Title: Natsu no kōrinoFuyu Kasai (winter's fire summer's ice)

Summary: "There is light and there is darkness, there is fire and there is ice, there is summer and there is winter, there is yin and yang and then Sakura... there is you and me. " Fate had bound them together by the strings of their hearts and the cells of their flesh from the moment the cosmos erupted. Fate did not intend to let them go. Their love would draw blood and corrupt souls.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto of any sort. This disclaimer is applied for ALL chapters.

{Chapter One}

I couldn't breathe. I gasped for air; panicking. I let out a series of coughs, grabbed the dirt and with one last heave I pulled myself out of the hole. I fell flat on the muddy, wet ground and let the glacial rain beat on my face, numbing my skin. I coughed and coughed as the dirt scraped against my throat. It was dry and coarse, scraping and hurt more than I could have ever imagined.

Why did I even save myself? I should have just stayed there. He should have drugged me just a little bit more and I wouldn't have woken up at all. I shouldn't have but I couldn't fight the human instincts to stay alive, so I saved myself. Again.

I shivered, the night was cold and the dirty clothes stuck to me. I couldn't move, I was too tired and my mind was still in a strong cloud of disorientation, as one would expect from going through an ordeal such as this one. The world was spinning in different directions and shimmering, clouding and fogging around me. For now, all I could do was lay still and breathe. With my eyes wide open I mentally added this to my list of the worst possible things that could have ever happen to me in my life. My list was getting longer and longer every time and the longer it got the less I could take.

The insides of my stomach gnawed at me. My breathing was rough, strained and forced- I was wheezing into madness. God my skin burned and ached, the cuts causing enough pain to keep my eyes wide open. They would get infected if I survived this I'm sure.

I was still bleeding. I couldn't really remember what even happened this time to lead up to this or how he managed to get me here. He drugged me a too many times and for too long that I find that it didn't even really matter much. His motives were always the same, interlocked and connected one way or another. This wasn't to kill me, if it was I'd already be dead. This…this was just to make me suffer.

I was -at the moment- glued to the muddy, wet ground. The very ground I was in not too long ago. Maybe, this was the time I should just stay here and die. The human instincts were in but it didn't matter because I couldn't move. Maybe I should just die here and get it over with and make life easier for the world. I'm just taking up too much space as it is in life. I'm just here for no purpose at all. I'm just here, alive for the mere fact of being here and alive.

Okay, enough with the pity party Sakura, I don't want to die and I don't want you to die. You know you don't. Thinking like that ain't helping us none. My inner voice chimed in. It had been way too quiet in my head that I was relieved to hear from her.

I don't want to live anymore…I can't live through all of this anymore. I just want to die. I'm ready. I told her.

She was silent for a while. She knew I was talking the truth, it didn't matter if I wanted to live or not. The truth was, I was probably going to die here tonight one way or another. But I wouldn't survive this would I? I was going to die here tonight.

We can make it… she said finally.

We can't make it…I don't even know where I am. I can't even move. I said

Well we're going to die trying. I'm not going to die right here on this cold muddy ground without a fight. I didn't know you to be so weak willed either. Sakura we were going to move and start a new life, go to a new school and he was going to leave for a while. We promised we'd make it. We promised Ino we'd make it. We promised ourselves we'd make it. Don't you remember that?

I sighed and my chest tightened painfully. She was right. I did promise that we'd make it and that things would get better for us. We were going to start over, the two of us. Ino was going to be there for us, I was going to live with her, my best friend when dad was away. I was going to move away from mom, I was going to begin again. The air was going to be different, the people, the lives and things would look up. The sun would start shining and I'd be happy. I'd get treatment; I would get help and be better. Tsunade was going to help me and my life would die as I walked away from this town and I would be born again as the new one started. I vowed I would make it, even this one last time, I vowed that I would.

I never saw this happening to me. This had never been in the plan and this really felt like an obstacle I wouldn't be able to get over. I sighed again then cringed, groaned and moaned in pain. I was really too close to making it out of this place; I couldn't let this stop me.

Fine we're going to try. Help me as much as you can

I always help as much as I can. We need to get moving. She said to me.

I twitched my fingers, trying to get back feeling in them, up my arm, my shoulders. I moved my toes, awakening my feet, legs and thighs. I wasn't even standing and I could feel the weight of them. It felt like they weight of them had tripled, more than I could lift. I stuck my hands into the wet earth, grabbing hold of it to get my bearings and pushed myself up into a sitting position. I was beyond freezing. With the force I knew I did not really posses I got to my feet and staggered. Everything spun around me and I stumbled forward, unable to really hold my entire body up. My palm slapped against a tree and for a minute, I slumped against it breathing heavily. There was so much pain I could smell it on me.

We're not too far from the road that I'm sure of.

I pushed my body from the trunk and started walking, more like jay-walking and stumbling forward in whatever direction my inner told me to go in. I didn't know where I was so I listened to her, trusting her instincts more than I dared trust my own. I could hardly see through the pelting of the rain, my teeth chattering as I walked. It felt like I was walking through water at the bottom of the ocean with an anchor tied to both my ankles.

We'll be there soon and maybe we can find somebody to help us.

Nobody is going to help us. Nobody is going to pick us up. People don't help people like us especially in this rain. I informed her. I usually wasn't this bitter. I was always happy and but right now that was impossible for me. I was dying with every step I took. I felt like I was drowning from the inside out.

You're probably right but there are a few nice people like us left…it's not impossible. We are bleeding-

It's the middle of the night, it is raining like storm and we're covered in mud. Sakura nobody is going to care if we're bleeding here. Please just stop. I begged.

Sakura I am sorry, she said to me, I am sorry but come on, please don't be like that.

Don't apologize. Let's just walk…in silence I said to her. My head was mine again. I prayed that Tsunade was still at the hospital and not home packing to move.

I stumbled through the last of the forest almost tripping when my foot touched pavement. I didn't think I could go much further, I couldn't control myself of the panic that was seizing me against my will. I couldn't breathe, so under-oxygenated. The air scraped my windpipe and brunt my throat. Inside of my mouth felt dry and dusty like coal. My chest was tightening and I knew that I was having an attack.

What time do you think it is? I asked my inner as I leaned heavily on the light post that had been a few feet away from me.

Um I really don't know…I'm going to guess and say it's after midnight, maybe like 1:35 or somewhere there. She replied.

Not many good people would be walking around now at this time much less. So I was in a rut at the moment, a painful and bleeding rut. How do I get out of it? I needed some help and I needed it now or I'd be dead before I made the curb.

As I stared through the pouring rain I saw a black umbrella moving quickly this way. The person stopped not too far from me and checked the watch on their hand then they made one step, the process of crossing the road.

What should I do? My voice is practically gone, I can barely talk. I said to my inner, my mind racing.

It's worth a shot, she replied as she bit her lip.

What if he doesn't-?

We don't have time for the "what if's" he's almost halfway across the road! We have to act now or we're dead for sure! She screamed at me and I flinched.

"Hey!" I yelled as loud as I could which wasn't really loud at all considering the loud booming of the rain hitting the pavement. The figure stopped and looked around. Pushing my body, pushing it to its brink I walked right to the road and stepped on it.

His head was moving around and finally landed on me. Whoever they were grunted and began walking again.

"Please stop!" I begged as I coughed and a metallic taste filled my mouth. I coughed again and I felt it trickle down the side of my mouth; my blood.

The person stopped and their head whipped around to me so fast I thought they'd break their neck. "What?"

I flinched as a chill ran up my body. It was obviously a male and his voice clarified that for me. I squinted as the umbrella tilted up and I saw him. Maybe he was well dressed, maybe he wasn't I could barely tell with the spiraling that began to happen inside of me.

"Please help me," I begged, "can I have a phone call please?" Desperation laced my voice.

"No," he replied icily and suddenly the rain didn't feel so cold anymore compared to his hard tone.

I felt a little relived that I couldn't see his face because maybe that would scare me too much. I needed that phone call, I had to try again.

"I won't take your phone or anything sir if that's what you're thinking." I said to him pleadingly. I staggered back, the pavement caving under me. "Please,"

"No," he replied

"Can you make the call for me then?" I blurted before he could turn around and begin walking again. I was heaving at this point and I coughed. I put my hand at my mouth as I coughed again and a wad of blood hit my fingers. I looked at my bloody hand and it was shaking like a leaf. "Please, I'm dying."

He clearly could see that I wasn't joking.

"Who do you wish to call?"

"My doctor,"

"You have a doctor?" he asked incredulously.

I could understand that he was skeptic. I didn't think I looked like the Having A Personal Doctor Type though I myself wasn't sure what that type would even look like. This was my only chance.

"Yes,"

"Name," he demanded.

"Tsunade," I wheezed and coughed again, grasping my abdomen in pain. I wasn't sure if I was actually crying or if it was simply the rain. My eyes rolled a little and I bent forward, hands on my knees shaking. I had to stay awake. I had to. Just a while longer.

He turned around and made a move to walk away. "Make the call! You'll see I'm telling the truth," I panted hoarsely, my voice was hardly above a whisper. My stomach clenched with agony and I screamed, I couldn't have held it in even if I wanted to as a pain pierced me from rib to hip.

He turned to me again and I heard him sigh over the rain. "I doubt that," he said harshly, "I find no reason to believe you."

"Please," I begged, "I have no reason to bother you sir. Please just make the call for me. I need to talk to her, she needs to come and get me."

He sighed again and his hand went into his pocket and he pulled out a phone. "The number, that is, if you know it."

I wheezed again for air before I answered him. I gave him the number and he put it on speaker. He walked over closer to me, not close enough to share his umbrella not that it would make a difference now anyways, so I could hear the phone.

"Hello?" a panicked voiced asked.

"Tsunade, it's me-" I began and she totally cut me off.

"My god!" she screamed. "Where are you? We've been looking everywhere for you! Sakura, please tell me what's going on! Are you hurt?"

"I need help…l-lots of he..lp. You ha…have to come a-and get me." I wailed. There was so my pain, it started seizing my muscles.

"Where are you?"

"I don't know-"

"She's currently on Leo Drive 36 in front of the closed down supermarket." The man –who's name I did not know- replied for me. I could just kiss him but he'd be repelled by me anyways.

"For the love of God what are you doing down there? Just what did he do to you?" she demanded. "Whoever is with you right now, ask them to stay with you. I'll dispatch an ambulance right away, we'll be there soon. Do not move." Then the line went dead.

The world was looping in and out of reality now. I was seeing four of everything around me and I couldn't feel the rain on my skin anymore even though I was standing in it. I couldn't feel the pain anymore around my body.

"Thank you," I whispered to him though I wasn't sure if I thanked him in my head or if I actually said it out loud.

I couldn't…a deadweight feeling landed in my chest with a kind of agony that sent my mind reeling. I stumbled back but then everything went black around me.

Alright, so there it is, the first chapter down. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Don't be afraid to read and review.

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D.V