This is a seqel to That day, It still haunts me , It's going to be short and un-betaed so please forgive me. I strongly reccoment listening to, Shot in the dark- Within Temptation while reading this.

HOLY CRAP I THOUGHT I POSTED THIS ALREADY D: DON'T KILL ME I SWEAR I THOUGHT I POSTED IT LIKE A DAY AFTER THE FIRST CHAPTER!

{Naruto's POV}

Why? Why had it taken so long for you to react? Why had it taken you so long to save me Sasuke?

I still vividly remember that day, even now, a year later. I remember how everyone cowered in fear, includeing me. I remember how he squeezed my throat until I could not breath, I thought he was going to kill me.

I remember how he pounded into my so relentlessly, moaning and groaning as he did so. I remember the sobs and gunshots that echo around in my head to this very day. I remember the painful look in Kakashi's eyes and Iruka's muffled cries as Kakashi held him close.

I remember how Kyuubi pulled my arm behind my back, how it felt as if it was going to break. I remember how you looked at me, that look in your eyes... That sad look, the murder in your eyes.

You killed him, when I thought he was moveing it was not even him. I beat a dead man to a bloody pulp, I have blood on my hands, tho you can not see it, I can. That crimson red liquid that drips from my fingertips, the liquid that smears along my face when I touch it, the liquid that mixes with the water of the shower and turnes it to a murky red then washes away down the drain. That invisible blood that stains my body right down to my damaged soul.

Yes, tho you can not see it my love, I can.

I never knew I was capible of harming someone like that, makeing blood splatter all around their unmoveing body. The demon inside of me was let loose for only a moment and see how much damage it caused? It seeks blood and gore.

The demon inside of me is nothing more than a monster, something I have created inside of my mind and can not get out. My father, my real father had created that moster and passed it down to me. His only son, tho he could not be with me and watch as it happened, he wanted to destroy me.

Yet I am stronger than that, even tho I let the monster take over for a breif moment I will never let it happen again. I have to be strong for my lover, my family, my friends, I have to be strong for myself.

But this question, it keeps bugging me. Takeing over my brain at times, repeating itself. So now, a year later I am determaned to find out the answer.

Why did it take you so long to save me, my love?

I slowly made my way to your study room, knowing that is where you normally were this time of day. You always studied hard and worked even harder, you were a great man Sasuke. You're father would be proud of you if he saw how hard you worked each and every single day.

Yet you always found time for me, you were the perfect lover. I could not ask for anyone better, you completed me and you were aware of that fact too. You didn't tease and taunt me as much as you use to sense the day Kyuubi done his dirty deeds at our school.

You tell me not to think about that day, to block it out and live my life like I use to, but you don't understand. It isn't that easy my love, I've tried blocking it out and push it to the back of my mind, but it always finds a way into my mind and wrecks me to the core.

I hardly let a true smile show anymore, most of them are fake. You are one of the rare people who can get a genuine smile out of me tho, you've always had the ability to either piss me off the worst or make me smile the most.

I hear my sock clad feet shuffling across the carpeted floor of our house as I walk to your study room. Yes our house, you had asked me to marry you a few months after the incident and I was happy to say yes.

You were the love of my life and no matter what happened or had happened, how could I say not to you? You've done nothing sense that day but try and make me the happiest person alive, even before that day, you did that.

And I was very happy to be with you and you alone, we completed one another.

Without you I would have crumpled up and faded away by now, you've kept me here in this world, you are my anker.

I reached the thick door made of maple and ever so slowly pushed it open, trying to be as quiet as I could be. I didn't want to disturb you but I had waited to long to ask this question, I needed to know the answer.

I looked up with dull blue eyes to see you sitting at your desk reading a thick book, studying. You raised your head to look at me with a small smile, but it faltered once you saw me. I looked like a zombie, I knew. My movements were slow and sluggish, my face completely blank as I looked at you.

I walked into the room and shut the door behind me just in case someone decided to come visit, I didn't want us to be disturbed right now.

I heard you say my name as I walked closer to you, you looked scared. For a brief moment I wondered if you were scared of me, but I quickly pushed that thought away, I knew you were not scared of me, but for me.

There were not many days when I walked around looking determined and lost at the same time. I looked like I was searching for something and I was. I was searching for a single answer to a single question.

The question that had bugged me sense the day I was raped in front of everyone I cared about.

There I go again, letting those thoughts enter my mind and crush my heart a little more. Maybe after I got the answer to this question my heart wouldn't feel so heavy, maybe I would feel just a bit better, that's all I wanted.

I wanted to be better.

{Sasuke's POV}

I watched as you shuffled closer to me with that dead look in you're eyes, I had only saw that look a few times. Mostly when you were feeling horrible and thinking about that day until you couldn't think straight anymore.

I slowly stood up and touched your arm as you stopped near me, there was something wrong and I knew it.

"Are you alright Naruto?" I asked you quietly.

You shook your head and looked me straight in the eyes, "I need to know something." you said in a quiet voice.

I placed the book that was in my left hand down on my desk and turned back to you. Anything you wanted to know, anything you asked me, I would not lie to you. I would never lie to you and you knew this, just like I knew you would never lie to me, no matter what it was about.

"What would that be?" My voice came out just as quietly as yours had.

I wanted to erase that look of death that you wearing, I had to. Seeing you like this was my biggest fear, I just wanted you to be happy again. I would do anything and everything to make you're old self come back, even if it wasn't completely the old you.

I just wanted you to be better.

I looked into your eyes and knew right away this wasn't just some stupid question you wanted an answer too, this was serious. I straightened up and waited for you to speak, I would wait and listen as long as I needed too, no matter how long it took you to ask.

"Why..." You started, looking me directly in the eyes. "Why did it take you so long to react, to save me that day?"

My eyes widened and my arm fell from your shoulder, the feeling of guilt washed over me like a tidal wave. I often asked myself this question, But I never thought you would ask me this.

I had wanted to save you, to rush forward and kill the boy who dared touch you in ways like that. I wanted so badly to do just that, but fear held me back.

"I was selfish." I whispered, to me or you I wasn't exactly sure.

I flicked my onyx eyes back up to look into yours, having lowered them when in thought. I was selfish that day and I have regretted not doing anything sooner every sense it happened.

"I was afraid that if I made a move he would hurt you worse, or hurt me." I admitted. "I couldn't live without you, I was afraid that one of us would get killed. I didn't want to die and leave you alone, I didn't want you to die and leave me." I grasped your hand and took a step closer to you.

{Naruto's POV}

I listened to you speak to me in a sad, honest tone. You grasped my hand and squeezed it gently, my eyes showed more life than before yet they were still dead, that blue grey color that took them over clouded over the bright blue that was once there.

"You didn't move because you were afraid one of us would get killed..." I whispered back your words. "Selfish..."

Was that selfish? Was I selfish? I remember telling you and the others not to move, not to help me because I didn't want anyone else to get hurt. Did that make me selfish as well?

All this time I had thought you didn't help me sooner because you didn't want to, because I wasn't worth it, but a small part of me knew that was a lie, I was your everything, as were you mine.

"I thought I wasn't worth it." I admitted, knowing you would erase all insecurities right here and now.

And you did.

Your hands gripped both of my shoulders and you looked me dead in the eyes, a stern look on your face.

"I would do anything for you, I would give my life for you if I had to. You are the most important person in my life and always will be Naruto. Nothing will ever come between us and I will always help you when you need help. I wanted so badly to lash out and beat that mother fucker until he wasn't breathing anymore, It was hard sitting there watching that happen to the only person I love. You always were and always will be worth it Naruto, do you understand me?"

I felt your thumb swipe under my left eye and realized you were wiping away stray tears that I hadn't noticed were falling from my eyes. I nodded and wrapped my arms around your neck tightly, never wanting to let go.

I was right, your words, your answer, had put my heart at ease. Allot more than I figured it would, now I could erase those thoughts of doubt that clouded my mind so often.

I was worth it, maybe not to anyone else, but I was worth it to you and that's all that mattered to me.

I hear you whisper you loved me more than anything in this world as you wrapped your arms around me tightly.

"I love you too, thank you Sasuke."

{Sasuke's POV}

I held onto you with all my might, I didn't want to let you go. I never knew you felt that way or I would have explained sooner. I felt something wet roll down my cheek and realized I was crying as well, just a few tears.

A few tears is more than I have cried sense I was little, only you could make me feel so many emotions at once Naruto.

Only you.

You were the one person who accepted me without a care in the world, you didn't care that I had killed that boy. All my faults were looked past and my flaws were cherished by you, nothing mattered as long as we had each other.

I felt allot better now that we had gotten that straight, a weight seemed to be lifted off of my chest and my heart didn't hurt anymore.

And as I held onto you and cried softly into your shoulder I was sure that nothing else mattered but you and you alone.

Together we can make it, me and you,

together we can erase the past and start anew,

together as long as it's just me and you.