Disclaimer: Any Trigun characters featured here are not mine but any
personality differences that did not appear in the show were doctored by
me.
***Yo! Yo! Yo! Such a hard decision..so I did something... I put a little something that could please some people..hopefully. Read on, my friends! Read on! I have enjoyed this writing thoroughly! ^.^ Enjoy!
Epilogue: My True Love
I run down the hallway.
`This has been a tough decision but..this is the right one! I should have known all along that he is the one that I was meant to love!`
Of course I can`t find either of them anywhere. I had to make sure to avoid the other one to not be caught in a confrontation.
`That wouldn`t be good right now. That`s all I would need..to hurt him.`
I see Milly. I decide not to ask about him as this would just make her ask questions. Too many questions. She smiles at me and waves when I race by.
"Meryl, where are you off to in such a hurry?" she calls after me. I don`t say anything back. My shoes rapidly pound the wooden floor then skid as I stop only long enough to open the door.
"I can`t talk right now!" I call back "I`m busy!"
"Okay!" she replies. I shake my head.
`Sometimes I wonder if she even listens to what I`m saying.`
I peer out into the desert landscape. The sun reflects off of it and makes it impossible for me to see anything.
`Damn it! I was hoping that he would be out here! Maybe..`
"So, spider, have you made your decision?"
I turn around. My heart feels like it stopped.
`Knives..`
I point to the bench.
"Sit down with me."
"If you insist." he mutters. I sit down. He sits down beside me. He doesn`t look at me for awhile. He stares at nothing for what seems like several minutes. I stare at him with curious eyes.
`I wonder what he`s thinking about.`
"This planet is so disgusting." he says. I come out of my thoughts. I nod slightly.
"It may not be pretty to look at now but I think that it will become a more liveable environment in time."
"Do you actually believe that?"
"Yes. I do. Nothing you say will ever change how I feel either."
He laughs. His laugh sounds different somehow. It doesn`t have that bitter and hateful tone. It sounds more nervous as it did yesterday. I am surprised to hear it like that again. I wanted to imagine that it was a dream.
"I did not think that you would. I never intended to try and change your mind. I do learn from experience. Your attitude is revolting and unfit for a spider. You are all supposed to be fearful of us."
My eyes narrow.
"That`s not what we are supposed to be."
"Yes it is...but not for you. You have invoked a tormenting interest in me and I cannot help but have a certain place for you in whatever resides inside my chest. I hate it honestly. I want to hate you. I."
"Shut up, Knives."
He seems amused at my boldness. I feel the tears in my eyes well up.
"What is your problem?" he asks. Suddenly his voice doesn`t sound so strange. It sounds empty. I look at him.
"Despite your looks on life and the rude things that you say about my race..I love you."
He blinks at the words. He keeps the same montone look on his face. He opens his muth to speak. I shake my head.
"But...my heart does not belong to you."
The look on his face changes. I have to look away from him. I can`t describe what I saw in his eyes. The best I can put it is that his soul, or whatever had been a soul, became extinguished in that one moment. Despite who he was before and what he still is I love him.
"...Vash is on the roof." I hear him say. I want to ask why he told me where Vash was and why he isn`t killing me but I cannot. When I look up to speak he`s gone. I don`t look for him. I know that I will never see him again..at least not in the way that I came to know him these past few weeks. I wipe my eyes again and sniffle. I feel a smile growing on my face.
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I open the trapdoor to the roof. I see him there watching the sun as it climbs into the sky. He never usually sits on the roof. He always complained of the heat. I always used to tell him what a fool he was since he had once travelled for over a century in a desert planet. He looks over his shoulder at me. He smiles.
"What are you doing up here?"
"I came up to talk to you, Vash."
He pats the space beside him. He always did that for me. I know what I want to say to him but it feels strange that it will actually come out. What I say will change my life forever. I sit beside him.
"What did you want to say?"
"Remember when Milly and I first met you?"
His eyes brighten at the mention of those times. He nods and that stupid grin spreads across his face.
"I`ll never forget that."
"I didn`t think that you honestly were the legendary Vash The Stampede. I didn`t want to think that because you were such an idiot."
"Hey! Don`t be so harsh!" he whines. I giggle.
"You went after any girl that was beautiful. After I found out that you were the real thing I became infactuated with you. I tried to shake it off like it was all in my mind...but I couldn`t. Everything you did was selfless and everyone you helped became your friends. I wanted to be with you and to comfort you when your brother`s henchmen hurt you. I wasn`t strong enough to."
As I tell him things that were buried within my heart Vash remains silent. His face is unreadable.
"It wasn`t just the girls that I was jealous of anymore. I was jealous of all of those people that you could get along with so well. I`m not the easiest person to get along with."
"That`s an understatement!"
Mu cheeks grow red. I take a swipe at him with my hand. He backs away just out of reach. He breaks out into his hideous laughter. I can`t help but smile.
"Anything else you wanted to say?" he asks. I nod.
"I talked to Knives a few minutes ago."
Vash`s smile quickly fades. He averts his eyes from mine.
"Really? Well..I guess that you two will be off then. I`ll...I`ll miss you, Meryl."
I shake my head.
"What makes you think that I`m going with him?"
Now it`s his turn to blush. He starts laughing nervously. He does that continuously for what seems like five minutes. I grow a little imaptient. I manage to slap him playfully on the knee.
"Stop laughing!"
He stops. His lips curl into that nervous smile.
"S...Sure, Meryl!"
I sit back and stare at him.
`He still acts like such a child....but there`s still that irresistable charm that I`ve always known and loved.`
We remain silent. Now Vash is staring at me. I want him to say something. I can`t think of anything. My mind is running on a blank.
"Um...so...Meryl....what is your decision?"
I want to choke him.
`He can`t read between the lines?!`
I realize that he`s teasing me when that warm smile grips upon his face. I reach out to smack him only to stop myself. I lean back up. A strand of my hair blows into my face. I reach up to move it but Vash moves quicker than I do. He reaches his right hand up and brushes it aside. He rests his hand against my cheek.
"Did you honestly think that you were not beautiful to me back on our adventures?"
Tears brim in my eyes. His thumb wipes them gently from the cheek that it remains on. I nod. A small tremer runs through his hand.
"....I am so sorry. I wasn`t very nice about noticing what was happening to you due to my own actions. In my own quest to defeat my brother once and for all I didn`t notice. I didn`t treat you like a friend."
I reach up my trembling hands to grasp his extended wrist. My fingers trail over his hand as he spoke. He looks so sad. My own instinct is to get him out of that sadness. I forcibly shake my head back and forth quickly.
"No, Vash! Don`t apologize! I should have given you more space! I should have left you alone in the first place! I must have made you feel worse! I went so far as to question why so many bad things happen because you were around! I was the one who hurt you!"
My tears trickle down and run along the edges of his hands. They fall into my lap. His eyes shine. His own tears begin to run. I wait for him to speak. He moves his hand away from my cheek. I let go of it. He places it on my shoulder. His other arm comes down on my other shoulder.
"Meryl...I love you." he whispers. Grasping my shoulders he pulls me against him in a strong embrace. My tears that I have in my eyes run down my cheeks. I rest my head on his chest and close my eyes.
"I love you too." I whisper back. He lets go of me. I lean my head up to peer into his sea green eyes. I smile. His head moves closer and his lips part. I close my eyes. My lips part as I move forward. Our lips meet and everything that I had feared up until this moment vanished for these few minutes of total happiness.
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It`s been about five years since we left them. Milly and Wolfwood send us postcards from time to time. I hear that they have two children of their own already. I`m so happy for them. I promised them that I would come and see them. In fact Vash agreed that we should visit. After all we haven`t seen them and they need to meet our son Blaise.
I sent them many postcards back telling them about the life that Vash and I started in July. Vash has another job that involves construction. I stayed at home after I became pregnant early on. After the birth I decided to devote all of my time and energy to raising him. Vash was all too happy for me to do that.
Blaise looks a lot like Vash except for the color of his eyes which resemble mine. He has an energy that I cannot match. I suppose that all children have that. He loves hearing stories about the adventures we had with Vash. When he asks about his uncle I take a split second to remember Knives. I never have answered anything that he asked about. I can`t. Somewhere deep inside I feel pity for him. I never have regretted my decision. I truly love Vash with all of my heart and soul.
Sometimes...I can`t help but wonder what life would have been like...
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****I originally planned on making it Vash/Meryl since they just started to make more since but then Knives did in a creepy sort of way. For all of you Knives fans out there this chapter is for you. This is the alternate ending beginning where Meryl is talking to Knives after running into him.
"What is your problem?" he asks. Suddenly his voice doesn`t sound so strange. It sounds empty. I look at him.
"I don`t honestly know why I can`t just go with what my brain tells me. I should do what it tells me. If not..then I`m not sure if I would be truly happy. My heart though..it tells me something else."
"Just say it! Get to the point!" he snaps back at me. I can`t help but roll my eyes.
`He`ll never change.`
"Knives..just shut up for once."
He smirks.
"Why should I do that, human...I mean Meryl."
`At least he`s trying.`
I motion for him to sit down. He stays where he is. I sigh aloud in frustration.
"Humor me, Knives!"
He shrugs. He sits down beside me. He`s looking out into the desert with an unreadable face.
"Go on." he says "You did have more on your mind than that, right?"
"Um..yes."
"You want to know where Vash is right now, don`t you?"
"Well..."
"He is on the roof. Go on. He is waiting for you."
It strikes me as he gets up to leave.
`He thinks that I...`
"Knives, listen!"
"Go on. Leave me alone! I am going to leave anyways. I cannot have you wasting my time for trivial..."
I stand up and grab his gloved hand. He whirls around on me as if to yell at me. Tears threaten to escape my eyes.
"Stop being so stubborn! I came looking for you and you alone! I had no intention for looking for Vash! That would complicate things! I came to tell you that you are the one that I want to be with and that I want to go with you!" I snap aloud. At first he does nothing. Sweat begins to form along his narrowed brow. He just stares back into my eyes with his blue eyes with intensity.
"...You better not be lying."
I slap him. He deserves it. Here I am confessing my heart to him and he goes and opens his big mouth.
`This better be the right decision...or he`ll get more than a slap from me!`
I avert my eyes from his. I can`t look up at him right now. His reaction to my choice was not what I expected. I originally believed that he would gloat around and hurt Vash`s feelings. Well...I guess that could still happen.
"I want to leave now." I say aloud.
"Why? I did not plan on leaving until..."
"I can`t face Vash. I just can`t. I don`t want to see that look on his face. He has meant much to me in my life and I don`t want to see his heart crushed."
"You would have crushed my heart if you had told him."
My hand instinctively tightens around his own.
"I wouldn`t have done that."
"Yes you would have. Despite our current situation it would not have crossed your mind to avoid me completely. I am certain that running into me would be on account of you not trying hard enough."
I know that he is right. I wouldn`t have avoided him like this. If I had decided on Vash I would have looked for him. If I had run into Knives along the way it would have been because I was not careful.
"....Let`s go, Knives."
"Don`t you want to go pack or something?"
"No. I already did that. I have whatever I need with me."
I squeeze his hand again. He does nothing for a few minutes. Dust picks up around us. He returns the squeeze. Together we leave the porch. We don`t grab one of the bikes or a Thomas. We walk with our own legs away from the house. I never look back at it. I know that if I did I would only run back. It wouldn`t be to go to vash. It would be where my heart has truly felt like home.
I`m not really sure now if I even love Knives. Yes. I did pick him....but not like I felt for him when he had amnesia. Then he was much like Vash.
`But I picked him over Vash...so there must be something more there.`
Maybe it will come to me in time. I will most likely never see any of my friends again. Wherever Knives plans to go...I know that it will be us for the majority. He wants to destroy humanity. I won`t let him. If he loves me at all he will listen to me.
Maybe my choice was foolish. Deep down I disagree.
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My eyes survey the desert sand. Knives is out there standing on one of the dunes. He comes back towards me. That sly smirk lights upon his lips.
"The town is in sight. We will reside there for a few days then move on. I want to look around. I have to know the town`s weaknesses."
I roll my eyes.
"You have a one track mind."
He embraces me suddenly.
"Two track mind."
"You`re disgusting."
He laughs maniacally. I can`t help but smile. Despite his attitude I had found it in my heart over these past few monthes to truly love him. I realize that he can`t show his feelings like I can. He`s not anyone else. He is Millions Knives. He tried to destroy all of humanity. He is trying it again...but I don`t regret my decision. I will never regret it.
"Shall we depart?" he asks in that annoyingly badass sounding voice. I do a mock bow.
"After you."
He chuckles. He lets go of me. I take his hand. His eyes stare into mine intensely. He does this a lot. They avert from my own. He always turns before me. I think that somewhere in his mind he still sees me as just a human...like he should not be with me at all but he never tells me to go.
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In the hotel I stare out the window of the hotel. My eyes center on the moon hanging in the night sky. I look back at Knives who is asleep on the bed. My lips curve into a smile.
`A damned lunatic....but he is my lunatic.`
I make my way over to him. I crawl into bed next to him. My head leans against his shoulder. He mumbles something. I`m not sure what he said. I turn over and lay my arm across his chest. I close my eyes.
At times even like this when I could not feel happier..I can`t help but think...what if I had chosen differently...
***Yes. This is truly the end of this fic. Honestly I saw Vash/Meryl being more intimate at the end and Knives/Meryl more social because Knives is back to his old self. It made sense to end them in the ways that I did. Thank you so much to all of my reviewers out there. I am so happy that so many people liked it. I tried hard to make this story enjoyable.
Anyways..I`m leaving for college on Friday, Aug. 23 so I had to finish this one for all of you out there. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it! ^.^
***Yo! Yo! Yo! Such a hard decision..so I did something... I put a little something that could please some people..hopefully. Read on, my friends! Read on! I have enjoyed this writing thoroughly! ^.^ Enjoy!
Epilogue: My True Love
I run down the hallway.
`This has been a tough decision but..this is the right one! I should have known all along that he is the one that I was meant to love!`
Of course I can`t find either of them anywhere. I had to make sure to avoid the other one to not be caught in a confrontation.
`That wouldn`t be good right now. That`s all I would need..to hurt him.`
I see Milly. I decide not to ask about him as this would just make her ask questions. Too many questions. She smiles at me and waves when I race by.
"Meryl, where are you off to in such a hurry?" she calls after me. I don`t say anything back. My shoes rapidly pound the wooden floor then skid as I stop only long enough to open the door.
"I can`t talk right now!" I call back "I`m busy!"
"Okay!" she replies. I shake my head.
`Sometimes I wonder if she even listens to what I`m saying.`
I peer out into the desert landscape. The sun reflects off of it and makes it impossible for me to see anything.
`Damn it! I was hoping that he would be out here! Maybe..`
"So, spider, have you made your decision?"
I turn around. My heart feels like it stopped.
`Knives..`
I point to the bench.
"Sit down with me."
"If you insist." he mutters. I sit down. He sits down beside me. He doesn`t look at me for awhile. He stares at nothing for what seems like several minutes. I stare at him with curious eyes.
`I wonder what he`s thinking about.`
"This planet is so disgusting." he says. I come out of my thoughts. I nod slightly.
"It may not be pretty to look at now but I think that it will become a more liveable environment in time."
"Do you actually believe that?"
"Yes. I do. Nothing you say will ever change how I feel either."
He laughs. His laugh sounds different somehow. It doesn`t have that bitter and hateful tone. It sounds more nervous as it did yesterday. I am surprised to hear it like that again. I wanted to imagine that it was a dream.
"I did not think that you would. I never intended to try and change your mind. I do learn from experience. Your attitude is revolting and unfit for a spider. You are all supposed to be fearful of us."
My eyes narrow.
"That`s not what we are supposed to be."
"Yes it is...but not for you. You have invoked a tormenting interest in me and I cannot help but have a certain place for you in whatever resides inside my chest. I hate it honestly. I want to hate you. I."
"Shut up, Knives."
He seems amused at my boldness. I feel the tears in my eyes well up.
"What is your problem?" he asks. Suddenly his voice doesn`t sound so strange. It sounds empty. I look at him.
"Despite your looks on life and the rude things that you say about my race..I love you."
He blinks at the words. He keeps the same montone look on his face. He opens his muth to speak. I shake my head.
"But...my heart does not belong to you."
The look on his face changes. I have to look away from him. I can`t describe what I saw in his eyes. The best I can put it is that his soul, or whatever had been a soul, became extinguished in that one moment. Despite who he was before and what he still is I love him.
"...Vash is on the roof." I hear him say. I want to ask why he told me where Vash was and why he isn`t killing me but I cannot. When I look up to speak he`s gone. I don`t look for him. I know that I will never see him again..at least not in the way that I came to know him these past few weeks. I wipe my eyes again and sniffle. I feel a smile growing on my face.
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I open the trapdoor to the roof. I see him there watching the sun as it climbs into the sky. He never usually sits on the roof. He always complained of the heat. I always used to tell him what a fool he was since he had once travelled for over a century in a desert planet. He looks over his shoulder at me. He smiles.
"What are you doing up here?"
"I came up to talk to you, Vash."
He pats the space beside him. He always did that for me. I know what I want to say to him but it feels strange that it will actually come out. What I say will change my life forever. I sit beside him.
"What did you want to say?"
"Remember when Milly and I first met you?"
His eyes brighten at the mention of those times. He nods and that stupid grin spreads across his face.
"I`ll never forget that."
"I didn`t think that you honestly were the legendary Vash The Stampede. I didn`t want to think that because you were such an idiot."
"Hey! Don`t be so harsh!" he whines. I giggle.
"You went after any girl that was beautiful. After I found out that you were the real thing I became infactuated with you. I tried to shake it off like it was all in my mind...but I couldn`t. Everything you did was selfless and everyone you helped became your friends. I wanted to be with you and to comfort you when your brother`s henchmen hurt you. I wasn`t strong enough to."
As I tell him things that were buried within my heart Vash remains silent. His face is unreadable.
"It wasn`t just the girls that I was jealous of anymore. I was jealous of all of those people that you could get along with so well. I`m not the easiest person to get along with."
"That`s an understatement!"
Mu cheeks grow red. I take a swipe at him with my hand. He backs away just out of reach. He breaks out into his hideous laughter. I can`t help but smile.
"Anything else you wanted to say?" he asks. I nod.
"I talked to Knives a few minutes ago."
Vash`s smile quickly fades. He averts his eyes from mine.
"Really? Well..I guess that you two will be off then. I`ll...I`ll miss you, Meryl."
I shake my head.
"What makes you think that I`m going with him?"
Now it`s his turn to blush. He starts laughing nervously. He does that continuously for what seems like five minutes. I grow a little imaptient. I manage to slap him playfully on the knee.
"Stop laughing!"
He stops. His lips curl into that nervous smile.
"S...Sure, Meryl!"
I sit back and stare at him.
`He still acts like such a child....but there`s still that irresistable charm that I`ve always known and loved.`
We remain silent. Now Vash is staring at me. I want him to say something. I can`t think of anything. My mind is running on a blank.
"Um...so...Meryl....what is your decision?"
I want to choke him.
`He can`t read between the lines?!`
I realize that he`s teasing me when that warm smile grips upon his face. I reach out to smack him only to stop myself. I lean back up. A strand of my hair blows into my face. I reach up to move it but Vash moves quicker than I do. He reaches his right hand up and brushes it aside. He rests his hand against my cheek.
"Did you honestly think that you were not beautiful to me back on our adventures?"
Tears brim in my eyes. His thumb wipes them gently from the cheek that it remains on. I nod. A small tremer runs through his hand.
"....I am so sorry. I wasn`t very nice about noticing what was happening to you due to my own actions. In my own quest to defeat my brother once and for all I didn`t notice. I didn`t treat you like a friend."
I reach up my trembling hands to grasp his extended wrist. My fingers trail over his hand as he spoke. He looks so sad. My own instinct is to get him out of that sadness. I forcibly shake my head back and forth quickly.
"No, Vash! Don`t apologize! I should have given you more space! I should have left you alone in the first place! I must have made you feel worse! I went so far as to question why so many bad things happen because you were around! I was the one who hurt you!"
My tears trickle down and run along the edges of his hands. They fall into my lap. His eyes shine. His own tears begin to run. I wait for him to speak. He moves his hand away from my cheek. I let go of it. He places it on my shoulder. His other arm comes down on my other shoulder.
"Meryl...I love you." he whispers. Grasping my shoulders he pulls me against him in a strong embrace. My tears that I have in my eyes run down my cheeks. I rest my head on his chest and close my eyes.
"I love you too." I whisper back. He lets go of me. I lean my head up to peer into his sea green eyes. I smile. His head moves closer and his lips part. I close my eyes. My lips part as I move forward. Our lips meet and everything that I had feared up until this moment vanished for these few minutes of total happiness.
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It`s been about five years since we left them. Milly and Wolfwood send us postcards from time to time. I hear that they have two children of their own already. I`m so happy for them. I promised them that I would come and see them. In fact Vash agreed that we should visit. After all we haven`t seen them and they need to meet our son Blaise.
I sent them many postcards back telling them about the life that Vash and I started in July. Vash has another job that involves construction. I stayed at home after I became pregnant early on. After the birth I decided to devote all of my time and energy to raising him. Vash was all too happy for me to do that.
Blaise looks a lot like Vash except for the color of his eyes which resemble mine. He has an energy that I cannot match. I suppose that all children have that. He loves hearing stories about the adventures we had with Vash. When he asks about his uncle I take a split second to remember Knives. I never have answered anything that he asked about. I can`t. Somewhere deep inside I feel pity for him. I never have regretted my decision. I truly love Vash with all of my heart and soul.
Sometimes...I can`t help but wonder what life would have been like...
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****I originally planned on making it Vash/Meryl since they just started to make more since but then Knives did in a creepy sort of way. For all of you Knives fans out there this chapter is for you. This is the alternate ending beginning where Meryl is talking to Knives after running into him.
"What is your problem?" he asks. Suddenly his voice doesn`t sound so strange. It sounds empty. I look at him.
"I don`t honestly know why I can`t just go with what my brain tells me. I should do what it tells me. If not..then I`m not sure if I would be truly happy. My heart though..it tells me something else."
"Just say it! Get to the point!" he snaps back at me. I can`t help but roll my eyes.
`He`ll never change.`
"Knives..just shut up for once."
He smirks.
"Why should I do that, human...I mean Meryl."
`At least he`s trying.`
I motion for him to sit down. He stays where he is. I sigh aloud in frustration.
"Humor me, Knives!"
He shrugs. He sits down beside me. He`s looking out into the desert with an unreadable face.
"Go on." he says "You did have more on your mind than that, right?"
"Um..yes."
"You want to know where Vash is right now, don`t you?"
"Well..."
"He is on the roof. Go on. He is waiting for you."
It strikes me as he gets up to leave.
`He thinks that I...`
"Knives, listen!"
"Go on. Leave me alone! I am going to leave anyways. I cannot have you wasting my time for trivial..."
I stand up and grab his gloved hand. He whirls around on me as if to yell at me. Tears threaten to escape my eyes.
"Stop being so stubborn! I came looking for you and you alone! I had no intention for looking for Vash! That would complicate things! I came to tell you that you are the one that I want to be with and that I want to go with you!" I snap aloud. At first he does nothing. Sweat begins to form along his narrowed brow. He just stares back into my eyes with his blue eyes with intensity.
"...You better not be lying."
I slap him. He deserves it. Here I am confessing my heart to him and he goes and opens his big mouth.
`This better be the right decision...or he`ll get more than a slap from me!`
I avert my eyes from his. I can`t look up at him right now. His reaction to my choice was not what I expected. I originally believed that he would gloat around and hurt Vash`s feelings. Well...I guess that could still happen.
"I want to leave now." I say aloud.
"Why? I did not plan on leaving until..."
"I can`t face Vash. I just can`t. I don`t want to see that look on his face. He has meant much to me in my life and I don`t want to see his heart crushed."
"You would have crushed my heart if you had told him."
My hand instinctively tightens around his own.
"I wouldn`t have done that."
"Yes you would have. Despite our current situation it would not have crossed your mind to avoid me completely. I am certain that running into me would be on account of you not trying hard enough."
I know that he is right. I wouldn`t have avoided him like this. If I had decided on Vash I would have looked for him. If I had run into Knives along the way it would have been because I was not careful.
"....Let`s go, Knives."
"Don`t you want to go pack or something?"
"No. I already did that. I have whatever I need with me."
I squeeze his hand again. He does nothing for a few minutes. Dust picks up around us. He returns the squeeze. Together we leave the porch. We don`t grab one of the bikes or a Thomas. We walk with our own legs away from the house. I never look back at it. I know that if I did I would only run back. It wouldn`t be to go to vash. It would be where my heart has truly felt like home.
I`m not really sure now if I even love Knives. Yes. I did pick him....but not like I felt for him when he had amnesia. Then he was much like Vash.
`But I picked him over Vash...so there must be something more there.`
Maybe it will come to me in time. I will most likely never see any of my friends again. Wherever Knives plans to go...I know that it will be us for the majority. He wants to destroy humanity. I won`t let him. If he loves me at all he will listen to me.
Maybe my choice was foolish. Deep down I disagree.
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My eyes survey the desert sand. Knives is out there standing on one of the dunes. He comes back towards me. That sly smirk lights upon his lips.
"The town is in sight. We will reside there for a few days then move on. I want to look around. I have to know the town`s weaknesses."
I roll my eyes.
"You have a one track mind."
He embraces me suddenly.
"Two track mind."
"You`re disgusting."
He laughs maniacally. I can`t help but smile. Despite his attitude I had found it in my heart over these past few monthes to truly love him. I realize that he can`t show his feelings like I can. He`s not anyone else. He is Millions Knives. He tried to destroy all of humanity. He is trying it again...but I don`t regret my decision. I will never regret it.
"Shall we depart?" he asks in that annoyingly badass sounding voice. I do a mock bow.
"After you."
He chuckles. He lets go of me. I take his hand. His eyes stare into mine intensely. He does this a lot. They avert from my own. He always turns before me. I think that somewhere in his mind he still sees me as just a human...like he should not be with me at all but he never tells me to go.
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In the hotel I stare out the window of the hotel. My eyes center on the moon hanging in the night sky. I look back at Knives who is asleep on the bed. My lips curve into a smile.
`A damned lunatic....but he is my lunatic.`
I make my way over to him. I crawl into bed next to him. My head leans against his shoulder. He mumbles something. I`m not sure what he said. I turn over and lay my arm across his chest. I close my eyes.
At times even like this when I could not feel happier..I can`t help but think...what if I had chosen differently...
***Yes. This is truly the end of this fic. Honestly I saw Vash/Meryl being more intimate at the end and Knives/Meryl more social because Knives is back to his old self. It made sense to end them in the ways that I did. Thank you so much to all of my reviewers out there. I am so happy that so many people liked it. I tried hard to make this story enjoyable.
Anyways..I`m leaving for college on Friday, Aug. 23 so I had to finish this one for all of you out there. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it! ^.^