Hey Guys, This will be a series of one shots about Finchel, as Finn tries to make up for, as well as re create moments between them. Please read and Review! Enjoy!

"Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. So, you can waste your life drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. "

She's restless. Every year as school comes to a close and summer begins she is restless. She lies in bed and tries to sleep late but really she's just itching to get a jump start on the day. She hates day time TV and she has nothing to study for or to prepare for Glee Club. She likes being busy, she likes having a schedule and a plan and a purpose, she likes organizing her binders and checking homework assignments off her agenda. She doesn't care if it makes her a nerd, she's restless!

She realizes this as she sits at her desk with nothing in front of her. She has completed her morning routine and is ready to take on the day but there is nothing to take on. And like always when she has nothing to distract her, she thinks of him.

Yesterday Finn kissed her in the library, yesterday Finn asked her what she was doing until graduation, but what does it all mean? She loves Finn, like really loves him and it's a secret to no one that she never really stopped but is it enough?

She not exactly sure where they are now, post-break up, post - Quinn, post superman kisses and work dates and Jesse St. James and twelfth place at nationals.

Should she be sure? It all happened so fast, some days she still thinks it's October and he'll be waiting for her at her locker and then she sees him and it's not her locker he is waiting at anymore, it's Quinn's and she finds it hard to breathe.

On especially chilly days in the spring she can almost smell the Christmas trees on the lot that night and she can feel his lips touching hers one last time and she feels her heart break in to a million tiny pieces and it's all happening all over again.

And when Kurt forces her to watch those tedious teen movies and they go to the prom she has to leave the room because she can still feel it. She can feel his eyes on her as she sings, as she dances, as she and Jesse go to get some punch, as she talks to Mercedes and even when she heads for the ladies' room with Tina. She can still feel the slight shift in her chest at the glimmer of hope his predatory gaze provided. 'He still cares!' she remembers thinking as she went to bed that night, giddy at the thought. And she hated herself for it, she was pathetic and desperate and out of her mind because he was back with whom he belonged and why couldn't she see that? And why couldn't she just let go?

See? Restless! "Ugh!" she groaned loudly as she flopped face first onto her bed. And as if he could hear her struggling, the phone rang

"Hello!" she greeted pulling her face away from her pillow

"Hey." He said in that soft voice that made her knees go weak

"Do you- do you like, wanna hang out or something maybe? Like today?" he fumbled and she could only shake her head, after all this time she thought, and he still spoke as if it was their first date

"Yes, Finn. I would love to hang out with you today."

"Awesome! So can I like come over?"

"Sure, I'll see you in about an hour?"

"Yeah, ok. I'll see you then!"

She heard the doorbell and willed herself not to rush the front door like a wild animal in heat.

"Breathe, Rachel." she said to herself in the mirror "Be cool." She scolded her reflection

She opened the door and he gave her a crooked Finn Hudson smile, and just like that, he had crashed back into her life.

"Hi." He said awkwardly standing in the door way

Stop staring and let him walk in the front door you idiot!

"Come in! Come in!" she said too brightly and he probably thought she was so weird and wow she was so nervous

"So…" he started, his hands awkwardly stuffed in his pockets

"So." She echoed

"This is super awkward." He finally said quickly and she let out a mixture of a breath and a laugh

"I know." She agreed "But, it doesn't have to be! Let's just… not be awkward!" she said cheerfully using her hands.

And in a bold attempt at doing just that she reached out both arms and hugged him.

Oh my god. Worst idea ever, Rachel! Oh my god, this is so weird!

"So yeah." He finally said as he pulled away "that….worked."

"I know I'm sorry! That made it 10 times worse! I'm sorry I just- I don't know what to do! I don't know how to act! This all feels so strange!" she cried

"Rachel, you don't have to act. Just- Just be you. And I'll be me and we'll get it back." He promised sincerely as he placed a hand on her shoulder

"Is that what you want?" she asked "to get it back?"

"Well, yeah? Don't you?" he looked hurt

"Yeah, I do. I'm just-"she hesitated and looked at him with scared eyes, he nodded his head slightly, encouraging her to go on

"I'm scared, Finn. I'm terrified! I'm so in love with you and it's scary! Because- because you hurt me so bad last time. I mean- it was me too- I mean I was why we broke up- I just mean-" he puts both hands on her shoulders as she takes a deep breath

"Finn, what I'm trying to say is that I'm really scared of getting hurt again. Like really scared. Because being without you was so painful and seeing you with someone else was even worse and I really don't think- I don't think I could survive it again, Finn. I'm still not over you and I still love you but if we do this again, if I let my guard down and if I love you the way I did before and we- we broke up again I-"

"Hey" he finally interrupted with a pained expression " It's ok to be scared. I'm scared too." She eyed him skeptically "No really, I'm super scared to do this again, because you're right. It hurt so badly when we broke up. And I'm so afraid to be vulnerable again with you-"

"You mean since you broke up with Quinn too?"

"No. I mean I haven't opened myself up, I haven't been vulnerable…since you."

She looked really confused.

"Rachel, I was with Quinn because I didn't have to do those things. I could just be with Quinn and be great on the surface because she never questioned it and she never wanted any more from me, because she doesn't expect any more from me because she doesn't know any better. So I didn't have to be alone and I was distracted and it was just easy. It was all superficial you know? It only went as deep as people could see, so I never really had to open myself up to being hurt again."

She was speechless. She never thought about it like that. It was like her and Jesse she realized. She was never actually going to let him back in, she thinks he was never really there in the first place.

"That- that makes sense." She finally said without looking at him "But-"

"But you're still scared." He finished for her

She nods

"I don't think that will go away for a little while. For either of us. But-" He stops and considers her for a moment

"But, I don't think I can love you the way I do. And feel the way I feel about you and not be with you. It just doesn't make any sense, Rachel. Even if it hurts, even if we fight or whatever. We just- we have to try. Even if we fail, it beats the hell out of never trying at all."

Her eyes soften and he can see the tears that threaten to fall.

"We'll just have to be better this time, Rachel. We'll talk, and we'll tell the truth, about everything. We'll always tell the truth, even when it's scary or embarrassing, even when it hurts. And we'll support each other no matter what."

"And we'll always be on each others' sides. Right? You'll always be on my side?" she asks anxiously

"Always."

She closes her eyes and feels it, physically and emotionally, her armor is gone. She is powerless against it and suddenly, she no longer feels any boundaries between them.

"And I'll defend you, Rachel." He continues "I know I didn't last time, I know that. But I will, I'll be better." He promises

"I'll be better too." She says as she wipes at her tears

"We'll fix it all. We'll get back everything we lost, we'll do it all again. We'll be better this time, I know it."

It was as if she could see his words in the air, she watched as they left his lips and then surrounded her like a warm blanket, she would keep them there to protect her. His promise that this time it would be different, he would be better and she would be better and that they would go back and fix everything they had messed up.