-Still There-
While we look down, some cry, but
I'm
just standing there
awkwardly. You remember,
how much
I hated being by your folks? They
still scare me. But right now, they're not that
scary. They're just… sad.
I keep
listening
to what the guy is saying, but
it's like he's speaking in a different language. Because
you're not gone, right? No, you
are. But not all
the way, no, you never will be.
I know I don't look the same. You're probably watching me
from up there-
what has he done with his hair?
I bet you're laughing. Go ahead,
Courtney. Laugh
your ass off.
You deserve to
have the last laugh.
Princess, do you still want me here? I not sure anyone
else here does.
I'm gonna go, but wait. They're about to close the casket.
… I can't go yet.
I almost touched you
but that doesn't seem right. It's been too
long.
Do you still have that skull I made? I'm
so sorry.
I have to go now, Court. I…
This is the end, isn't it? I was really hoping maybe I'd
wake up.
We miss you. I miss
you.
I need
you. I'm sorry I
never had the guts to tell you
but I do.
Just wake up! You aren't gone
because you just aren't!
You can't leave
me
alone
like this.
Maybe we haven't spoken in close to forever
but that doesn't change the fact that
I would give the moon
to see you scrunch your nose
insult me
smile
giggle
cry
do something
and come back.
I never meant to say those things
I never meant to be that way
and I'm sorry.
But
it's not enough to bring you back.
Just not enough to say
I
love
you.
Not anymore.