So this is my first Teen Titans Fanfic. Let's all be honest? Who doesn't love BB and Rae? They're just the cutest couple. So anyway, I decided to write this. And I'm gonna be honest with you, I get sidetracked really easily and I'm busy as hell, so I'm not gonna have a certain day I update on. It might be the next week, it might be the next day, it could even be almost a month. Just stick with me, kay? Through the waiting and grammar mistakes! Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I, sadly, do not own Teen Titans. So very much do I wish it was different.

Chapter 1: New

I can't help but glance at him while I'm reading. Why does he have to be so damn cute when he play's his stupid zombie games? Dammit Raven. Damn thoughts. Why does he have to be so damn attractive? The way his messy, green hair sits atop his head. His animalistic jawbones making me squirm. His tone torso, covered by his black and purple uniform, caressing his skin. Oh, his skin. That damn green skin. It makes it easier to feel closer to him, knowing we both deal with discolored skin. I guess that's what makes it so attractive. I mean, no normal girl would find it so attractive. Then again, I'm definitely not a normal girl. I realize I've been slowly getting higher, and I'm a good 10 feet off the ground when I finally hear Beast Boy calling my name.

"Raaaaaavvvvvven! Yo, Rae!" His voice penetrates my thoughts, causing my heart to speed up, much to my dismay. He had turned off his game and was standing on the couch. I lower myself to the ground, making sure to save my spot in my book, and tuck it to my chest.

"Don't call me that." Stupid nickname. "And what do you need?" Thank Azarath I have a monotone voice.

"We're fixing to go get pizza. You coming?" He gives me a questioning look that almost makes me want to puke bunnies.

"I wouldn't miss it, Beast Boy." I give him a small smile back, and he grins at my response. He starts walking towards me when-

"BOO-YAH! It's pizza time!" I wince as Cyborg basically busts down the doors to the commons area. He's lucky they're automatic. Robin and Starfire slowly walk in after him, hand in hand.

"Friends! Let us go enjoy the eating of pizza together!" Starfire leaps in the air, throwing her arms joyously. I wonder if I ever look that happy. Probably not. I don't even think it's possible. I want to slap Cyborg's grin off his face as he walks back through the doors, leading the way to his "baby". I shake my head and smile to myself. We're the weirdest bunch of friends. I walk slowly after them, mulling over my previous thoughts when Starfire walked into the room. I wish I could show that much emotion sometimes. I could show Beast Boy he really does make me happy. I could laugh to my heart's content. I could throw my arms around him and tell him that I love him instead of calling him immature and stupid in fear that if I say something nice, I won't be able to control my powers. I don't realize that I had stopped walking until I feel a tug on my wrist and look up to see Beast Boy. He's a few inches taller than me now, making me slightly look up to him.

"You okay, Raven?" I look into Beast Boy's deep green, concerned eyes. I love his eyes. I look behind him to watch a lightbulb be enveloped in black energy and burst. Good thing he didn't see the black energy. But I know he knows it was me as he looks at the light, then turns his head back towards me.

"I'm fine. Just... thinking. So, are we gonna get pizza, or what?" I smile at him, and he smiles back, but I know he's not going to let it slide as we start to slowly walk back down to the garage, where the rest of the Titans are probably already waiting.

"We can tell Robin about that later." He winks at me, causing me to almost sink to the ground. We're enjoying the slow walk to the garage in silence when he continues the conversation. "So what book are you reading?" I look at him, astounded.

"Uhh, Gone, by Michael Grant." He just showed interest in what I'm reading. Reading. And I'm talking about Beast Boy. I'm still in shock when he continues.

"That sounds interesting, I guess. What's it about?" I can't believe he didn't just see my mind explode. Where is the real Beast Boy, and what have you done with him?

"It's about these kids that live in Perdido Beach, California. One day all the adults above age 14 disappear, and then they start getting these powers. So they have to create an organized system but of course there's an opposing side and-" I pause, noticing the garage door is a few feet away, and we both stop walking. "-and you'll just have to read it, to find out." I smirk at him, knowing how he hates reading. I watch him mull over my words for a minute, deciding if it's really worth it to read the book. His thinking face is so damn cute. Dammit, I sound like a girl.

"Will you give it to me when you're finished with it? It actually sounds pretty good. And you left me at a cliffhanger, so I have to know what happens now!" He face palms, and I chuckle. Did his eyes just light up? "Oh, and whatever's bothering you, I hope it stops. I hate seeing you bothered." He rests his hand on my shoulder and we stare into each other's eyes before I break eye contact and walk into the garage with him on my heels. You are the bother, Beast Boy. And I don't know what to do about it.

We got back from eating pizza 30 minutes ago, which was as crazy as it usually is even though we haven't had any real villains for the past couple of days. It's pretty nice. A few days relaxing, reading, meditating, reflecting… thinking.

I'm watching the sunset, on the roof, like I usually do. Last I checked Cyborg and Beast Boy were in the commons area, playing some racing game, and Starfire and Robin were being their normal mushy, gushy selves. The sunset is so beautiful. I wonder why no one watches it. It's like a whole new take on the world. People don't realize this isn't all there is. There's different dimensions, planets, races, cultures. More people should watch it. Of course, I usually have the roof off limits because I always meditate up here. I refocus and sit the lotus position with my cape off, letting the breeze run through my hair and around my skin. I wonder if Beast Boy ever thinks about me. I hate sounding like a girl. I sound like Starfire, for Azarath's sake. If only he knew how much he means to me. But just looking in his eyes caused that lightbulb to bust. I can't openly express my love without breaking something, melting something, or unintentionally launching something at his head. Well, I could control it, but only after a lot of practice. And frankly, that's something I don't have a lot of practice in. He probably thinks I hate him anyway. I don't laugh at his jokes. I rarely smile at him, I mean, today was probably the most emotion I've showed toward him since the last time Trigon wiped out the world, and that's only because he was being so… not Beast Boy. Not his usual self, anyway. He actually seemed like he cares for what's bothering me. Maybe I should talk to him. No, I couldn't possibly. He couldn't possibly like me. I'm a half-demon. No one could love me. Not even Malchior loved me. My thoughts subside for the moment when I feel another presence enter the roof. I keep my head forward, towards the little sliver of sun that's left in the violet sky as the unexpected guest sits next to me. I glance over to see my green friend, who is staring at the same spot I just was. We sit in silence, watching the sun, until he breaks the comfortable silence when the sun is completely below the horizon.

"Hey." His voice echoes in my mind.

"Hello." What could he possibly want?

"Sooo… What's up?" Is he holding an actual conversation with me?

"Just thinking." I really was thinking…

"...What about?" I was taken aback by his question. No one inquires me about my thoughts. Not even Robin. I hesitated before I answered.

"Today. It was actually, really nice. Different, but enjoyable." He turned his body so he was facing me, leaning back on his hands, looking at me intently. I kept my previous position facing the West.

"I was just thinking the same thing. Today was different. After all, you let me stay on the roof, am I right?" He wiggled his eyebrows at me, taunting me, and I just rolled my eyes. I couldn't help myself as a small giggle escaped my lips. "Was that a laugh? Did Raven just laugh at something I said?" He leaned closer towards me in a questioning manner, and I kept my head facing where the sun used to be. I breathed deeply as a deep forest smell was wafted towards me. His scent. It's intoxicating.

"Don't flatter yourself, I'm in a good mood. I was waiting for you to crack a joke, anyway. This conversation was too dry for you." I turned my head to smirk at him, but instead found myself staring into his emerald eyes, inches away from his face that never moved from when I laughed. Kiss him. Kiss him. Kiss him. You could do it so easily right now. Do it. Bravery was crashing down on top of Timid, and Happy was hyperventilating, but I merely turned my head away in attempt to hide my gray, flushing cheeks.

"Don't do that." His tone got serious, and he furrowed his brows like I did something wrong.

"Do what? I didn't do anything." I swung my head back towards him, locking eyes with him. What did I do? All I did was turn away.

"Turn away and... and hide your face. I came up here because I want to be your friend. I want you to be open with me. I want to know you. You don't treat me like everyone else. They're always laughing at me, and even when I don't crack a joke, they laugh or act disappointed. But not you. No. You're different. You make me feel like I'm more than a jokester to this team." Can I slide off the building? Did he just say something somewhat deep? Are we sure this is Beast Boy? I mulled over this new proposition. Just looking at him, letting him know his thoughts were heard and being thought about.

"I'm different. In a good way, right?" I showed the slightest hint of humor on my face, forcing myself not to full out smile.

"Definitely a good way. And who's the jokester now?" He elbowed me gave me his signature grin. Melt. I chuckled, and the wind blew, giving me chillls. I shivered and turned to reach for my cape, but all I did was find my face in the dark. What on Azarath...? My cape dropped onto my head, and I fought my way out of it, flailing my arms. I got out of it, and fastened it around my neck to look up and see Beast Boy standing triumphantly in front of me. I levitated myself to my feet, frustrated.

"The jokester surprises the empath! Oh yeah! Beast Boy 1: Raven 0." He holds his hands up, one with a single finger up, the other in a circle. I can't help but start cracking up. I find this exchange hilarious for whatever reason. "Uhh, Raven?" I can't stop laughing. What's going on? Happy was on crack or something.

"I'm fine. Those numbers might be a little off. Do you even remember my nightmares?" I raise my eyebrows. His eyes widen, and he grimaces at the memory. "So are we counting before today, or is today the beginning?"

"Today. Today is the beginning." He looks at me and gives me a sincere smile, his fang popping over his bottom lip, leaving a non-verbal thought between us, before exiting the roof.

"The beginning of a newfound trust I didn't know I could have. The beginning of a new Beast Boy that I didn't know before. Someone who I can be myself with. Someone who can call my bestfriend. The beginning of a great relationship." I'm left with this last thought as I follow him back into the building as to not raise suspicions about our simultaneous absences.

Phew! Okay, so that's the first chapter. Just setting some basic foundations, ya know? I think I did a good job of keeping Raven in character. We never hear her thoughts, but I think inside she sounds like every other teenager going on young adult. So, I'm not a review hoard, but if you want to comment feel free! Feedback, good and bad, is always great. Thanks for reading! More to come! :)

P.S. The book Gone by Michael Grant is actually a RRREEEEAAALLYYY good book. It's absolutely brilliant. You should read it, because I said so.