I do not own anything in regards Fullmetal Alchemist. I even borrowed the name of the story from a song by Thirteen senses. :D First two chapters are kind of prequel, then the story really starts. Hope you like it, read and review! And thank you yourlifeinwords for beta reading!

He had been given his sight back. After weeks of darkness, there was finally light. Riza would always remember the look Roy gave to her, when he finally saw something. It was like he had seen her for the first time. Riza responded with a smile, she was so happy for him. She could drown in those dark eyes. But finally Roy looked away, and happiness in his eyes was replaced with sadness. Her smile faded too.

She knew what he was thinking about. After all they had been through, there was still a wall between them. She had saved his life so many times, and he had saved her. But she knew that nothing was going to change, not really. He loved her, she knew that. And she loved him like nothing else in the world. "I can not lose you", Mustang had said, after Riza had stopped him from killing Envy. They needed each other. And because of that, they wouldn't say anything about how they really felt. If they would do what they wanted to, it would ruin everything. They would be separated; she would be fired from the military and he would never be the Fuhrer. She needed to keep him safe. He needed her to fulfill his dreams.

So he gave her one look and she gave him one smile. That was everything they could give to each other. Roy turned to look at everyone else. He thanked doctor Marcoh, and everyone congratulated him. Havoc, Breda, Falman and Fuery were all there to see the miracle. Havoc had got his legs back the day before. There was a lot of work to be done before he could walk like before, but it was only a question of time. They spoke about throwing a party for Mustang. "You have to test your eyes on pretty girls", said Havoc smiling. "And maybe I will find a new girlfriend too, now that I have my legs back!" All the boys laughed. Nothing had changed. She moved into the background. That was her place, watching his back. It has always been her place, and would always be.

But so much had happened that Roy couldn't just ignore everything. When he had finally saw something else than black, he had started to search her face without even realizing it. And there she was with her blond hair hanging free, covering nearly entirely the bandage in her neck. She was so beautiful. When she noticed that he was looking at her, she smiled like he had never seen her smile. For one moment there was no one else. Then he realized what he was doing. He could never have her. So he looked away and tried to ignore the urge to tell her everything. For a while, he managed to do that. But when he was home that night, alone in his small apartment, he just couldn't do it anymore. He capped his coat and ran out of the door.

That night he appeared in her front door. Riza had been allowed to go home from the hospital a couple of days earlier. But she had lost a lot of blood, and was still feeling weak and sleepy. So she had gone to bed early that night. She woke up when Black Hayate started to bark. She went to the door and couldn't believe her eyes; there he was, standing in the rain.

"Colonel! What are you doing here?" Riza said, looking perplexed to see him there. Roy was breathing hard, like he had run for a long time. He just stared at her, like he wanted to say something, but couldn't. "Did something happened?" she asked, wondering what was wrong. Roy's breathing slowed a little. He looked a little desperate and seemed to lose his ability to speak. Riza was starting to get a little scared. "You are all wet. Come in, let's talk", she said, practically pulling him inside.

He stood in her hallway, dripping water on the floor. She closed the door. "Now tell me what is wrong? You're worrying me", she said. Finally he took a deep breath and spoke with speed, like he was afraid that time was running out.

"I can't pretend anymore. Not after everything that has happened. Not after I almost lost you..." He said, and he didn't take his eyes off her. Riza was stunned. If she had guessed what he was going to say, it definitely wasn't this.

"What do you mean?" In her heart she knew what he meant. She just didn't want to get disappointed if it wasn't what she thought it was. And she also knew that this was wrong. He looked at her, begging with his eyes for her to understand.

"When I saw you there, lying in the pool of blood, I was so scared... The thought that you could have died haunts me. I just can't live without you. I need you. When I saw you after all the darkness, I felt like I could survive from anything. And I felt a desperate need to tell you how important you are to me. I know I can't have you, but still... I love you like nothing else", he said. He looked deep into her eyes. He needed her to understand. Slowly, Riza's stunned face turned into a smile. She wanted to tell him exactly the same, but instead she acted.

She walked closer and carefully placed her lips against his. It was soft at first, but soon became more passionate. He put his arms around her and continued to kiss her. She finally broke the kiss and muttered, "We shouldn't be doing this." His arms were still around her. "I know", he said, but didn't let go. She knew they should have stopped, but she couldn't resist those dark eyes, not when she saw such a desire in them. She kissed him again and he pulled her closer, never wanting to let go.

The next morning they woke up late. Roy had his arms around her, keeping her close. He hadn't let her out of his arms all night. They had never slept well after Ishval, but this night had been different. It was like a dream, a moment from someone else's life, not theirs. Riza sighed. She would have wanted to wake up like this every morning, but she knew this was going to be the only time. They couldn't risk their careers like this again. It had been foolish to give in to their desires, but they couldn't resist it anymore. Was it too much to ask to have just one night? One night to keep them going, to fix their scars.

He was awake too, but they both didn't say anything. Neither wanted to be the one to break the bubble. But eventually Roy had to say something. "You know... Maybe someday, when I become the Fuhrer, and Amestris is a democracy, this could be the way we wake up every day. You could resign from the military and we could get married and maybe even have a family..." he said, dreaming of all that. He wanted her to know this wasn't just a one night stand. She meant so much more than that.

She smiled at the idea. "Yeah. Maybe then you wouldn't need me to watch your back and I could really resign..." She said. But until that day she knew they had to keep on going just like they didn't have any feelings towards each other. He needed her to get to the top; he needed her to watch her back. And she couldn't breathe easily if she couldn't keep an eye on him. But after he had reached his goal, yeah, she might be able to rely on others to keep him save. Maybe then she might be allowed to have some happiness herself. "It's a deal then", he said, smiling. He kissed her neck carefully, where there was still a bandage where the scar was. Then, he pulled her a little closer and they held each other for one moment more, before they had to let go.

The next day, they acted like nothing had happened. That night they were celebrating Mustang's new eyes, as well as Havoc's new legs. She though that their old team guessed that something had changed between their Colonel and first lieutenant, but said nothing. They knew how things were, and that there was nothing they could do. For the next few years, Riza cherished the memory of that one night, and she knew Roy did too. But there was a lot of work to be done before the promise they had made could be fulfilled.