Tears

By: Jaylonni Love

Chapter One – Sadness

Sadness: affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful

Rin sat in the backseat of the car as her coiffure drove in the seat ahead rubbing her growing belly. She smiled as she thought of the small life that was evolving inside of her. The life that she and her husband created together; something that they could love and nurture until it was unnecessary to do so anymore. Something that would take its first breaths of this world in a matter of four and a half months.

The doctor says that you're perfectly healthy, Rin thought as she looked down at her enlarged abdomen as her hand continued to run over it in circular motions as a small smile ghosted across her lips. You're going to be the happiest baby on the Earth you know with a mommy and daddy that will love you unconditionally and a very large family that will dot on you for every little thing. Yes, you're going to be an attention grabber alright; just like your father. I can already tell because you're not even here yet and people are always asking me about you already. You're one lucky baby.

She closed her eyes as she continued to rub her stomach as she envisioned what the baby would look like. What she saw was a perfect replica of Sesshomaru. The only difference was that it had little dog ears on the top of its head and the eyes were a rich chocolate brown just like hers with little spots of gold reflecting in the irises.

I can't wait to meet you, she thought as she opened her eyes. Only four and a half more months until I get to hold you in my arms.

Rin turned to look out the window only to see a large white SUV swerving right into her car head on. The next thing she felt was something crushing her stomach as darkness began to cloud her eyes. Her vision continued to go in and out as she caught a glimpse of the car tumbling across the road before the darkness of unconsciousness consumed her.

…

Sesshomaru sat in his office going over files that had been sent to him that stated what was needed to close the deal when his personal assistant burst through the door.

"Lord Sesshomaru," the small imp cried as he stumbled into the room gaining the attention of his silver haired boss who looked at him in an annoyed fashion.

"What do you want, Jaken," Sesshomaru asked raising a brow.

"It's your wife, Lord Sesshomaru," Jaken stuttered. "She's been in a car accident. She was on her way home from her doctor's appointment when an SUV hit the car and sent it spiraling across the freeway. They just rushed her to the hospital and called a few moments ago to let you know. I fear that Lady Rin may have died or is in very critical condition for they did not tell me."

Sesshomaru felt his heart stop for a moment. Rin, his Rin was in a car accident and rushed to the hospital? No, this couldn't be happening; it just couldn't. If he lost her he didn't know what he would do with himself.

"Which hospital is she in, Jaken," Sesshomaru asked as he stood and pulled his suit coat from the back of his chair. He pulled the blazer on and looked down at the little imp expecting for him to tell him where his wife was being held. "Where is she Jaken?"

His voice was sharp and a bit annoyed by the lack of answering his assistant gave him.

"At Shikon General," Jaken stammered.

That was the last thing Sesshomaru heard before he turned and walked out of the room and headed to the motor lobby. He had to get to the hospital quickly. He didn't want to lose his wife.

…

Sesshomaru arrived at the hospital fifteen minutes later and rushed straight to the receptionist's desk. With a worried look in his eyes, he looked at the kitsune woman that stared in shock at him.

"How can I help you," she breathed. She didn't want to upset him; he was already worried as it was if his eyes told anything.

"I'm looking for Rin Takahashi," Sesshomaru said. "Can you tell me where she is?"

The woman looked back at her computer screen quickly typing in the last name before she looked up at him. "Ah, she's in recovery. Room 43B; take the elevator, walk down to the end of the hall and it's the last door on your left."

"Thank you," Sesshomaru said before he turned and walked away, the back of his trench coat flying out behind him as he made his way to the elevator.

The old kitsune woman stared after the young man. The poor dear, he's going to get the shock of a lifetime once he steps foot in that room.

…

Sesshomaru walked into the recovery room a few minutes later and stopped at the door. There on the bed was his wife; her usually glowing porcelain skin paler than a fishes belly and slow seemingly agonizing breaths making her chest rise and fall.

The silver haired doctor that stood at her bedside checking her vitals looked up at the youkai male and gave a soft smile.

"She's going to be alright," the elder dog demon said as he walked over to Sesshomaru. "She's just asleep right now but…"

"What about the pup," Sesshomaru asked; his eyes never leaving his wife.

"She lost the child in the wreck," the doctor admitted; his voice laced with sadness. "The front passenger seat crushed her stomach causing her to lose a lot of blood and the child. I am so sorry, Mr. Takahashi. We did everything that we could."

"Thank you," Sesshomaru whispered as he walked over to Rin's bedside and took the seat beside her, taking one of her hands within his.

"I'll leave you to be alone," the old inuyoukai said as he walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.

Sesshomaru let his head drop on to the bed beside her as tears of sorrow fell from his eyes. He had lost his pup, his first born and he had almost lost his wife as well. It would have killed him if she was gone as well just as it was tearing him apart on the inside to know that he would never get to meet the child that she had been carrying for a little over four months.

"Sesshomaru," a rough voice called from beside him.

He looked up, quickly shaking away the tears to see his wife staring up at him with worried eyes.

"Why are you crying Sesshomaru," Rin asked softly raising her eyebrows. She had yet to see her husband ever shed a tear like that before. It was not in his nature to let such emotions be shown to anyone.

"Rin, it's the child," Sesshomaru said solemnly.

"What about it," Rin asked; her voice coated in fear. "Sesshomaru is something wrong? Did something happen to the pup? Where am I? What's going on?" Rin began to become frantic as she looked around the room and noticed all the machines that surrounded her. "Sesshomaru, why am I in the hospital?"

"There was a car accident," Sesshomaru said. "An SUV hit your car when you were on your way back from your doctor's appointment to check on the child. You lost the baby in the crash."

Rin's eyes welled up with tears before they began to stream down her cheeks. Slowly she sat up so not to hurt herself before she threw her arms around Sesshomaru's neck and cried into the sleeve of his coat. She couldn't believe it. Her baby was gone.

Tears of sorrow continued to run down her cheeks for a while before she was able to re-gather herself and look Sesshomaru in the eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I lost our child. You must hate me."

"Never," Sesshomaru said wrapping his arms around her waist and holding her as close as the bed would let him. "All that really matters right now is that you're alive. I don't know what I would do if I lost you as well."

"Sesshomaru," Rin said as she bit her bottom lip and held on tight to him.

She had never experience sorrow like this before. Of course she had felt it when her entire family was killed in a robbery gone wrong but not like this. This was a life that she and her husband had created and now it wouldn't be able to live all because of some stupid car accident.

The chapters to this three part piece aren't really too long. I'll try to update this again by this coming Sunday. Review please and let me know how you like it! Thank you my lovelies. And be watching for BRR2!