A/N: The spoilers for tonight's episode (3x14), plus a post on tumblr (cooperbastian(.) tumblr(.) com/post/18004630528/) have made me write this.

I wasn't going for angst, (in fact this was supposed to be an one-shot) but here we are.

I'm sorry for any misspellings I may have committed and let me know if you want me to continue (or not.)

Disclaimer: I own nothing but an annoying, yet cute, little dog that likes to bite me.

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''I'm not gonna stand around and watch you ruin your life by marrying Finn Hudson!'' I'm frustrated and it shows in my voice; but I just can't let her do this. I'm okay with never having her to call mine but I'm not okay with her destroying her future and giving up on her dreams.

''Why do you care if I marry him or not?'' she asks. She is holding my gaze and it seems like she is daring me to say something.

''Because we-'' my voice cracks and I take a second to put it together, ''we are friends and I care about you. I don't wanna see you making a mistake you are gonna regret it for the rest of your life.''

''But why do you care so much? It's my life Quinn, I can choose whoever I want to spend it with.''

I'm speechless for a moment. Trying to figure out what to say.

What the hell!

If I'm gonna lose her for good than why not say everything?

''Because I'm in love with you.''

I see Rachel gasp and she keeps staring at me. I can't read her so I decide to push forward.

''I'm in love with you Rachel. That's it. And I wasn't going to tell you till we were out of here. In my plan, we were going to talk every day; me in New Haven and you in New York, and then one day I would go meet you and take you out to dinner and tell you but-but now, you are marrying him! And I know I don't deserve you either, at least not yet. And I know I have a lot to explain but you have to make a decision now.'' I stop and take a deep breath, Rachel seems to be frozen on time and I just hope she is listening carefully.

''You can go through with this and marry him. Or you can run away and come find me.''

I turn around and walk away before she can answer me.

I walk through everyone already present to see the ''Hudson and Berry union'' and it's only when I reach my car that I let it go and the tears come streaming down my face.

X

The wedding is being held at the school's football field. It's a Saturday and the sun is shining bright, I'm staring at my reflection in the mirror. I need to put my white dress on and get ready if I want to go through with this.

But that is the question isn't it?

Do I want to marry Finn?

Or do I want to run?

I don't know how long I had been staring at myself when I hear footsteps behind me.

I turn around and deep down wish it is her.

But it isn't.

''Burt? What is it? Is Finn okay?''

''Yes he is fine Rachel. He is in the choir room with the rest of your friends and Mr. Schue. I told them that you would meet them there.''

''What? Why? That isn't on the schedule.'' He finally makes eye contact and I can sense something bad happened. ''What is it?''

The answer I get makes me wish I hadn't asked.

X

Mr. Schue is the first one to see me when I walk into the room; ''Rachel?''

Finn looks up at me and frowns, ''my mom just said you cancelled the wedding. Why?''

''It's Quinn. After-after we argued about an hour ago, she left and was in a car crash.'' I haven't been able to stop crying ever since Burt told me. I don't remember my exact words I just know I told him to cancel everything and take me to the hospital. He was now waiting for me outside while I give the news to my friends.

''She's at the hospital and- and they don't know if she is going to make it.''

They all look at me with shock expressions and Brittany starts to cry.

I start to walk away because I need to see her, when a hand grabs my arm and turns me around.

''Where are you going Rach?" Finn asks me.

''To see her.'' I try to free myself from him but he doesn't let me.

''Why? Why do you need to cancel the wedding and leave?"

Unbelievable.

''You are kidding me.''

''No.''

''Finn let me go right now.''

''Not until you tell me why. We can get married and then-''

''Quinn may die Finn! Die! As in, pass away. As in never speak, move, breathe or laugh ever again! Are you really that ignorant to think I would continue with this after that?'' I scream at his face but he is still holding me tight. I low my voice and take a step forward, ''Now let me go or I swear to God you are gonna regret it.''

He is caught off guard by my treat and finally frees my arm. I don't wait another second before running.

X

I have been awake for a few minutes now. Or I think a few minutes have passed. Honestly my head is spinning and I have no idea what is happening. From head to toe; everything burns.

Every beep the, what I assume it is a machine makes, sends a wave of pain through my skull.

The imagines from the accident are loud and clear in my head.

I was looking at my phone. But I can't remember why. I can't remember anything besides the accident really. Anything besides the noises while the truck hits me and sends my car meters away.

I open my eyes slowly while they adjust to the light. I hear someone breathing by my right side, and when I try to turn my head a noise comes out of my mouth and a new, excruciating wave of pain hits my neck.

''Shit.'' I curse.

The owner of the brown hair resting against my arm moves and soon big brown eyes are staring at me.

Who is this girl?

She says hi and I can't help but smile at her, her eyes are full with kindness and her voice must be what angels sound like.

''Hello.''

''Are-How are you feeling? The-the doctors didn't know if-if you were going to wake up. You have been sleeping for-for five days you know. I was starting to think you had left m-us.''

She seems to be done with her rambling and I find myself frowning because even tho she is adorable; what the hell?

''I'm sorry but- who are you?''

Her eyes widen ''You-you don't recognize me?''

''No. Should I?''

I start to search through my brain for any indication of who she is but-

Nothing.

Tears start to run down her face and I feel an urge to move forward and hug her. But I stop myself because- she is a stranger. Why would I feel these things about a stranger?

''I'm sorry. Please don't cry. I-I just really don't know who you are.''

''Its-it's okay. Do-do you want me to go get your mother? She is just outside."

My mother? She is here? Then why was she not inside while this girl was?

I decide to let it go for now, ''Yes, that would be great thank you.''

x

I close the door behind me and let myself fall down on my knees.

She doesn't remember me.

I see Judy kneeling down next to me, ''Rachel darling what happened?''

''She doesn't remember me.''

''What-She doesn't- She is awake?"

I see the surprised and the hope in her eyes, I don't know how but I manage to get the words out, ''Yes. And she wants you in there.''

My body is shaking and she helps me to stand up and leads me to the waiting room where Santana and Brittany are. They see me and jump to their feet making their way to me.

''Rachel, what-what happened?" the Latina says and I start to cry even harder.

She throws her arms around me; pulling me in for a hug.

I hear Judy explain to them what happened before kissing the side of my head and walking back to her daughter.

x

Several minutes later I'm in Brittany's arms while Santana goes to get me some water.

It amazes me how closer together this mess has brought us.

Sure, things were better and we called each other ''friends'' before but now, now it was different.

Somehow, we understood each other.

And I don't know what I would have done without them both.

Probably gone mad.

The Latina comes back into the room right when Judy and Dr. Lopez arrive.

I turn my head around so I can be facing them, ''So?''

Dr. Lopez gives me a sympathetic smile, ''She is doing incredibly well. No signs of internal bleeding or brain damage besides-''

''Memory loss.'' I finish for him.

''Yes. She seems to only remember her accident. But that's normal. And expected considering the trauma she had. We should be happy she is conscious and hasn't lost any motor functions.''

I nod because it's true. I should be happy she is awake and talking. And I am. But it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt that she doesn't remember who I am.

She doesn't remember she is in love with me.

And I never got the chance to say I love her back.