Feelings Suck
Rella Ferne, (Thanks to Sincerly . Jadelyn (I know there's not a space, but it won't keep the name for some reason LOL) for coming up with the name!) Zadam, and Kenaline
Summary
Bella Thorne is always wondering why she blushes around her good friend Roshon Fegan. Roshon Fegan is always wondering why he gets this weird feeling in the pit of his stomach when he's around his good friend Bella Thorne. The more time they spend together the more they come to terms with their feelings. Along the way they learn that even age can't stop love.
"So... What'cha wanna do?" Zendaya asks while wiggling her eyebrows.
"Hmm... How about... play spin the bottle!" Bella suggests happily.
XXXXXBella's POVXXXXX
"Nah, 'cause I don't wanna have to kiss someone other than Kenton." Zendaya says nervously. What's she hiding?
"Fine, what about Truth or Dare?" I suggest hopefully. I wanna play something... I don't care if I have to play spin the bottle with just Roshon! I wanna play a game!
"Sure, let's call everyone else in." Zendaya says with a glint in her eye. Oh, crud, what did I get myself into, this time?
"Roshon! Come here!" I yell at the top of my lungs.
"What? What's wrong?" Roshon asks worriedly, after he runs in the room.
"You're gonna play Truth or Dare with us." I say firmly. Will he think I'm being to pushy? Maybe I shouldn't have said it like that... Oh wait! I'm so stupid; Roshon loves Truth or Dare. I'm mentally slapping my head right now...
"Cool, I love Truth or Dare." Roshon says with a huge grin as he comes over and kisses me on the cheek. He sits down and I then notice, everyone else is in here too.
"I don't know..." Kenton says hesitantly.
"Oh, come on, Ken! Have some fun!" Caroline says with a happy giggle. Uhh, why is Caroline giggling at Kenton?
"I think I'll just sit this one out." Davis says, walking into the room where Ainsley Bailey (Dina) is. Ummm, I guess I could see them as a couple in years to come... Well, many years to come. We don't want Ainsley to look like a pedophile, now do we? It's weird thinking that Ainsley is nineteen and Davis is only nine. Wowza... Big age difference...
"What about you, Kenton? Can you please stay!" Caroline asks hopefully. Caroline gives Kenton puppy dog eyes and he gives in.
Roshon and I look at eachother with shocked expressions. Are they... flirting? But Kenton is dating Zendaya! What's goin' on?
"Well, errrr, umm, Bella, truth or dare?" Zendaya asks, sounding like she's still trying to get over the flirting. I would be mad if my bf was flirting with someone else!
"Truth." I say happily. Might as well get over it before I jump to conclusions!
"Alright, why were you really crying when you and Roshon got together?" She asks excitedly. My jaw drops and I look at her ready to object, but she quickly cuts me off, "And don't give me that bullcrap about it being about Voodoo! I know when you're lyin' Bell. Now the big scoop is, why?"
I look at Roshon for help, but he just gives me a reasuring smile. What should I do? Should I tell? Will they be mad? They're all looking at me like I having something to say! I guess I gotta tell now... I'm gonna get Zendaya back for this...
"Well, Caroline... You were right. That day, I was thowing up. But not because of why you thought. I made- I made it happen." I stutter nervously. Should I tell anything else? I think I'm gonna be sick. I didn't wanna tell! But Zendaya would've been able to tell if I was lying again!
"But that would make you have an eating disorder." Adam says obliviously.
"Because-because I do." I say sadly. "I'm... Bulimic."
"What're you talking about?" Zendaya asks, keeping her head down.
"I'm Bulimic." I mutter, even lower than before. I know I should've just lied!
"I don't believe you." Adam says plainly.
"She's telling the truth." Roshon says firmly. 'bout time he steps in!
"We'll be here no matter what you go through, I promise." Kenton says sweetly.
"Really?" I ask and I can feel the tears well up in my eyes.
"Of course. We know you're a model too and-and models' go through eating disorders all the time. We trust that you'll try and stop. We believe in you, Bella." Adam says seriously.
Why isn't Zendaya looking at me? She still has her head down!
"Sometimes it's raining outside and you have nowhere to go, but always know, you can come to us." Caroline says lovingly. "I'll always take care of someone who needs me." She gances at Kenton for a second and he looks at her. Am I missing somethin' here?
"Yeah, we care about you. We want you to stay safe so we're always gonna be here for you." Ainsley says smiling. When did she get in here?...
"And we love you, Bella." Davis says then gives me a big hug. When did he get here?
"I love you, kid." I say with a smile. "Z-Zendaya?"
"Hmmm?" She asks, finally revealing her eyes. She's crying. Adam gives her a side hug and a reasuring look. Again, am I missing something? Well, I always thought that Adam had a crush on her, but she's with Kenton. Who might be with Caroline. Who plays his sister on screen. Wow... This is confusing.
"She wants to know what you have to say." Adam says soothingly.
"Oh, ok." Zendaya says emotionlessly. "Bella, I don't want you to keep doing this to yourself. I thought you quit doing that to yourself. I love ya like a sista, but I don't want you to hurt."
"How did you know I use to do it?" I ask confused.
"You're about as good as hiding things as you are lying. I heard you. I talked to your doctor. Believe it or not, Bella, but I've been worried about you. I noticed you barely eat. I thought you got through it though... Guess not." She says with a frown.
"I did! I really thought that I did! It just happened and I don't know what made me do it. I had stopped for seven months!" I say proudly. Seven months is a huge accomplishment for me!
"Then, I just want you to know, you have my full support and I'll do anything to help. I wanna help you get better and I'll do anything to help; Whether it be paying for you to go to rehab, going to see someone, or even just talking to you. You're amazing and perfect and you have no reason to do any of those things to yourself! You deserve to have a Dad, you deserved to not have been bullied, and you deserve way better than Roshon." Zendaya says with a slight chuckle, earning laughs from the whole room.
"Don't I know it!" Roshon says gratefully as he kisses my forehead.
"I love you so much." I whisper happily.
"Well, now that your truth is out! How about we continue the game!" Adam says slightly awkward. Haha, anything makes Adam feel awkward! Why is he looking at Zendaya when he says that? Hello! Other people in the room!
"Adam," Kenton starts seriously. What's he up to? He looks at Zendaya and she just nods. She mouths I trust them, so he goes on, "Truth or dare?"
"Dare, 'cause I'm a dare-devil!" He says cockily. Oh, Adam... Big mistake...
"Well, I dare you to kiss Zendaya!" Kenton say plainly. His face has a look of shock and he gulps. Zendaya? Kenton? What boyfriend would want one of their friends' kissing their girlfriend? I'm confused.
"Heh?" Adam asks confused.
"You heard me." Kenton confirms.
"B-but sh-she's your girlfriend." Adam says nervously as he looks at Kenton and Zendaya with a confused expression.
"No. I'm actually not." Zendaya says happily.
"So you're ready to tell them, I guess?" Adam asks shocked.
"Yeah." Zendaya says, pausing. She looks at everyone here and says, "Guys, I lied. Adam and I are dating. I lied and said it was Kenton so if anyone found out, they still wouldn't know the truth. Does any of that make sense?"
He kisser her for fifteen seconds and then he pulls away with a satisified look while Zendaya just has a goofy smile.
We all (excluding Adam, Zendaya, and Kenton) look at them with our mouths (O'm sure) to the floor. Zadam happened. Not Zenton. I'm confused. My BFF lied to me; Oh the joy!
"So you cool with this?" Adam asks in a hopeful voice.
"Yup." I say happily.
"Very much so." Kenton says contently.
"Just a wee bit." Ro says slightly confused
"I think it's highly interesting." Davis says, putting a hand to his chin.
"And I-" Caroline starts.
"I get it! It was shocking! So amazing! Zendaya and I are dating! I just needed a yes or no answer! Jeez." Adam says, throwing his hands up in exasperation.
"Your turn!" I say slightly annoyed. I can't believe that Adam and Zendaya are dating! Though I am annoyed that they didn't tell me, I'm super excited because I always thought they had more chemistry. Don't get me wrong; I love Kenton and all, but I always liked Zendaya with Adam. Some of the reason for that being I like Deuce and Rocky together...
"Fine, Davis, tru-" Adam starts, but Kenton cuts him off.
"Actually, I have some news, too." Kenton starts then pauses, grabbing Caroline's hand. I knew this was coming. "Caroline and I are dating."
"Waaah?" Adam asks clearly shocked. Well, uhhh, he must not have known that...
"Caroline and him are dating." Zendaya repeats for Kenton.
"And you knew this?" Ainsley asks shocked.
"Yeah, I knew, but we wanted to keep both our relationships a secret. So, Caroline didn't know I'm dating Adam and Adam didn't know Kenton is dating Caroline." Zendaya explains further.
"Yeah, I just found this out too." Caroline says happily. Dang, how does that girl keep her happiness level up so much!
"Well, Davis, truth or dare?" Adam asks, seeming shocked still.
"I'm feelin' wild today; dare." Davis says with a thinkful smile. He's like the cutest kid I know! He acts so mature for his age, I'm suprised he doesn't have girlfriends' my age!
"Alright, I dare you to... publicly admit, you like Strawberry Shortcake!" Adam exclaims after a moment of thinking.
"What?" We all yell at the same time.
"You heard me. I dare you to publicly admit you like Strawberry Shortcake." Adam says with a knowing smirk.
"You like Strawberry Shortcake?" I ask, feeling confused.
"Only Gingerbread!" Davis says, clearly embarrassed.
"Awww, you don't gotta do it. Adam's just yankin' your chain." I say cutely.
"Oh, sure, give the cute little kid a break!" Adam exclaims annoyed.
"Well, Davis here, is actually mature for his age." I say mockingly.
"And I'm not a little kid!" Davis says angrily.
"Wow! It's been such a long day!" I exclaim, falling back on to my bed.
"You know it!" Roshon exclaims, joining me on the bed.
"I can't believe Zendaya and Adam are dating! I'm so excited!" I say happily
"Yeah, I was really confused until I seen them kiss. I can totally see it now." Roshon says, smiling.
"Mmhm... I love you." I say tiredly as I wrap my arms around him and am greeted by the familiar feeling of his arms around me. His arms are so comfy...
"I love you, too." He whispers into the crook of my neck. "I'm really proud of you for today. You told everyone your biggest secret and kept your cool while doin' in."
"Thanks. I was freaking out though. I was so scared that they'd be mad at me or something, I never thought they'd actually be there for me and want to help me. They seem so supportive and I don't wanna let them down. I love them too much."
"And you know they love you too. I was kinda shocked though too, actually. They were so okay with it. I couldn't believe everythin' Daya (Zendaya's nickname...) said. I guess you ain't such a good liar after all."
"Haha, guess not. I thought I was doing so well. It's like, when I had cut or made myself throw up, I felt like nobody knew; like it was a secret only I could keep. I even felt like I was such a good actress because nobody knew how much I really was in."
"I love it when you open up to me, Bell. You're amazing, but it gets very hard to try and pry it out of you. Acting good or not; you're a very persistant gal." He says with a slight chuckle.
"I love being able to open up. I held everything in for so long and... I got my big break and met you. Do you think I'm a good actress?" I ask hopefully.
"Of course I do! You're one of the better ones' on Disney. Some of 'em, not so good. Why?"
"Because I get a lotta hate mail saying I'm a really bad actress and that I'm undeserving, or that-that I'm Anorexic! They say I'm a bad influance on their kids 'cause I'm Anorexic! They don't know how hard it is to deal with it! And why can't Anorexics' get their big break too?"
"Because the world sucks. Think about it, people in the world made you Anorexic and now they wanna shun you 'cause of it. It sucks, but it's the truth." He says with a frown.
"I guess you're right. How did you get me to open up? And be comfortable while doing it?" I ask confused.
"It wasn't easy. I just... let you talk. First, I made you talk then once you started, I figured you wouldn't be able to stop. So, I just let you talk."
"Who would'a thought Roshon Fegan would be a good listener?" I ask with a grin.
"I don't know!" He says happily. "Bella..."
"Hmm?" I ask, smiling. It's so easy to be me in front of him! He gets me so well and he likes me so much... He likes me for me and it makes me feel amazing.
"Are you goin' to stop?" He asks hopefully. My jaw drops for the second time today.
"Of course! It was honestly a slip up! I don't wanna go back. I regret what I did, already!"
He lets out a sigh of relief then says, "I'm glad. You and I both know that your rep would be ruined if people found out you still had one. And... I don't want you to hurt. You're beautiful, Bell, and I wish I could show you that somehow."
"Thanks, Roshon. I couldn't have done anything without you." I say contently while wrapping my arms around him again.
"I love you." He whispers. Yay, he loves me!
"I love you, too." I whisper happily. I love a happy ending...
END
A/N
Woot woot! Zadam is in da house! Was this chapter awesome or what?
You see, since I got an equal amount of votes on Zadam or Zenton, my mom suggested do TWO chapters with kind of an alternant (I suck at spelling :p) endings! So Zenton, fans, go back and you shall find Zenton in the previous chapter!
My laptop sucks. Bla bla bla bla... Anyone wanna buy me a new laptop for my B-Day which is in 9 days btw...
Oh and if you guys like Simple Plan and aren't allowed to listen to cussing, look up "I'm Just A Kid Extra Clean" and it has an AMAZINGLY clean edit!
I also ended this chapter listening to the song "If Nothing Else" by Between The Trees. Oh how I miss BTT :'(
And I am SO VERY SORRY for the long wait! My life is hectic and kinda screwed up right now cuz my family members seem to keep dying D: It sucks, but my Great-Grandma just passed away 3 Sundays ago and her funeral was 3 Thursdays ago :( Please (if you're religious) Pray for my family because life has been hard.
So ummm, thanks for all the reviews for this story! You guys are REALLY, REALLY awesome! Can you review ONE LAST TIME? It would make my day :3
Also, Listen to Between The Trees because they are truly amazing, but they did break up in 2010. I love 'em and I hope they come back one day!
Trinity Out for the last time...
Peace!