." I reminded her.
Ever since the day she accidentally stole it from me, I've never been in love with somebody else... I just keep hoping she'll come back. And that she'll accept my feelings...
"No," She shook her head, her brown hair swaying. "If I give it back to you, you'll follow me around again."
That was partly true. I know. I know. I can't keep my eyes off of her, even more, that I know she's back...
God, what would I do without her?
.
.
.
Why do I live in despair?
'Cause wide awake and dreaming,
I know she's never there...
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm chicken inside.
Why does it hurt me so?
Tears slipped on my eyes as I see her die slowly in front of me. Her lbloody, limp body was almost balled in the floor with her daughter hovering over her. She looked like she had seconds left.
I wanted to go to her, to tell her how much I love her. How much I've waited for her to come back... just to see her again. How much I regretted being a toy to the academy. How much I hated not following her advice in the past...
But my knees won't move. I felt so cold. For the first time in my life, I felt like a stone. So hard and cold.
I can't move from where I was standing. I could only watch as she die in front of me.
And when her eyes slammed shut, that was when tears came rushing and my heart squeezed so tight.
I wanted to die, too. If she's not around, what is there to live for?
There's nothing more to live for. No. Nothing left.
...
...
I closed my eyes as the tears threaten to fall again.
"Are you okay, Narumi?" Serina-sensei asked me. "You looked... pale?"
I nodded, I don't wanna speak out because that might result to endless shriek of agony.
It felt like hell. Losing the one you love in front of you, and you can do nothing but watch.
That was just...
I bit my lip and took a deep breath before I completely lost myself.
The only thing I can do now is to finish what she started.
For her. I would do this.
For her. I can do this.
For her. I should do this.
For her... I'd do everything.
THE END
Author's Notes:
First time writing a YukaNaru fic. O_O
And it was so short. It was a drabble, anyway. XD
Please leave a review. Thanks. :)
~LunarChan (11-05-11)