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A/N: Okay so this story is definitely heavy with multiple subjects that might prove extremely personal... I hope to do them justice and I just hope you enjoy... Possibly my first story I have ever been truly terrified to post... So I hope you like!

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"I want simple," Penelope stated simply as she flicked through the magazine, "I mean, you see all these lavish weddings and I just can't help but think about one thing," She looked up and smiled, "What about the consideration to one another? How much did the bride really think about the groom in the run up or was she just preoccupied with making the perfect wedding?"

"So you want plain and simple?"

Penelope smiled at him sexily, "I want you."

"Good answer, Baby Girl," Derek said as he leant in and stole the magazine and then stole a kiss. He pulled her up to her feet, and wrapped his arms around her body, holding her close even when the kiss had ended. "I will always love you."

Penelope smiled brightly at that, her eyes illuminating with happiness, "Mmm, I know I will always love you too."

"I just can't wait to make you a Morgan. Once that's happened it's staying that way." He told her fiercely like he always did. He had said it once, and he meant it entirely, he was never letting anything happen to break her and him up.

As Penelope kept his arms around her, she put her head to his chest and listened to his heart beating away. She smiled as she continued to listen away. If there was one thing she cherished most in this world now, it was Derek's hearts. To her that was the most precious thing anyone had ever given her and she cherished knowing that Derek was looking after her heart just as well as she had hoped he would. All she could do in return was love him as fiercely as she always had and give him that good morning as often as she could.

Inhaling her sweet scent, Derek reminisced about that morning when he had hijacked her shower and joined her. He had claimed it as saving water, when really his future wife had left him so hard in bed he needed her to be punished for being mean enough to leave the bed before either of their bodies were sated. Kissing into her soft hair, he lavished this private moment – like the others – that they got at work. He didn't care that they had to hideaway in her office to get them. It just meant that they were completely private.

"We've got stuff to do, Hot Stuff," Penelope mumbled into his chest, her body unmoved. She just remained where they were.

Derek sighed, "We better not get called away on a case," he grumbled. "I'm not in any mood to jet off half way across the damn country today."

"Are you ever?"

"Before I had you I was," Derek near enough purred at her in a sexy tone. "Back in those lonely, lonely days, I had to get away from here to keep myself from taking you home and showing you exactly what I was feeling."

Penelope giggled at that, "Put me over your knee and spank me?"

Derek chuckled at her and pulled back, "That would've been one of them – for keeping me waiting too long."

"I never did get that punishment then," Penelope told him, her eyes looking at him with tease and complete innocence. "Maybe that's well over due?"

"Don't you dare start this when I can't get you home for another six hours."

Penelope pursed her lips, "You forgot we have the appointment with the florist later didn't you?" She asked him, bursting his little bubble, "You're gonna have to wait a little longer."

Thinking for a moment, Derek responded instantly, "Hmm," he started, pulling her close to his body, "Seems I'll just have to wine and dine you, Baby. We'll sort the appointment out, then I'm taking you for a meal and then we're gonna go home and have that alone time."

"Oh, Baby Boy, you'll be aching by then," Penelope teased him lovingly. "Mamma will really need to work her magic hands to loosen you up."

"At this rate, I'm going straight for third base and skipping dinner," He groaned back as he listened to her and felt his body reacting to her tone, reacting to her hands as one pushed down towards his crotch. "Right, we're postponing dinner."

Penelope dropped her hand and laughed, "Dessert before dinner again?" She questioned as she went over to her computers and sorted them.

Derek watched as Penelope bent over, her perfectly rounded ass up in the air at him and he licked his lips. Why did this woman have to be the epitome of perfection? He always asked himself how he managed to capture a goddess, and it was always at work that he berated himself for having the dirtiest of thoughts and memories.

"I'm gonna have more than dessert," Derek said huskily and went behind her, running his hands over her butt and onto her hips, he made her stand and he began to kiss into her neck, "Have you seen the time, Goddess?" He asked knowing that if they didn't have a distraction now they might well end up in a hot and sticky situation in her office.

"Crap!" Penelope said, "I need to go find my girlies, and head out to lunch," Penelope said as she glanced at the clock. The mood completely dispersing for a moment. "We have special wedding stuff to arrange," she teased him, shifting the atmosphere to another subject; "I need to go see a certain dress and see how it's coming along."

Derek groaned, "Gimme a clue, Princess. Please."

"Na uh, Sugar Shack," she retorted and smirked as he pouted harder. "You gotta wait another four months to see it."

"Oh you are such a tease," Derek said as he squeezed her waist as they went to leave her office. "One that's going to pay for it in bed later."

"More than I already am?" She asked him back.

"Oh way more than you already are."

Giggling, Penelope let Derek lead her out of her office to go towards the bullpen with him. She was speaking teasingly at him when she stopped mid sentence when she saw Derek's expression shift and his eyes darkened as they focused.

Looking, Penelope came face to face with Kevin. She might not have seen him for over a year, and his physical appearance had gotten, somewhat, better, but he really hadn't changed all that much.

"Hey Penny," Kevin said, a small smile on his lips. "I'm moving back here, so I thought I'd tell you first before the tech pool came alive with gossip."

Penelope smiled and went over to him, giving him a hug. "Welcome back then, Kevin," She told him and stepped back.

"Welcome back, Kevin," Derek said as he reached out and shook the man's hand. He then turned to Penelope, "Right I gotta shoot, but don't be late. Florist won't wait forever remember." Giving her a quick kiss, he went to leave, "Love you, Baby Girl."

"Love you too, Handsome," Penelope said and moved the files from her side to her chest, her left hand on top, showing her big rock on her finger. She was grateful hadn't done anything too over the top – not that she had worried, but she felt this was tasteful glory.

"I see you're becoming a honest woman," Kevin pointed out, indicating to the ring that had caught his eye the moment he had seen her.

Penelope nodded at him, "A lot's changed since you left, Kevin," Penelope told him, still harbouring some of the hurt she was left with when he had broken up with her and subsequently left.

"Well, if you'll give me a chance, I'd like to catch up on everything with you," Kevin said and smirked at her, "Make amends if you wish."

Penelope thought about it, she knew it was something she'd have to run passed Derek, but she knew her man wasn't defensive and he certainly wouldn't get jealous. "Sure," She answered sweetly and gave him a smile.

After all, Kevin Lynch was no threat to their lives anymore.

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