anonymous asked: Maybe if you ever have time, an AU where Juvia is prego but she loses the baby and things get complicated with Grey and Juvia?

Oh, Anon… Why did you poke thy muse? D:

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Everything happened so fast that Juvia could barely remember the exact details; she had been asleep at her boyfriend's apartment in the middle of the night and the next thing she knew, she was cramping so much the pain woke her and when it became unbearable, she shook him awake.

Gray was confused and sleepy but as soon as the woman moaned in pain grabbing her midsection, all sleep faded away and replaced by concern, especially when he lift the covers and saw that they were bloodied.

She had no idea how she ended up in his car, but she remembered his voice telling everything was going to be alright (but his voice held so much panic that she found it hard to believe) and once they arrived at the hospital, Gray took her inside and all she remembered from that point on was the bright lights.

Once she woke up, Gray was by her side – wearing scrubs – and holding her hand, caressing it mindlessly while resting his head on the bed. Juvia took a moment to analyze her situation (Waking up. Pain. Blood. Oh, yes. Gray-sama had taken her to a hospital) before speaking.

"What happened?" Juvia asked and Gray looked up the moment the words left her mouth. All she could see in his expression was relief.

"You're awake." Gray kissed her hand.

"What happened?" The blunette repeated the question and Gray's expression became grim, but he held her hand tighter and he closed his eyes, as if preparing himself to what to say and Juvia became more concerned by the second.

"Fuck, there's no easy way to say this." Gray sighed and opened his eyes to stare at her once again. "You were in pain because…" he seemed to stop to weigh the words about to come out of his mouth "you were in pain because you were having a miscarriage." Juvia stared at him blankly as Gray watched her expression carefully, probably not knowing what her reaction would be. "The doctors said… I don't understand much about it, but they called an ectopic pregnancy; it was in a place where it couldn't grow. They were able to save you, but not it."

It. Their baby.

"Did you know?" Realizing that he was asking a question, Juvia shook her head, but her mind was elsewhere. "Yeah, I guessed you didn't, otherwise you would've told me." Gray said and seeing the empty look on her face, he added: "I'm… sorry." Even then he got no answer, after a few moment he tried again. "The doctor said you'll be released soon."

Juvia nodded and removed her hand from Gray's, to which he looked confused and then moved so her back was facing him. "Juvia's tired." The blunette whispered and Gray seemed to want to say something, but refrained himself.

Juvia didn't sleep, instead she stayed looking at the white wall of the hospital room, thinking about what had just happened in her life.

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Gray was worried about his girlfriend; it wasn't like her to be so quiet and the ride home after she was released from the hospital had been in silence. She had barely spoken a word ever since she woke up and discovered about the miscarriage and even if Gray wasn't planning to have a kid anytime soon, once the doctor informed him of what was happening, Gray felt like he wanted to throw up, after all, it was his and Juvia's child.

He had shed a tear or two when he realized that he was so close to become a father and then he wasn't anymore, but Juvia had yet to cry and it wasn't like her at all. In a situation like that one, Gray would think that she would be crying to unleash her pain, but… nothing. Just silence.

Once he pulled over in front of his apartment, Gray helped her out the car and up the stairs and once they were inside, he led her to the couch and went to prepare some tea for her – earl grey, her favorite but when he offered it to her, she put it aside on the coffee table and stared out the window.

Tired of her lack of response, Gray grabbed her hand. "Juvia, talk to me. You've barely said three words ever since we left the hospital." Once again without answer, the man tried again. "Look, it was… it was mine too, you know? I am…" He looked for a word to describe what he was feeling. "I am sad too."

"Sad." Juvia whispered, turning slightly so she could look to her boyfriend. "Juvia is not sad."

"Juv-"

"Juvia didn't even know she was pregnant. She had no clue. You couldn't possibly have known, but this is Juvia's body and she didn't know." Her words were calm and controlled and Gray didn't like that a little bit.

"The doctor said it was too early, maybe four or five weeks." Gray said. "You couldn't hav known."

"I should have." He finally saw her eyes water. "Juvia wants a big family, wants to be a mother and she couldn't even realize she was expecting! What does that tells you?" Gray barely heard the last words, as it were drowned in a huge sequence of sobs.

"Hey, hey, hey…" Gray put an arm around her and Juvia finally cried the loss she was holding. "Most women wouldn't have realized, Juvia."

"I lost our baby." She sobbed and his hear broke with her words, gods, she thought it was her fault.

"It's not your fault. It's not your fault at all." Gray whispered into her hair, holding her while she cried. "It's just one of those things that happen, Juvia. Not your fault."

"We didn't even had the time to love it." Juvia said, mortified. "It was inside me for a month and not one time we loved it."

It pained him to see her in such despair and even if he tried to avoid too much emotion, he tried to think something to calm her down, to make her cope. "During the past month, did you think about having children with me?"

"What?"

"Did you?"

"Yes."

"And in your imagination, did you love our child?"

"Very much."

"The child of your imagination would be the one you were carrying." Gray said softly. "It means that if you loved the one in your head, you loved the one in your womb even if you didn't know." Juvia's eyes softened. "And I… Every day for the last month, I thought I loved you even if I never said anything. And I love all of you, which would have included the baby at that point." He nodded. "So, there. We loved it. Unfortunately it wasn't where it was supposed to be and right now we are mourning instead of getting crazy with the news, but… we'll get it right with the next one."

Juvia frowned in confusion. "The next one?"

"The miscarriage showed me something: I…" Gray took a deep breath. "I want a family of my own. I know I always said that I didn't want kids because I would be a terrible dad, but… when I realized you were losing our baby, mine and yours, I realized that I'm all in where it comes to you." He told her. "I want everything."

Juvia kissed his cheek. "Maybe someday we will have it."

"We will." Gray said with certainty. "When we are ready, we'll have everything."

"Okay." Juvia curled around Gray, who tightened his grasp on her as they both mourned and hoped for what would come from the future.

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AN: Going to smash my head into a wall now thank you very much adios amigos.

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01/29/2015 ~ BonneyQ