Chapter 5: God Gave Me You Bella
Edward's POV
"Your wrong Carlisle. It was my fault that she got into this situation. I heard what that; excuse my French Esme, but what that fucken bastard was thinking when he was here. I could have spoken up and said something, but instead I just gave her a cellphone not forewarning her what I had heard and what might happen. I should have spoken up. So this is all my fault. She's up there and went through that same nightmare that she went through 11 years ago again all because I didn't say anything." I said as I felt the tears run down my cheeks.
"Edward…" Alice began to say.
"No Alice…just don't." with that I ran out of the room and up the stairs leaving my family to absorb all that I had said and realize that this really was my fault. As I entered Bella's room I saw that she was asleep in her bed just like Carlisle said. She looked so fragile. Like an angel. As I walked up to her bed I thought back on all the pain that I had caused her the past 2 years. As I sat on the bed I carefully lifted her upper body as I carefully laid her head on top of my chest as I laid next to her. My tears still haven't stop flowing since confessed that I could have prevented this whole situation if I had just said something.
"Bella…my sweet wonderful Bella. I'm so sorry. I know that this is all my fault. I should have spoken up when I heard what that guy was thinking but I kept my mouth shut for I heard that Jasper said that I was jealous of your date. I thought that if I had spoken up then well everyone would say that it was really my jealousy and that I was making it up. But that's not all I'm sorry for. I'm sorry that I pushed you away. I was scared that my feelings that I have and have always had for you since I first met you were well growing stronger. I have always loved you Bella and not just as a sister but as much, much more. I know that I shouldn't have pushed you away but I thought that I was doing what was best for the both of us. God I'm so sorry Bella for all of the pain that I've caused you. Please forgive me. Please." I said as my tears began to fall faster.
"I love you too Edward." I heard Bella say in a soft tired voice.
"Bella?" I asked as I looked down at her. Her eyes were partly opened and she was looking at not only my eyes but also into my soul. "Bella I am so sorry."
"Eddie Bear. What happened tonight wasn't your fault. You came for me and you saved me. And I'm glad you finally opened up and told me the real reason why you've been avoiding me. All this time I thought that it was me and something that I did."
"No Bella it was not you it was me. Can you ever forgive me?" I asked as I lightly hugged her.
"Eddie Bear I forgave you a while ago. Just promise me that you will never leave me again. That you'll always be honest with me and how you feel."
"I promise with all of my heart and soul." I said as I kissed her forehead.
"Can you stay with me tonight?" She asked as she snuggled into my chest and maneuvered her body to where she was comfortable.
"Of course I will. My angel." I said as I laid on the bed.
"And Edward…"
"Yes my angel?"
"Will you sing for me?"
As I lightly chuckled at her request I thought of the perfect song to sing to her. "I believe I can do that." As I took a breath and got the melody of the song in my head I quickly kissed Bella once again on the forehead then began to sing the one song that reminded me most of how I feel about Bella and what she really means to me.
"I've been a walking heartache
I've made a mess of me
The person that I've been lately
Ain't who I wanna be
But you stay here right beside me
And watch as the storm blows through
And I need you
Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you
Gave me you
There's more here than what we're seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You'll always be love's great martyr
And I'll be the flattered fool
And I need you
Yeah!
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you
On my own I'm only
Half of what I could be
I can't do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo
Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it's true
God gave me you, gave me you.
He gave me you."
"Hey Edward." Bella said as I finished the song.
"Yes my love?"
"He gave me you too." And with that Bella fell asleep in my arms and I could hear my family all saying 'It's about time.' And for once they were right.
Aww how sweet is Edward singing that particular song? Well 4 all of you who are wondering that song is "God Gave Me You" sung by Blake Shelton. FYI it is a country song.
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