Name: It's all coming back to me

Summary: Sequel to Baby I'm a leavin' you. Finn and Rachel haven't seen each other in four years and She liked it that way, but when Sam and Mercedes paradise wedding brings the pair back into each other's lives can she escape Finn's attempts to win her back, or fall even more in-love with him than ever.

It is sort of relevant to read the Baby I'm a leavin' you to know what I am talking about in some chapters, so if you haven't read it I suggest you do. Thank you.

Disclaimer: I do not own glee!

"A toast to the happy couple" Rachel's voice was full of happiness. Happiness that she didn't actually mean, it was all an act. As Mr. and Mrs. Puckerman sat at the table beside her, snuggling up in each other's arms, giant smiles on their faces, Rachel couldn't help but feel depressed. She had lost everything that mattered to her over six months prior, yet every morning she woke up feeling as though it had happened just the day before. The fact that she had a giant scar along her once beautiful body from where they stole her child from her made her want to cry every day. It hadn't just scared her physically, her heart and soul was affected in ways she couldn't describe. But what made everything worse, was seeing Finn sitting on Puck's side of the table, a loving smile placed on his lips as he looked up at her admiring the beauty in her voice, appearance and personality.

"A lot of people here will agree with me that these two haven't always gotten along, but I think that it is an amazing thing that after everything they went through in their younger years, here they are married, tied together forever and it's just amazing. I love you guys" Every applauded the tiny brunette as she sat back down into her chair, practically inhaling her wine, ignoring the look Santana sent her as she took the Latina's glass, downing its contents before she could even protest. Rachel's plan for tonight was to get drunk; hookup with one of Puck's work mates and forget about the past. It was pretty simple and she just hoped it was fool proof.

"You better get me another one" Santana said in a demanding voice, looking down at her friend with intimidating eyes. She didn't like people touching her stuff, especially her alcohol and Rachel had just gone against everything she had been told in high school, breaking every rule Santana had set. But the difference from high school and now was that back then she was too afraid of the consequences of not obeying, but now she just didn't care.

"I'll do it later. I'm gonna go dance with some hot men because I'm mingle and ready to single" By that very sentence all of her friends knew she was drunk, and they all knew that her drunk archetype had changed from needy girl drunk to one of the most common male drunks... 'Sexually accustomed'. She would flirt with everyone and everything. It was one of the worst in men, but when you see it in a woman you can never un-see it.

"How about we dance?" Brittany called out, looping her arm in Rachel's and leading her towards the dance floor, a giant smile on her face as Santana followed close behind, tapping her ass in the process. By the time they got to the dance floor the music had sped up and the three girls were completely ready to grind on each other, Rachel not caring that her two friends played for the same team because she knew they loved each other and wouldn't think too much from dancing like this with 'Berry'.

Mike had led Tina to the dance floor, Sam taking Mercedes just like they had at their prom, while Quinn and Puck had to force the rest of their bridal party down. As Rachel saw Finn approaching the dance floor with Abby on his arm, smiling up at him as though he was making all of her dreams come true, a frown formed on her brow. It made no sense to her as to why she was jealous of the two dancing together, but it made her move out from between the tall brunette and blonde and make her way over to a lost Barney who had no idea what to do. A smile broke out on her lips as she was grateful he wasn't like the stereotype for his nick name. He wasn't middle aged, over weight and an alcoholic. He was only twenty-seven, two years older than her and still young, in good shape and very muscular as a result of being a mechanic and most importantly he was single.

"Hey Barney" She spoke in a steady voice, taking his hand in hers with a giant smile. "Do you want to dance?" All the blonde man could do was nod, pulling her in closer and dancing along to the music. It wasn't as though they were grinding, it was just friendly dancing as they sort of slow danced, but faster, much faster. Every few minutes she would look over to Finn, noticing his jealous eyes, sending daggers at Barney, seeming as though all he wanted to do was kill him and didn't care if it sent him to jail.

"I really think purples your color" His words were soft and sweet in her ear as he played a little at her bridesmaids dress. As Barney's hands began to run along her dress she couldn't help but want to look over at Finn, but instead of him dancing there with Abby, she saw no one and immediately became frantic. What if Finn was off with Abby, falling in-love with her and finding a future? All of those thoughts were pushed to the back of her mind as she saw a depressed Finn looking her way, tears ready to fall. But all she could do was smile at Barney and continue dancing. It didn't matter that her smile was fake, right? She could be happy if she really tried. She had to forget him, she had to. Even if it took her entire life time to get over him she would do it because they didn't belong together anymore, things were over between them and he had to learn that she wasn't coming back for him, never in a million years.

-Glee-

Four years.

So much has changed in my life during this time. I've had four birthdays and aged by four years. I've come back to Broadway where I belong, had several relationships that have led to nothing but heartbreak. I've started up the Jacobe foundation to help people in the world that don't have the money to see a doctor and now they can. I've made so many new friends and know so many amazing people. Back when my life was a complete mess I thought things couldn't get better, but now I know that it can, because it did. By saying that I am not stating that I have forgotten my daughter, because I will never forget her, she will always be in my heart and I know that even though she didn't get the chance to live she will still live on forever, in mine and her father's hearts because she was one of the best things to happen to us, but was wrongly stolen away. All I'm trying to say by this post is that when you hit rock bottom the only place you can go is up, and that's what I have done.

So world, say hello to the new Rachel Berry...

"So how's your timblr thingo going?" Jesse asked just as she pressed enter, putting her words out into the world.

"It's Tumblr and in one year I have gained almost a million followers, have posted ninety-nine posts, liked a thousand posts, re-blogged even more than that and heaps more. I can see how people become addicted to this." Her voice was full of happiness as her best friend sat down beside her on the couch, draping an arm over her shoulder, before placing a soft kiss to the top of her head.

"So are you packed for Mercedes and Sam's Paradise wedding?" The thought of seeing Finn again made her squirm. It was obvious he would be going, mainly because he was Sam's best man. The two had become close after Quinn and Puck's wedding, just like Sam and Mercedes. Just being there had made the two find the love they shared in high school all over again. You could say it was like a fairy tale, two people finding love with each other after being apart for so long.

"I don't know if I'm even going"

"You have to go, you're one of her bridesmaids for god sakes, it is a part of your duties to be at the wedding, gosh you should already know that since you were Quinn's maid of honor." The small brunette sent him a glare, tossing her lap top onto the table and storming off to her room, grabbing her suitcase in the process.

"Happy" She called out over her shoulder, bringing a winning smile to Jesse's face.

"Ecstatic" As she shoved her clothes into the large suitcase she couldn't help but feel like seeing Finn could be a good thing. Let him know that she was finally over him and ready to live the rest of her life, marry Barney who she loved just as much as him (At least that was what she told herself) and start a family. It seemed pretty simple, it had to be right? She had been dished up a crappy life, so it was only fair that she got a happy future, and even if it wasn't promised in her life contract, she would fight for it, and win it over in the end because she was one of the most deserving of it.

-Glee-

"I'm going to miss you Rachel, I can't believe you're leaving me here with Jesse for a week. Who's going to save my fish from his torment now?" The taller gay man pointedly glared at his partner. They would always have endless fights about the fish, Paul claiming that his little guppies, gold fish, black mollies and betta's were like his babies and he would report Jesse to child services, or at least the R.S.P.C.A, which then would always lead on to Jesse rolling his eyes and claiming that he only does it for his health.

"I'm sure your babies will be fine, especially because you always go ninja on him when he tries to even approach the fish" The two best friends shared a laugh as Paul mocked their hysteria, turning away to enter his bedroom, shouting a quick goodbye over his shoulder, only caring for his darling fish. "Well I guess this is it. I have to go" Rachel said as the two heard the loud honking of a car horn from the outside street. Quinn had always been impatient when traveling was concerned. She always liked to be extremely early, leaving everyone else bored out of their minds while waiting to board the plane. It was one of the things everyone really hated about her, but she couldn't seem to stop this pathological need.

"Have fun baby girl, and please try not to rip Finn a new one when you see him"

Rachel rolled her eyes at the thought. "I'll try my best not to" The two shared a smile, pulling each other into one another's arms, not wanting to let go, the thought of not seeing each other for a whole week taking over. "I'm really going to miss you Jesse" Tears began to fall from her eyes, collecting on her best friend's shirt.

"Oh honey, don't cry. It's just a week; you'll be back before you know it. Besides, do you think I'm not going to call you every night?" Jesse's eyes, stared happily into her's bringing a small smile to her face.

"I know you will" The loud car horn beeped again, ruining the moment completely. Rachel removed all evidence of tears from her face, and let go of Jesse. She knew Quinn was impatient, but the least she could do was be considerate of other people.

"Okay, so I will pick you up from the Airport next Wednesday, so don't get a ride with anyone else. I'm going to miss you so much little BB" The two shared a quick kiss before the pair walked towards the door of their apartment. It wasn't strange for anyone that knew them to see the pair kissing because everyone knew that they had a weird sort of friendship that people just understood. It was the kind of friendship where you loved them more than anyone in the world, and everyone else just knew their place. Paul hadn't really understood it when Rachel had first moved in and became mad at the both of them because he thought she was stealing his man. It had taken an intoxicated Paul and forceful Santana to explain this to the poor boy, but now there was never a problem. He knew how their friendship worked, but what he also knew was that he and Jesse shared a different type of love then he and Rachel. Their love was the "I want to spend the rest of my life with you" kind, while he and Rachel shared the "You are my best friend, but also my soul mate" sort of love. Quinn's loud horn erupted through the silence again, forcing Rachel to finally let go and make her way down the stairs.

"Finally. What took you so long?" Her blonde friend asked, Puck gave her a quick hug before taking her suitcase and placing it in the trunk.

"Sorry, I was just finishing up some important business." Her fellow Jew took the lap top bag from her shoulder and put it with her suit case, Quinn was still standing before her with arms crossed, angry that things weren't going to go as planned. This thought scared Rachel as she knew that when things didn't go Quinn Fabray's way, she would get super mad. It had been a complete shock to everyone when she hadn't turned out to be a complete Bridezilla, unlike Mercedes who freaked out over the tiniest of problems.

Barney stepped out from the car, smiling at his girlfriend who still found a way to look beautiful in a singlet top, Jeans and UGG boots. Sunglasses sat on her nose, covering the bags under her eyes. She had been dreaming of the car accident a lot over the past few years, causing her to always have a lack of sleep. She couldn't help it that in her mind everything was much more graphic, and every night one thing would always change and this one thing always had a way of scaring her. She would never admit to anyone that she was having these dreams, mainly because they would link it back to Finn and the unfinished business they had. Unfinished business she couldn't stand to deal with.

"Hey babe, I'm really going to miss you." His words were soft as he pulled her into his arms, kissing her lips for the last time until the next week. He was a really sweet guy who always wanted to make things special for her. Just like now, he held her in his arms, kissing her lips passionately like he would never see her again.

"I'll miss you too."

"Yeah, and we'll all miss the flight if you don't hurry up." Quinn called out from the drivers sat, Puck next to her with a giant smile at how pushy his wife could be. Camera flashes went off around them as Rachel leant in to kiss him one more time, not wanting to let go with the fear of having to see Finn sinking in. She knew that having Barney with her would make it just that little bit less scary, but he hadn't been invited and as a mechanic he wasn't paid all too well, and was too proud to take money from Rachel to pay for his first class ticket.

"I'll see you next week." She mumbled into his neck, lightly biting it to mark her territory in case he felt the need to cheat on her while she was out of the country. Quinn glared at her friend who continued to take her time, her angry stare finally pushing Rachel to get into the car because knowing Quinn it was very likely for her to take off if she took any longer.

"See ya babe." He called out one last time as the car sped up the street. 'This is going to be a long week' Rachel thought to herself as she rested her head against the cool glass of the window, watching the people and cars pass by.