Dekka Talent was depressed. Not unusual, for a girl like her. She sat at the pier, doing nothing but lazily dragging her submerged feet around to make patterns in the water. Her thoughts eventually turned to Brianna, just like they always did. Heedless of being in her clothes, she jumped into the ocean just to feel the water. The pressure above her blocked out most noise and all sight, but only heightened the pace of her thoughts.

I cannot seem to reach you
Although you're so close now
I'm moving 'round in circles
Come to me

Brianna was so close, just so close! But that was in technical distance, not real distance. In reality she was just beyond reach. Dekka saw her love every day, but around her shoulders was Jack's arms. So she kept thinking. Should she tell Brianna? No, Brianna might like her. Yes, that would be great! A load off her back. No, it would only wreck their relationship beyond repair. She couldn't decide, her thoughts going around in circles.

I cannot seem to leave you
I'll reach out to you now
You're moving way too fast, love
Stay with me

Still she couldn't work up the nerve to say anything, despite the fact that Dekka couldn't imagine life without Brianna. Fast, fast breezy Brianna. Dekka could just imagine her love practically flying into her arms, and her reaching out to receive her, laughing and smiling. But she could also imagine the ever-more-likely scenario of a shocked and horrified Brianna flying away, leaving a crying, broken Dekka behind. That was the first time Dekka decided that Brianna was too fast for her own good. It was also the first time she realized just how badly she wanted the girl to stay with her.

Now I know it is time to move on
And I know that I should forget you now
But I can't change, no
The way I feel about you

Dekka resurfaced and treaded water. She should forget Brianna, for her own sanity if nothing else. She knew she had to forget her. Still, she couldn't. Still, her memory was persistent in reminding her little tidbits about the running girl. Dekka was stuck in love, she realized, and she couldn't change how she felt about Brianna. She was stuck in Brianna's web, but as a stashed aside morsel: unsavory and inedible but stuck, nonetheless, to the silvery trap.

I cannot understand this
The change in your emotions
And why you cannot love me
The way I am

Dekka had never really been interested in boys. There it was, cold and simple. She didn't know what it was like, didn't understand it. She didn't understand how Brianna might love Computer Jack, but not her. If she had been a boy in an alternate universe, maybe, but not here. Not as she was. No, never as she was, because as it was she would just ruin the relationship they had managed to cobble up through common experiences.

Now I know it is time to move on
And I know that I should forget you now
But I can't change, no
The way I feel about you

Jack. Computer Jack. Brianna had him, and they were definitely in love with each other. There was no room for Dekka in Brianna's heart, not like that anyway. Dekka realized she should have moved on long ago, because of how much it hurt to see that. But how could she have forgotten it? Dekka realized that she couldn't have, and that doesn't make her feel any better than she was. Possibly worse.

I cannot find the right words
Why don't you understand them
How much I really want you
To change your mind

Dekka might have yearned for Brianna, but she had to make her understand how she felt before jumping in the deep end. She went back under water, swimming like a dolphin. Words. She needed the right words for Brianna to understand her, understand how much Dekka loved her and how much she wanted her to change her mind about Jack, however selfish that might be. Love does strange things.

Now I know it is time to move on
And I know that I should forget you now
But I can't change, no
The way I feel about you

Dekka knew that it wouldn't happen. That Brianna was gone, lost to Jack. But that didn't mean she had to accept it, or that she could. She took one last plunge in the ocean before swimming back to the pier. She walked back to town in the meager light, trailing salt water and tears.

My first song-fic ever...and probably terrible. Tips? Song is The Way I Feel by Nemesea.